I saw death today. I know because I had seen her before. She had not changed in all those years. The last time I was but a boy swimming and treading the atlantic ocean. I was at one of those ages that made me invincible or so I thought until faced with danger. This time danger almost became death as I was determined to reach that SandBar where the waves were huge, because I saw others much bigger than me doing the same. Out there alone because my little brother had already lost his battle with the waves. This gave me a bigger sense of pride. I was like a Champion Boxer dukeing it out with Mother Nature. I would get one step forward and the waves would push me two steps back. Then I saw her. She was younger than me and she floated beside me unbothered by the waves. She reached out to grab my hand and I went under. I could see water washing over above me and the sunlight protruding through and now I was caught by the wave and the undertoe. It was scary and beautiful because thats what death is.

I was saved. Two girls saw me go under and came to my rescue. Once I was cleared headed and the adreneline had subsided I looked out to see if that girl had won against the waves, but she was no longer there.

I told my Mother that evening, "I saw a girl next to me in the water when I was starting to drown and she reached out to grab me. "

My mother looked down ever so lovingly and replied, "They say that Death sometimes comes to those as a little girl."

"Why a little girl momma?"

"Because people are often upset when they die, but who could be upset at a little girl?"

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Sorry no Disco here. I am here sitting in shirt and undies playing guild wars and finishing up Rah Xephon. Really awesome anime except!! There is this truely strange twist that no one seemed to pick up on. Ayato and Mishima fall in love.. But not only are they lovers, they are cousins? WHA? As in the movie Mishima says, "Thanks, Aunt" HOWEVER It seems that Ayato's mom is Mishima's step fathers daughter??? So REALLY that makes it her Step Sister? Which means then... It would be her nephew??? But I think what it comes down to is his daughter wasn't truely his daughter for she was an intrumentalist her self UNTIL! she became preganant with Ayato...


Besides that its really awesome... Really awesome... Really

I am the excited owner of one IPOD Shuffle!!! Sweet! Its cool just because now when I go out to walk brain I don't get as bored as easily.

I wish I had a camera, I came up with some awesome shots while Letting Brain act out his animalistic side in the fields behind my house. It was very interesting to see him scurrying about like a wild dingo, scavenging and chasing down anything that moved which out their varried from Birds Flying By and Plastic Bags
Drove to Diamond Bar and Discovered driving 80 miles with the windows down on the Fwy is really fun. Well as long as the traffic is going otherwise its really just a pain in the ass.

Lost of my phone. I suppose a 300 dollar phone bill will do that. My calls consisted of Calling Justin and Patrick... The bigger ones were calling Patrick.... Apparently I had one costing me 30 dollars and one costing me 25 dollars... Stupid Cell Phones.. I think I am done with Cell Phones for now... The charges are outragous.

Plus.. Have you ever looked at your phone logg??? I did and I have calls on their I nor Justin ever made and unless Pinky or Brain has suddenly grown an interest in "Talk" lines and New York City nite life there are some serious mistakes...

Note to Patty: I need a way to contact you when it is time for Guild Wars Action... Can't Text Message online since your phone does not have SMS function it being a prepaid phone and all...

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I am sooooooo tired right now, I swear if I didn't keep moving I would fall asleep. I had unusal dreams last night that involved alot of sex... I suppose that would happen when what you think is a movie downloading turns out to be a Porn with an acctually intriguing storyline....


Furthermore, Getting up in the morning is getting harder again and I assume its this cold thats linger in the back of my face just waiting to burst out like a chest burster.

I keep getting Hot Flashes and My period is coming so all around things are not looking good for anyone with in a one mile ratus.. and if that person is on the phone or on the internet chatting with me than that range increases depending on what the say and how I feel at the moment....

Is it Strange that find Justin's extensive knowledge in all things ALIEN (the movie) rather sexy?

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Legare called last night. Finnally. For a while I thought he didn't like me anymore, but then after my sillness I acknowledge his busyness. We were to meet for lunch, but he thinks he has contracted Food Poisoning and the 14 is No Go anyways due to California Drivers being what they are.

I was kind of excited to see the EX. Not to romantize things, but just to see how he is doing now and to show him how I am doing. Its that last and final realization that I am happy and looking better.

I did the same for Justin as well when we met up with his ex. To let them know what sort of life we lead now and the life they possibly could of led with us.

But then I realize... I am who I am today because of Justin. and the same for Legare. He is who is because of his girl and then I realize we were children then, grasping each others like bouys in the water. Hoping not to get swallowed by the ocean we treaded in. Life seemed so complicated back then...

Life did seem complicated when I was 18, When I was 17, and 16, and 15... and now when I see people that age chatting about how life is complicated from them now, I find myself giggling at the complexity of adolesence..... and sometimes I envy it.

But mostly I giggle... I enjoy the freedom of adulthood.....

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To much guild wars.. In one of my pre-sleep hallucinations I kept hearing Little Thom is dead. Strange and Unusual..


Fucked up thing that happened to Amelia today:

I have been drinking Slim Fast not to lose weight, but the cappachino flavor is easier on my stomach than real coffee. Though Ladies I have lost some waist inches!!! Always nice!!! : ) anyways Today's Slim Fast did not taste right... It smelled like my Dog... I kept sniffing... Its not the drink... Its the can... and it smells HORRIABLE like my MALE dog...

I dunno... but then around the base, where hand goes I see yellow spots... not alot, but just a spot here and there... and it smells like my MALE dog who likes to mark his territory..

I throw up... Several times (mostly just Dry Heeves) and ate two different types of gum, gargled with lots of water, Two Big Hamburgers and a Green Tea Frappachino.. It was really fucked up... I was sick the rest of the day.. Even though It was not in my drink or near the opening... It was just the smell.. and the thought...

Fucked Up.... Why do things like that happen to me!!!!!!! *cries*

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Just in case anyone needed any office/school products apparently Fedex Kinko's is having a team member contest whp ever generates the most online office product sales. Prizes are: Two 42" HD Plasma TVS Six Air Vouchers 10 Apple ipods 20 100 AMEX Gift Certificates Well if your already looking officeproducts.fedexkinkos.com and in the Order Name Field put: 0351 Amelia Grace so that I get the credit for it. I dunno, not really going to stretch it to hard, but eh it never hurts... Getting something for free and AWESOME is always nice...

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