I went to the doctor's yesterday. She ordered, like, 10 different blood tests because she wants to rule out the possibility of me having POS. (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). That sounds like so much fun! Not. And this morning, I got to visit the dentist. It wasn't so bad, and it's over with now. I don't got to worry about going to the dentist again until the end of March!
We did a lot of running around yesterday after my doctors appointment; my mom had an eye doctor appointment in Orlando, and then we stopped at Wal Mart. All of the driving around gave me plenty of time to read my textbook for class, so I'm pretty much all caught up there. While we were at Wal Mart, I picked up Justin Timberlake's new album, Futuresex/Lovesounds. It's not a bad album. But the track entitled 'What Goes Around'--I think it's about Britney...listen to it and decide for yourself. (Go to Napster or something legal, I won't be putting it on here illegally.) Or you can just view the lyrics here..
In other news, I talked to my fiance again last night. He asked if I wanted to go visit him in Texas next weekend before he leaves for Iraq. Hello! Of course, I want to. Whether or not I'd be able to is what I don't know. I'm going to talk to my mom about it soon, but I'm a little scared. Isn't always scary to ask your parents if you can do something very grown-up, like fly halfway across the country by yourself to visit a boyfriend/fiance? I don't think I'm alone on this one here.
We've still got some wedding details I want to have worked out before he leaves too. I know we've talked a little bit about some of the plans, but I don't think there's really anything definite yet. I'd like to set a date (my main priority), choose a definitive color scheme, etc. If I get to visit him in Texas, I think I'll have more of a chance to get those things decided.
Oh, and about the cd mix I want to give him. I have decided on a few songs, I just don't know what order I want to place the tracks. Each song has some sort of special meaning to us and our relationship, and I want it to be like a timeline of our love, but I can't think of a way to put it together and still have it flow the way a cd should. He's supposed to give me a list of some of his favorite songs, so that may help if I need to bridge some tracks together and make it flow. Does that make any sense? I think it does, but I'm gonna end this entry here since it's getting kinda long and I tend to ramble with the more I write.

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Well, I told my parents last night I was applying at Starbucks at the Florida Mall. They say the mall is too far away, but I really don't care. I wanna work at the mall, and actually have a life! And somebody told me that Starbuck's usually pays pretty well for entry-level positions. I doubt that Starbucks is the only good-pay place at the Florida Mall, so anywhere inside there is probably a good bet. And it's someplace that I actually want to work--not just convenient because it's a mile or two from home. I'm sick of having to find someplace closer to my house; I'm either not happy at those places, or not making enough money. I'm still going to apply at the mall, I don't care if the rest of my family thinks it's too far. Lynx exists for a reason, you know? I looked online this morning and it appears that taking the 26 from my house to Osceola Square Mall, and then transferring to the number 4 bus will get me up to the Florida Mall, which is my destination. Still going to take a day to figure out the length of time it'll actually take to get there. Also, I'm going to look into getting a bus pass when I get a job up there.

7 days left until my 20th birthday!! Yay! My parents asked what I wanted and where I wanted to go next week, but I haven't decided. I know I want the two seasons of Friends that I'm missing (Seasons 7 and 8.), along with Beverly Mitchell's new CD, Beverley Mitchell. Other than that, I'm really game for whatever. A laptop would be cool!! I also asked for a webcam, since Ed asks about every other week if I've gotten one yet. As for where to go, I have no idea. My usual favorite is Fazoli's, but it's so inexpensive and my birthday is the one day I can say whatever restaurant, and regardless of the expense, we go there. I was thinking Olive Garden, but I like Macaroni Grill too. I just don't want anybody singing to me, and I'm pretty sure they do that at both of those places. (MG for sure; heard them singing to someone else just last week! OG seems like a place that would do the same..) I wanna go somewhere different though, someplace new, and I have no idea. I'll probably think more about it this afternoon during my walk.

Yeah. I'm going to start walking, and eating a little healthier from now on. I haven't had soda in a couple days! Also bought Shape magazine at Walden's while we were out last night for Joe's birthday; it's probably my favorite of the health/fitness magazines because it's got the health/fitness articles, but it's also got a little bit of the fashion side as well.

I think that's all I've got to say for now, so I'll end with that. Pray that I get a job at the Florida Mall, that Ed is kept safe from harm and does well on his next PT test, and that I get accepted in to Trinity College for the fall! (Somebody remind me on Sunday to turn in my Pastoral/Spiritual Reference form to Pastor Karl or his wife, please!)

Love, Laura

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My fiance just posted a blog comment and it won't let me view my blog or it's comments. Damn it!!!

Edit: Nvm. It's working now, although my fiance already logged off . He suggested planning the wedding in the gardens where he first gave me my promise ring if we can't get the theatre for the wedding. Joel needs to get back to me on that soon....

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God is Good!


My best friend is back from her 5 months in Argentina/Costa Rica!!! Ahh!!! I'm so glad she's back; I missed Esther SO much while she was away. We're gonna make cookies on Weds! And maybe she'll get a MySpace...we'll see. Anyways, she gave me a book to read by James R. Lucas and it's been an interesting read so far. (The book is called 'Am I the One'.)

I still really want to go to New Zealand and do the DTS I blogged about before..school will still be there when I come back; I may not get the oppertunity for the DTS again though. If I could just figure out how to raise enough money in time for the DTS...

