A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence
"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"
"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation
"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes
"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita
"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics
Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Blue Milk Special
Cigarro & Cerveja
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Eat That Toast!
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
The Intrepid Girlbot
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
The League of Evil Genius
Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
The Moon Prince
Moth (Some nudity)
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
The Property of Hate
Robbie and Bobby
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Strong Female Protagonist
The Super Fogeys
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy
Yellow Peril (PG-13)
Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
The Book of Biff
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Daisy is Dead
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hello with Cheese
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing
Meat and Plastic
The Nerds of Paradise
No Reason Comics
One Swoop Fell
Pictures for Sad Children
A Redtail's Dream
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
YU + ME
Pure Flash Awesomeness
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
Clients from Hell
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Monday, January 18, 2016
Lazy again today :( [2P]
Sunday, January 17, 2016
Skipped a day
Saturday, January 16, 2016
Gym time today: 1.5 hours.
Total this week: 11 hours.
Too busy yesterday to go to the gym. :( I stayed up well past 3 AM finishing my application essay for grad school, then went to bed... and right around when I fell asleep, some dude messaged me eighteen times in ten minutes on OKC. It woke me up and I was like "wtf, who is messaging me at 3:43 AM." Silenced my tablet after the first ten messages or so and went back to sleep, then looked at them in the morning. Eighteen messages. Why. Whyyyyyy. -__-
Umm... had babywork at 8:45 AM, so I didn't get to sleep much, but I left early (around 11 AM) to go home and sleep for a little before my crisis line shift... And School Alex picked me up from my shift to go hang out with my friends. We ended up hanging out until past midnight... So yeah... long day yesterday...
Today was less busy. I didn't make it to my regular gym classes this morning because I had writing group, but that was okay I guess. I didn't have a piece for writing group because I was so focused on just writing my application essay the past few days, but I wrote something for our in-meeting exercise, and it was okay.
Came home... ate food... played some dumb match-three game for an unreasonable amount of time... napped for a little bit... Then went to the gym.
Not having slept much in the past couple days, I felt kind of tired and out of it, but I ran two miles and walked one, then went on the Stairmaster for about half an hour. Used some of the weight machines while I was cooling down from that, then walked another mile. According to the machines I burned ~700 calories, but assuming they were at least 20% off, it was probably closer to 560 (or lower?). I guess that's not too bad for an hour and a half though, I dunno.
I want to see if I can run 3.5 miles again but I've been far too tired the past few days to manage it. :(
At the crisis line, there are some callers who have been calling for years. Some of them are friendly and appreciative, but others are very abrasive and angry. The ones in the latter category call and talk about the same things over and over again. They never seem to reach any resolution, and it's not clear if they even feel better by the end of the call, after all their ranting. My supervisor says that they must be getting something out of calling, because otherwise it wouldn't make sense for them to keep doing it. I don't know what they're getting from ranting at strangers on the phone so much, but I think she is probably right. I don't know what goes on in these people's lives after they hang up the phone, but maybe they do feel a bit better once they've let off some steam. Perhaps they are able to have more normal social interactions once they get out their aggression with the crisis line. I don't think that it's likely that they act the way they do on the line 100% of the time in their daily lives. The line, after all, is for crises. Thinking about this helps me be more patient with callers.
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Gym time today: 1 hour.
Total this week: 9.5 hours.
No records beat today. Ran two miles at 7.2 mph, went to use the weight machines/cool off, came back and ran one more mile, then walked one.
I am writing my application essay and talking about confronting the reality that I will die one day. Discussing how this makes me value the time I have before that happens.
That's all for now.
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Gym time today: 1 hour.
Total this week: 8.5 hours.
So I ran 3.5 miles continuously today. That's the longest distance I've ever run, and it's more than twice than the 1.5 miles I was doing before. I was running at an 8:20 minute mile speed (7.2mph I think), which was pretty comfortable. I think I could have run longer, but I made the mistake of not taking off my jacket before starting, and I was getting pretty warm by the end of the 3.5 miles, so I slowed down to take off my jacket and walked the last half mile to round it out to 4 miles. The treadmill said I burned 360 calories, but as I've said before, I am pretty sure that's a lie.
After that, I hopped on the Stairmaster for 20 minutes to finish up my hour at the gym. It said I burned almost 240 calories, but eh. I didn't use the rails (is that what they're called?) on either machine, and I entered my age/weight, which should have helped make the calorie count more accurate, but I'm sure they're still off by some amount. Just wish I knew how much. I looked at a couple different articles, and it seems like machines can overestimate anywhere between 12-42%, so that's... really unhelpful. Bluh.
I've been kind of idly considering cutting someone out of my life. I don't know if it would help anything, and maybe it wouldn't make a practical difference if I did or didn't do it. Lately it's been feeling like this person contributes nothing of value to my life, though. Anyway, I don't feel like they even care about me enough to notice whether or not I'm there, so it probably doesn't matter what I do. I should make more room in my life for people who actually value me.
Not as short as I thought this would be [DP]
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Cheese and prunes
Monday, January 11, 2016
Gym time today: 5 hours.
Total this week: 6.5 hours.
Five hours in one day was maybe too much. I did bootcamp this morning, then walked two miles at a 4.5mph speed while my mom was in the locker room (she came with me to the gym and went to do a spin class while I was doing bootcamp). Had a break after that, during which I ate a very early lunch (around 10 AM) and visited a hospice patient.
