Tamela told liz about the letter and that i wrote it... gosh imma get her tomorrow!!! UGH!!!!! ... i feel angry and depressed again!!! ::sigh:: why me... why do i always screw up when i'm just starting to get better..... she better be wearing her running shoes tomorrow morn!! cuz she's going to be running for her life!!! imma wake up really early tomorrow and i think i'm going to walk to school. but i doubt i wake up too late to walk... but imma try cuz i dunno tamela is getting it!!!!! why did she tell her... gosh.. i trusted her... i should have learned from when she told about April liking Alain (pronounced Allan) gosh... i dunno what to say/type... too much going on in my head... i guess i'm out for now...

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Whoa!!!!! well it has been a very very strange 2 weeks. well, first off the good news Liz is starting to talk to me again yea!!!! Volley Ball tryouts were the two weeks also that's why i haven't been on for a long time!! WOO!!! i hope i make the cut!!! it's been fun playing again!!! i'm getting a little better with my serving.... lol heh i got my year book today too!!! today was the last practice. i'm nervous and also releaved that's over. lol i've been going to school exhausted!!! lol WOOO!!! i ate too much chocolate today!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha i've been in a really good mood today hahaha!!! i dunno why... lol hmm... the bad news... i can't say it here... hmm... if you really want to know just IM me DroNKeEpeR lol ok i'm out for now!! tomorrow and Sunday is the bazaar for me i'll blog about it later maybe i hope!!!!

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Dearest Elizabeth,
I hope this letter explains how I feel about you because ever since I saw you I knew you were a great person and I just wanted to be friends with you. As I got closer to you I found myself thinking about you constantly and always wanting to be around you.
When I found out that you were going out with David, I was crushed. But I didn’t do anything dramatic, I just stepped back. I waited to see if my feelings would fade. By the time you broke up with David my feelings for you were just barely there: smoldering. A week later my feelings burned down an entire forest.
I’ve never felt like this for anyone before. Elizabeth I love you so much that just thinking about you brings tears to my eyes. These tears of joy, longing, and sadness. Why sadness? Because I know that I’d never get a chance to be with you. You only think of me as a friend and I’m okay with that.
I would tell you who I am but I don’t know if I should. I will eventually (I hope) but for now this will do. And plus I’m scared what your reaction would be. If you ever find out who I am, I don’t know. Just don’t be surprised...

With love,
The Unknown

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well that's the letter i wrote to my beloved Liz. if anyone has anything to say go straight on ahead. be my guest.

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Fresmen girls vs. Junior Girls
Sophmore Girls vs. Senior Girls

We only had whole entire week to practice and to get everything down and memorized. The first day our coach ditched us and went home. but he made great plays! the next day he made us do Condtioning and his Asst. Coaches pissed us girls off. All they did was fuck around. We were serious about it they were just making it as a joke...
Game Night!!!

The asst. coaches (that were messing around) got fired
the soph. lost against the seniors 21 to zero
our game against the Juniors... OMG!!! we made a touchdown on the first play!!! the biggest girl on their team thought i had the ball but fooled her thnx to our Triple option. The game against them was fun. We just kept on fooling them with the same plays and they kept on falling for our 2 or 3 hikes 5 yrad gains there. damn they can't talk smack to us anymore cuz we slapped their asses and blamed it on the monkey and they believed it!!! we won i think 16 to 6.
the final Championship game against the seniors.
IT was much much harder!!! cuz they knew our tricks and postitions. They stole our PLays too!!! so we had to make them off the tops of our heads. Our team was getting crazy and intense. i tried to loosen them up but they were ignoring me. We kept doing the same plays but i wanted to do the I formation and the Motion one but no they kept going for the long bombs and hand offs.. i was getting a lil tired but it was kewl i gave it a 150% and i'm kewl that we lost against the seniors. i mean come on they have a lot of track ppl! and their Line Girls are HUGE!!!
We lost but it's ok because we made it to championships and we KILLED the juniors!! i dunno about VolleyBall anymore should i go out for it. try outs are on Monday... HAHAHA!!! durning the Juniors game i had to pee really bad so afterwards i sprinted to the bathrooms there singing "gotta go gotta go gotta go right now gotta go gotta go gotta go..." haha then the ASB ppl were Laughing and i accidentally slammed myself against the wall haha!! During the Juniors Game i dislocated my pinky but i popped it back in it hurts now still and i keep forgetting that it hurts so when i type AHHH!!!! My postition was/is Running Back and Safety cuz someone didn't go!! so i was never taken out of the game i was there on the field the whole two games. i'm getting tired now i'm singing we are the champions!!!
OH!!! one more thing!!!!!! I gave Andrew the Letter to give to Liz. and you know what... he did and she let everyone read it. ::embarrassed:: but i kept my cool and read it myself and played stupid. gosh... what is she going to say when she finds out... i'm scared about that part... hmm... in a few days i'll post up the letter itself. but for now imma sleep and try to get this energy out of me :rush of the games:: WOOOO!!!!!!!!! LET'S DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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OOOO!!!! i haven't been writing here in a long time... ntohing much happened i think... lol hmm... i have been writing in this noteboobk and still of course my dragon one that i share with Earvin AKA Little Randy Boi heh he calls me Randy HAHAHA if you don't know what it means look it up in the Australian slang or British. Or either watch Austin Powers the Spy that Shagged me. hehe jah jah. i still dunno about my feelings toward certain ppl. (meaning Liz and April) ::sigh:: and my parents still don't know and i don't know when to tell them let alone when to do so... it scares me cuz i know some ppl get kicked out of the house and get shunned by the family... it scares me poopless... do i just go up to them and say i would do that but i'm a coward lol i'll update tomorrow about what happened in my Appt. with authoities about crap... i have no childhood... anyone have any advice on how to tell my parents????