Oh, and I'm finally better! No more flu; yay!!!

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I wish I were employed. I really do. Or in school full-time instead of Part-time. That will change next semester, but for now, that leaves me a lot of free time to sit here and think about Ed. Which also means, I have plenty of time to sit here and worry about whether or not he's okay, and if he will call today. Last I heard from the troops over there, they were in the middle of a blackout period. I don't know exactly what that means, but it sounds as though they are cutoff from calling and emailing their loved ones back home. Well, if they're in the middle of a blackout, how come his friend can log in to her MySpace everyday? I'm just frustrated by that. Couldn't she just leave a quick comment to tell me he's okay? I know it might seem like a lot to ask of her, and maybe it is. She's busy too, and has to let her own family and friends know she's ok. But still. I'm a worrier, I come up with the worst possible scenarios and actually convince myself, sometimes, that they're going to come true in the next few days. You know how they say bad things come in threes? I've kinda already had two, I really hope that saying isn't true. He hasn't logged in since the 21st, and his sister didn't log in between the 22nd and the 26th. I noticed this and immediately played out a horrible fantasy that they'd gotten word of his death and the news had yet to reach me. I was planning on going over there yesterday, but I got no answer when I phoned them. I emailed his sister to let her know I wanted to come over, and since I wasn't able to yesterday, I'm going to try and visit tomorrow. She logged on to read that email..so maybe there is hope?
I made a promise before he left that I would move on if anything should happen to him. I don't know if I can keep it. He is my whole world; I can't imagine my future without him. But you know, I have these two voices in my head. One keeps telling me that all hope is gone, and that he's not going to come home. While thee other voice tells me to keep praying, and just to have faith. (I know whose voices they are too--Satan and Jesus.) I'm clinging to Him more now than I ever have.
Speaking of which, my church is having some sort of Unhalloween event on Sunday afternoon. I'm really looking forward to it, for the simple fact of having something to do. Well, besides schoolwork, which is getting really behind. I've only been going the church for a few months, and their previous 'events' have been a lot of fun, so I'm hoping this will just be another fun activity I can participate in. I know my the time Ed returns, I'll have or be in the process of leaving the Student Service and attending the Adult Service. You know what though? I really wish there was College Student Service. We're not really in our teens anymore, but we're not really adults either. We're close to being adults, yes, but we're still inbetween the two and there is no church service for those of us that are inbetween those age groups. I guess I'm lucky because my church doesn't really kick us out at any particular age, but they do encourage us to explore the more adult side of things. (Not that I'm complaining too much, but wouldn't this be a big reason why Christians stop going to church when they get to be college-age?)
Ed, to me, is a man. He takes responsibility for everything he does, good or bad, and accepts that life isn't always going to give you what you want. I don't know of anybody else our age that does that. I know who guys will take responsibility for something that's going to give them some sort of priveledge, like a promotion at work. But those same guys will blame others for their actions when they feel they're going to be in big trouble with their girlfriends, parents, teachers, whoever. And I can't believe that this man is mine. He makes me happier than almost anything else in my life (I say almost, cause I gotta give that #1 spot to God..), and I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell him just how happy he makes me, and how proud I am of him because there are no words to describe how happy and proud of him I am.
Maybe I am bragging about him a lot right now in here, but I don't care. I feel like I bragging about sweet he is. You know, the very first time I saw him, I knew there was something different. At the time, I guess I didn't really connect it with love, but looking back on it, I'd have to say that's what it was. I knew he was going to be in my life for a long while, hopefully forever. (And a day.--Inside joke of ours.) I remember the day after we first became girlfriend and boyfriend, officially. He brought me a rose just because he could. All of the other girls in my class were so jealous. And I loved it! I still love when he does things like that, which I guess is more often than most other boyfriends. He's bought me a couple of Teddy Bears, a ring, and a blanket in the time that we've been together, which is close to three years. Yes, we have had our ups and downs, but what couple hasn't? God, I can't wait to be close to him again. I can't to hold him in my arms and comfort him and just watch him sleep. I miss watching him sleep. And I miss cuddling with him, and sort of playing house when I visited him in Texas. I can't wait to do that again, except next time it'll be the real thing.
I'm going to end this entry here, cause I can't think of what else I had planned on writing...

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Some days without Edward are torture. All I can think about is being in his arms, greeting him at the Airport with a big a hug, and just staring into his eyes forever. It's days like these that I wish I was in Ft. Hood with some other military wives who know exactly what I'm going through; I'd have to someone to talk to who would really feel for me and not just give me sympathetic looks and responses. I can talk to my friends at church, and my friends from online forums I lurk at, but it's not the same. They aren't in my position, and most never will be, if any do find themselves in this position in the future. Sometimes I wonder if time would pass by a little quicker if I was in Ft Hood with some other military wives. The only one I know around here is Ed's mom. But his dad isn't in the military anymore, so she's not really a military wife anymore. Sigh. I don't know, I just don't know. I'm going to look into some colleges in the Ft. Hood/Killeen area that maybe I could start in the Spring/Summer? If any of ya'll know of any in the area, please help me out by providing a link. I'd like to major in Psychology, and a Christian school would be a plus!

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