i cleaned my fuckin ass off today...seriously...but our apartment looks spectacular! all we have to do for thursday is the floors, and those can wait so they can sparkle! we got a bunch of wings from the new place on main st. they were awesome! ralph came over and hang out for a bit, and after the game we all went to party america to get plates and turkey-ish stuff for thursday. our apartment is going to look great! then we get to start on christmas! im excited that we get to decorate this year! last year we spent christmas eve at chris' mom's so there was no reason to really decorate anything. this year they're coming here. we get to get a tree and everything. anywho, once back here we wacthed a movie, and now chris is out picking up chad and getting pizza. heh sunday is no diet day.

so i've reached that age. the age where all my friends are getting engaged. today i heard about the 6th one in like a month. congrats guys! next year im gonna be a bridesmaid again the day before my bday...i really hope this isnt cursing me to be "always a bridesmaid, never a bride" cuz well...id like to get married before im 50...


*warning ranty section*
i realized today how much i actually dislike my job. now, i love the kids. i love photography. but i dont like people who assume because i work at the mall im either not a real photographer OR that it gives them the right to treat me like an idiot/slave/whatever. you know, im not selling you a shirt. im using skill, hard work, and creativity to take pictures of children youve already done something to upset. im sorry i can mindcontrol them, im sorry its your only day off, and im sorry "she's nevr like this", but im not a miracle worker....im also not a whipping girl, so dont make me the scapegoat to your shitty day. all this and i still do everything i can to make sure these kids have an enjoyable experience, that theyre happy to be there, and that i at least try to get them to smile. i feel like nothing i do is ever good enough for anyone there. my managers dont seem to have any faith in me, and honestly im starting to lose faith in myself. im tired of always struggling with it. not the job itself, just the fact that i cant please anyone, ever. ok...

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