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friday the 23rd was culture night at my skewl. it was tippiesville!!! i was just there for the show. FSR and Bonzai Bill performed. gosh it was like 95 degrees in there!!! crazee!!!! All these asian ppls dance troupes!!!! WOOO!!!! started out ok then they got better and better. heh then the last dance troupe i think was the one from our skewll the PAA (Pan Asian Asso.) and the Flip classes did the otso-otso and the Pamela dance. WOOO!!! every single flip in the place stood up and cheered they're hearts out!!! heh ppl were disrespectful to Justin Borja's sister. damn ppl too into their hip hop to let other ppl that like acoustic rock listen. damn disrespectful ignorant ppl these days.... the rest of the week was great boring but great. this week we're testing and i've been busy going to April's house talking and stuff. lol omg... i juss remembered on wed. last week i got my first kiss!!!!!! WWWWWWOOOOO!!!!!!!!! yea i had it with Andrew lol... i sorta regret it in a way cuz he's with joyce but she doesn't like him like he likes her and yea she sorta ignores him and yea. he doesn't know how they're relationship is going any more so i guess he's going to break up with her. He's not going to stay here to much longer. moving to florida i think. ::sigh:: that makes me sad!!! i guess that's all for now until next time!!!!!!!!!

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tummy's been growling all day but nothing to feed it but frozen pizza. must go to the fridge tonite and raid it!!! lol today i was thinking a lot about what to do and what i need to sort out in my head. i found out that i'm starting to like my friend more than my crush. all that i know is that she was flattered when i told her that i liked her now and then for a couple of years. she likes other guys rite now but i can wait. and i will wait until the future comes clear. but i don't want any bad things to happen... I already know that things are being sed about me by ppl i used to trust. oh well, since they talk about me in a bad way they talk about themselves in a bad way. trying to be people they're not. it makes me sick to see that, but it happens all the time so i can't do anything about it... hmm... earlier i was singing some beatles songs and the Everly brothers!!! WOO!!! i LOVE their love songs. so innocent and pure!!! heh i was messing with my guitar today and i made a new song!!! YAY for me!!! but i have no lyrics... so that's an upset for the masses... so now i'm confused happy and hyper and upset in a way. can it be PMS??? who knows??? if you do pls pls tell me!! LOL hmm... i find it funny when your teacher thinks the class is to easy for you when you're failing it. maybe it is easy for me and i don't notice it... but i know that i don't do the work. but he thinks it's easy... i think it's cuz i've already finished my required (any books i want) 20 books in the first semester. or maybe it's a scheme to get me to raise my grades!!! GASP!!! lol i dunno imma find out later...

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this week has been great so far and very revealing. hah first of all i haven't been writing here this whole week because i've been out every afternoon. hehwell wednesday was one of the best days. heh i stayed at school to watch the Academic league game. it was intense very intense. JV (junior Varsity) almost lost the last toss up. if that one guy wasn't honest about him saying Polly Ann then we would have lost. GASP!!! Mr. Bolten challenged the answer and got it rite WOO!!! after the game the boy that came out honestly about his answer was crying outside.
nehoo after both the games Andrew and i hung out for a while, whilethe JV AL had a meeting and a quick practice. while we were waiting i took pictures with his camera and he read the book i'm reading. heh then we start pretend fighting. then he busted out with his wannabe breaking moves and he did a push up while in the hand stand position. since i can't dance for all the money in the world i did my knife form. haha He got served!!! muahaha!!! then we started wrestling on the grass and tackling each other. then his dad came and our fun ended. i missed him trying to get me down on to the grass haha to bad cuz i flipped him over how many times!!! lol after he left the JV was let out.
April and Percious came with me to my house to drop off my stuff and grab my bike. we then took off towards their houses. we dropped Precious off at her house then April and i went back to her place and we stayed out in front of the house talking and eating m&ms heh. we stayed out talking from 6:00 to 8:12PM. after talking i rode home but i passed by Liz's house yelling out her name. on my way home i got lost... so i had to back track and then find my way out. heh i didn't know that it was that confusing to get out of that neighborhood at night.
when i got home i thought my mom would be mad cuz it was a school night. but she wasn't YAY!!!! i took a shower rite away cuz my arms itch from the damned grass. i think i'm allergic to it or sumpthing... but yes that day was the best.
yesterday stayed on the fone until one in the morn. i thought it was Friday. but it was thursday. Poo...
also yesterday (thursday) my Aunt had her baby boy!!! Sean Conner Owens!!! YAY!!! going to visit him and my Aunt tomorrow. heh kewlness!!!

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