I am back from vacation.
No not a vacation a time out.
A period to bleep out of existance and then to regather the millions of pieces that make me.
At some point in my new life I fell and shattered myself. Fragments had been shoved in all directions and I lost all that was me even when I swept it together in one pile it was just a pile of me I was not not whole.

But I am now and I feel fantastic. Unstressed, unbothered by those around me and those who wish me harm.

Tommorow is Solstice and I plan to celebrate appropiately.

Its the darkest day of the year tommorow and still light will eventually prevail and the world will begin again...

I will begin again....

I am glad to be home and this morning I work up appropiately and after I managed to blink my eyes open and showered I dialed my newly wedded brother. I was Half expecting my brother to be somber and upset with my no show at his day, but he was in a very joyous mood. I suppose during his wedding day he realized just what I told him. Its not about me or whos there. Its about him and her.

First class is awesome.... and if I could afford to would fly everytime

I made off with an American Airlines Blanket in which I will turn into a quilt that will become a home to my memories for my trip.

I am going to work on m y website this week...

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I am in Texas right now. Enjoying the countrylife. Wrestling Daisy the Boxer and Sammy the American Bulldog. Running down to the lake, collecting Mistletoe and hanging it about in the spirit of Winter Soltice / Christmas. Making eateries for our Christmas Dinner.

We got to watch the Movie Hitch and they gave us fear ear phones (coach had to pay $2.00) We also had our Complimentary Drink (I went with Coffee) and Warmed Mixed Nuts. Then we had dinner which was Salad and a Wonderful Pasta or RIb Dish (I choose Pasta of Course) with Bread (I choose Wheat) and a Drink (I went with Red Wine) for dessert we had butterscotch icecream with brownie topping and a rasberry filling AND we even got a hot towel.. It was WONDERFUL


I love it here. I can not wait til we get to move here.. Its breathtaking and so relaxing... I let everything float away and I don't even want to leave the house. I have this strange fantasy of me laying in the backyard, next to the lake. The dogs lay around me and slumber as I fall deeply into a good book. The day just passing by.I should do that.. Sit outside and read.... Even in winter its sooo awesome..

The lake is partly dryed up exposing a beaver's den. The dogs have taken it upon themselves to make it there own private home forcing the beavers to move and every once in awhile we can't find them because they are so snug in there den...

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I hate the begining of taking Adderall.. Every time I begin again the first few nights I suffer insomnia or sleep "trances" which is where your body losses fragments of time as if asleep, but your not rested and you know you weren't really asleep.

Sucks... Thankfully... Sam Came through and we had a Starbucks Partay!!!


I called back Countrywide this morning and the job they are offering me is an entry level position that is Full Time Temp with the promise of Full Time Permenant... Its an administration/date entry job. They say they pay betweent 9 - 10.50 and I would be OUT of sales. But I do not know how to feel about it yet.

I am going to go to the interview HEAR what they have to offer me and then use my vacation to ponder the possibilities.


What do you think??

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Just returned home from a night of Star War's I throughly enjoyed it. There was a small pass of time in which I was bored and slightly drunk from an appletini... I went home took some adderall, went to Starbuck and bought a pretty yummy sandwich labeled Grandma's Turkey Sandwich (Which I think should be renamed Grandma's After Thanksgiving Turkey Sandwich) because it had this cranberry sauce that tasted like cranberry stuffing.. and coffee... This made the world seem brighter and colors more vivid and my interest in things peaked again....


I saw Chronicles of Narnia, which was apparently dripping with Christian Allegory, but I didn't catch on except for they referred to the children and sons and daughters of adam and eve. Justin on the other hand caught on... Im soo silly... I didn't even know that their was an apostle named Peter...

Le Sigh....


Yesterday was great as well.. I got to be in a parade with all the troops... Then what was left of my troop after the parents picked up and left we all went to vince's and some yummy pizza and pasta.. Kicked one of the girl's butts at Tekken 2 and the parents thanked me for my volunteering.

It was great...

Finished the Anime: Now and Then Here and There. VERY GOOD!! I even got Justin hooked.

I am going on Vacation this week and Justin *grmubles* is on Vacation for 2 WEEKS! 2 WEEKS!!

Grrrr... : ) oh well...

Going to Texas... Missing Chris's Wedding and he refuses to let me tell him sooo..

He is going to be one pissed puppy, but he will have to learn that I can't ... I am not made of money, I am sorry that we are stationed here, and that the wedding isn't about me anyways.. Its about him and his wife... Its their day and they won't even be paying attention to who is there...

so : P

Also I am now learning Sign Language....

<--- excited face....

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This year I will not only be celebrating Christmas, but will also be Celebrating Winter Soltice.


I am sooo excited. I am begining to practice my faith FINNALLY!! and openly and not worry about reprocussions, other's ideas, and my own insecurities...


Justin is more open to the idea now that I am referring myself to being Pagan (which he is also) rather than Wiccan or Withcraft. Via Justin's Mouth ""Wiccan" is a "religion that only began 30 - 50 years ago and Withcraft is a word made up by Christians to demonize Paganism." Then I look at him and say Well all I know is that I have a family history of "witches" including the Amelia I am named after who is my Great Great Grandmother or something like that and is a lot older than 30 - 50 .. I would say maybe 100 years or more..... So : P

In celebration of Winter Soltice I went to Paint A Dream and Decorated a little tile with mistletoe that I will hang above the front door. For good luck...

Do they Still sell Yule?? But I do not even have a fire place...

All I know is I am excited..

Note to Patty: I am on Aim... Where are you?

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I feel queasy.... Its all in my head. Its all in my head. Right as I pass Fred I hear him chime in, "Thats right Amelia its all in your head." Maybe its the Caffiene and lack of acctual nourishment. Maybe its bad, or its been sitting so long that fungi and bacteria has begun to grow and now I am going to die a horriable death... Probably not, but it could happen...

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