i'm a dumbass.... so what...

i screwed myself in the ass so hard that it's stuck 'in' the in motion.

anyways...

HOT SOUP INC. or was it industry or production? well hot soup is out school's production company.. and i dunno.. it may be a temporary nome for now... but whatever...

hmm...

48 hours of maddness anyone?

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well... the super bowl was on but i didn't watch it...

i was out at horton plaza by myself....

why??

i got pissed off at my parents so i left.

i took the trolley for 45 minutes to get there... so blah... i had fun tho...

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hmm... my writings for the past two years haven't been the same... i'm going to go back to my old style...

a flow type of way... yess that's me alright!!

riding the bus home today i noticed that a lot can happen on one bus ride to where ever you're going. if you look around and keep all your senses open.

i can write a lot of stories while riding the bus.

maybe i'll do that one of these days....

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i'm in love...

in love with a wonderful girl
she says i'm crazy
i can sit here and think about her all night.
how she makes me smile.
how dorky and smart she is.
how well she moves on the court.
she's a poem that i read over and over again and still find something new.
Camille Paras... i love you... and i'm a coward... i just tell you that i like you... but i'm in love with you...

i wish you felt the same.

but then again... i'm not you so i don't know who you want to hold in your arms, kiss, hold hands, walk down the beach while the sun is setting, to keep warm on cold nights, and to wake up smiling with.

but i do know...

that

i love you.

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well... school has started up again. and once again i'm typing this in my photo class... LOL i forgot my camera again... boo... and thing for me, on a emotional level, isn't going well... LOL partly it's my fault... hmm... i'll type it up later.

i still find it funny that on a school computer i have access to this site. i guess no one really knows about nutang at this school except me and my newspaper friends but they don't have an account on here like i do. LOL they ask me what this place is and i tell them that it's like xanga but better in a way cuz you can talk to other people who aren't on your list cuz of the shout out box on the home page.

hmm... what else is there to say?? well i did notice that nutang is getting more support and that the updates being done are terrific. some of them was my cousin's asking and coming up with like two or three ideas. umm...

HAHA sweethearts is coming up and i don't have a date or whatever i'm going to wear... LOL what should it be??? a tux of dress??? LOL WOO!! having choices is fun but then again it's hard... LOL what to do what to do.... play 200 or more on a dress or rent a tux for like 75 bucks??? LOL i swear it's fun being a dyke..LOL

shit... i'm falling hard for camille paras...LOL she's soo funny and cool... sadly... heh i kinda set her up with my friend gail... and i didn't realize that i did that until it was too late... lol i'm fucking stupid i know... and i had a damned chance!!!!! AHH!!! i drive myself up the wall too many times... i swear it!!! lol

well... anyways... until next week or when i go here when i'm at home... which is prolly a yes cuz i'm going to fix this thing up and blah blah blah blah..LOL ramble ramble ramble nonsesne nonsense!!!

soul 2 soul
heart 2 heart
we are one!!

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yea... it's been a while now has't nutangers??? i bet you guys don't visit my site anymore but that doesn't matter much... it's as long as i get my feelings out there...

well to get you all situated with my position in life now... Christine broke up with me in july. but no worries there i'm still best friends with her... if you've read in earlier blogs then you know what i'm talking about. yes!!! lol... i dunno.. umm... she has a new boyfriend too... he's name is Louis J. i was friends with him before.... now he hates the shit out of me... why i dunno... maybe cuz i'm her ex...? but gosh i haven't done anything to them or him... and ow he's trying to erase me from her life... it's wrong... not right.. also he's being a selfish bastard and trying to get her out of cheer. he already got to get out of FEA and PUENTE... that's not cool...

hmm.... now i'm mad at him.... bastard....

anypoo...

i also have a new gf. her name is grecia R. i love her a lot... i mean a lot.. HAHA we met through myspace HAHA it's funny.

the weird part about it all is that she's almost exactly my my ex gf. i mean wow... what are the odds of that..? meeting someone through the internet and them having the same likes and disikes... it's creepy... i dunno... but no worries Grecia isn't a weirdo guy trying to rape an innocent girl like me. haha i've met her and evything so yea it's kewl... lol but yea...

i think this is all for now. goodbye for now nutangers

showing the love... <3

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Bob loves bob because bob loves bob....

Amazing how fast time goes by... it's already the end of the first semester... and gosh... grades aren't very good... actually they suck very big blue balls!!! hmm... isn't it great to be failing the classes you really need to pass high school...? sigh... Christine isn't very happy about it but lately i haven't been myself more like very distant from everyone and thing around me... it's i dunno... sometimes i can't feel anything like my emotions like i just don't care anymore... sometimes i wonder how long i've been depressed... so far i counted way back into elementary school like around the third grade... it wasn't purposely it's just that i had things happening to me that i didn't know how to deal with and it really screwed me up for life... so right now i'm trying to piece everything back together and trying to get back into the single file line that everyone calls life. I strongly doubt that it's going to happen (meaning me getting back into reality [if it's even real])

i know i haven't really been typing in here a lot... it's cuz i've been kinda busy with finals and AP European... which i've been kicked out of... sad... LOL gosh i'm kinda happy that i'm out of that class... Boulton was yelling at us most of the time during class at how terrible we did on the final...
Anyways... i gotta get back to writing back to Christine in our notebook bai ppls for now

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school is back into full swing and i don't like it... except that i get to see Christine everyday again ::smiles:: heh my stupid popup thingy is going nutz so it pretty much blocks all the smaller windows hah... hm... as i've said i get to see my lovely Christine again. heh she makes me smile and feel fuzzy inside.. wonderful feeling it is isn't it? heh
boulton is being ugh.. as always... paul is crazy as usual... everything back to the way it was before break except for the knowing that when we get back to school next year (which is going to be in August instead of Sept.) we're going to be wearing uniforms.... ::yuckos...:: disgusting... i thought i was fully rid of those hideous things... damnit!! fuck the school administration and district... they can kiss us the students' asses!!! and fuck Maestre for ignoring Allan Green's questions and comments!!! FUCK THEM ALL!!!!
i hate uniforms... damn them...
i miss Christine... heh kinda showed our affection out there in public today at school but all's great!!i love this chick... heh i wonder if she's going to call me tonight... Bin's is coming to my house on sunday to go swimming... LOL and Cristina Navarro is coming as well... YUCK!! loll j/m she's... okay i guess... perky but okay Cheerleaders... effing Cheerleaders... LOL but i put up with it... cuz my GF is one... heh hmm... i think this is all for now... gotta do some important shit for school and the stuff i promised Christine... heh

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