I've been making quesadillas with some stuff we got from Trader Joe's, and they are super extra delicious, but sadly I used up the tortillas today, so no more quesadillas until we go grocery shopping again. :(
-Chile onion tortillas (My mom thinks these are too spicy, but I think they're great)
-Roasted corn (It comes frozen in bags at Trader Joe's, so I just microwave a handful to put in my quesadilla)
My hospice visit was kind of sad today... I mean, my patient was fine, but her roommate kept saying to me, "Please, please help me go bathroom," and I couldn't, because I'm not staff or a medical professional. I tried twice to ask different staff members if they would come help her, but they both said they would "get someone" and then nobody came for at least ten minutes. The poor old lady said "Please, I don't want to wet the bed," and I just felt terrible for her. Eventually she just tried to get up on her own, and she asked me to help her. She couldn't really walk by herself with ease, but I pushed her walker closer to her, at least. I kept apologizing to her and looking for someone else I could ask to help, but there were no staff around. I'm never going to put my parents in a nursing home if I can help it... The loss of dignity is just horrendous, and the staff were so nonchalant about it all. I guess they probably have to be, to work in that environment, but just... ugh.
Around 5 pm, I went back to the gym for Pilates, CSI, and Total Dance. Pilates was fine, although my lower back felt a little stiff initially. The normal instructor for CSI, and the sub had a way more intense class planned for us, so that was... tough. I was a lot more tired than I expected. I thought I'd only have one intense class (bootcamp) to deal with, and CSI would only be kind of mildly intense as usual, so it wouldn't matter. Welp, so much for that. The dance class also had a sub, and the sub was the Zumba teacher, so... I ended up "doing" Zumba. By which I mean, I followed along as best I could, but there were times I was just staring at the instructor, dumbfounded, unable to conceive of how she was moving her hips like that. I literally have no idea how I would even do some of those things with my body.
My friend joined me for the Zumba class, and she said that she wished there were more skinny instructors, because then maybe we'd have a better model of how our bodies are supposed to move. A fair number of the instructors whose classes I regularly attend are kind of on the thicker side. They're definitely fit, it's just that their body types are... heavier. So when they like, shake their butts and stuff, it's kind of hard to tell how to mimic the movement sometimes because I have no idea what that would look like for my body.
Hadn't seen my gym buddy in awhile, so we chatted after class until the gym closed! It was nice. We're going to another class together tomorrow, and depending on how I feel, maybe I'll try to run a mile and a half or something before class? I dunno. I'm hoping I don't wake up really sore.
I didn't even get to eat dinner until after 10 pm, so I went close to twelve hours between meals today. Probably why I was so hungry when I got home... I had a much bigger portion of spaghetti than I would normally eat, and even then I wasn't full, so I ended up snacking on some cheese and prunes (hence the otherwise irrelevant title of this entry). Thankfully that satisfied me.
Oof. It's been a long day. I should sleep...
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Gym time today: 1.5 hours.
Total this week: 1.5 hours.
Sean and I stayed out a bit late last night, so I didn't feel awake enough to go to spin class at 8:30 this morning, but oh well. I did Bosu Blast and then ran 1.5 miles at an 8:27(?) minute mile speed, and walked the rest. Tried to watch TV on the treadmill this time to make it go quicker, which actually did help. I found out why everybody always seems to be watching either the Food Network, news, or some celebrity gossip channel, though. There aren't a lot of options to choose from. -__- I ended up watching some kids' baking competition on the Food Network. Not really something I was interested in, but eh, better than the other options.
Turns out there's a bootcamp class tomorrow, so I can still go this week if I want! I was bummed about not being able to make it because of my babysitting schedule, but just found out they're offering two a week now, so........... I'm going to try to get enough sleep tonight to go tomorrow. That'll make four classes I want to go to tomorrow, though, so I hope that's not overkill. It'll probably be fine. Since bootcamp is in the morning, and the other three are in the evening, I'll have some time to rest between them.
I'm at the crisis line right now, and my shift was supposed to end fifteen minutes ago, but the next person isn't here yet... I'm going to end here though, just in case they come soon.
Listening to "The Garden" by Cut Chemist again. I found a much more elegant translation of the lyrics (the original vocals are from "Berimbau" as sung by Astrud Gilberto, so the translated lyrics have actually been around awhile).
He who is a good man does not betray
The love that wants the best for him
He who often says he will leave, he does not
As he never leaves, he never arrives
He who does not leave himself
Will die having loved no one
The money of the one who does not give
Is the labor of the one who does not have
A good capoeira never falls
But if one day he falls, he falls well
Capoeira tells me to say he has already arrived,
He has arrived to fight
Berimbau assures me, there will be lovers' quarrel
Such sadness, my friend
The part about "He who does not leave himself/Will die having loved no one" makes me think about a part from The Discovery of Being in which the author discusses how every person is "centered in himself," but we all go out of our centers on occasion to engage with the world and other people.
Our third principle is, thus: all existing person have the need and possibility of going out from their centeredness to participate in other beings. This always involves risk. If the organism goes out too far, it can lose its own centeredness-- its identity [...]
Neurosis is not to be seen as a deviation from our particular theories of what a person should be. Is not neurosis, rather, precisely the method the individual uses to preserve his own center, his own existence? His symptoms are ways of shrinking the range of his world [...] in order that the centeredness of his existence may be protected from threat, a way of blocking off aspects of the environment that he may then be adequate to the remainder.
I'm reminded of the approach/withdraw lectures my biopsych prof gave us. To approach is human. To withdraw is animal. To fulfill one's potential as a person, one must approach? Withdrawal cuts off the world to preserve the self, but it stagnates growth. I think you do need some kind of outside input to grow. New information, learning, expansion.
I need to go to sleep now so I can do all my gym stuff in the morning.
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