Yesterday was a total mix feeling of sadness (long stories) and happiness. The morning, after knowing the news, I nearly burst into tears, but I try not to since I have to work in the morning. Once the sun up on the sky, shinning us with bright lights and aggressive heat, I received a package all the way from United Kingdom.

Once I saw “Mail Bag” I know immediately it is a book that I been waiting for months “Cry myself to sleep” by Joe Peters (since Malaysia not available yet – maybe only my state), and I know who the sender too, who else if is not the Author himself who is kind enough to send me the book with the signature too. Now his second book had become my rarest collection in my bookshelf, besides LJS’s books.

My 1st encounter of this author was simply the title “Cry Silent Tears” and the book cover. Once I read through the 1st chapter in the bookstore, immediately I grab the book and pay at the counter which cost me RM77.90 (because it was a hardcover book). No regret buying it, because it is an eye opening to the world I never thought it will actually happened. An eye opening and new knowledge of what pedophile mean and is.

The second book "Cry Myself to Sleep" will talked about his survival when he runaway from the hell he been living in for years. And I can’t make any book review yet because I’m yet to finish the book although I already finished till chapter 12 in one day~. Haha

Behold the crazy me snapping the package when I received it from the postman~.

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Since Valentine is around the corner... "yawn.. boring" this is a love story that i wrote like years ago... sorry for the weird grammar u might see later.. but i do hope u enjoy it... :D muahaha..

"Why are you crying, Kitty?" His voice tried to be as comfort as possible.

I turned and face his worrying face "You are sick, your heart is weak and I'm so worry yet I can't do anything, I'm hopeless in this situation Tiggy"

"Silly girl, how many times do I need to tell you that I'll be alright?"
My tears rolled down from my eyes faster than I ever imagine it would now.

"You always said you gonna be alright, but yet you refused to go to the hospital" with the sobbing.

He quickly walked near me, moving out his hand and hug me around my waist, I can feel his body warm around me, and he whispered something near my right ear and ended with a light kiss.

"So Tiggy, you promise that you are going to the hospital????" My tears suddenly stop rolling, a joy of excitement had generated within me.

"Yes Kitty" he went back to his original coolness again.

I waited outside the couch while Tiggy is inside the doctor's room. My mind wonders around in both positive and negative ways. Like, how I met Tiggy, and how we ended up a couple and later a life long partner. Of course I do believe that Tiggy is my soul mate, and I always will.

My mind wondered to the negative thought, is more to the nightmare for me, "what if Tiggy is sick, what if he.... CUT IT OFF". My mind wondered to somewhere else, the feeling for me now while waiting for him as if years had passes by although i merely seated for 5 minutes.

A clinched of doorknob had cut my imagination from going too wild and total lost of control. I saw Tiggy walking out with a grin on his face. I quickly walk near him and before I manage to open my mouth and start asking, he cut me off "Kitty, see I told you I'm alright".

"Huh? But your heart hurt, you hardly sleep at night and now the doctor ..." I was a bit disappointed with the news not because I wanted my Tiggy to suffer is just that I feel that I kinda silly of having all the negative thought and of course another part of me is so excited and glad that Tiggy is alright.

We had our diner out at the restaurant that we frequent and headed home.

Once we reach home, I headed to the door, to unlock it and without any warning, I was lifted up by Tiggy and again he is whispering something at my ear and I blush.

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I�m having blogger�s block so, another story of Tiggy & Kitty, hope you will like it� :D

Lets the story begin��
My tears flow over to my cheek, because it will be another month before I able to meet him again. I know, I promised Tiggy to be a good girl, not to cry, but the pain, the loneliness when he is away to work, is unbearable.

I walked to the airport�s car park, to search for my car; it took me 10 minutes to locate it. I slammed the door shut and sit in the car for a min, thinking how clumsy I am.

�Oh gosh, what is wrong with me? I promised Tiggy I won�t be sad, this is not the first time we are apart, and is just a freaking one month, I have to be strong�.�

When I reached home, I rested myself on the red sofa we always chilled at, our love seat. I saw a stack of photo on the table. I scanned through the old photos, and felt how silly I was when I first met Tiggy.

My memories, is like a VCR, rewinding back to the past, showing me all the loving and bitter sweet scene me and Tiggy went through.

3 Years ago

I landed into the foreign land of Czech Republic, knowing no one except myself, a map and a handbook to speak simple West Slavic. Walking into the city, Prague was indeed a place for me to have occasion cultural shock. To me, everyone does look strange, although I had been exposed to the foreigner and culture over the cable TV, but having myself to stand next to them, were totally new experiences.

I enrolled myself in Charles University at Prague, during the first week of orientation; we were introduced and showed around the university. As for the second week before the class start, we were free to do anything including visiting the city or sleeping in the campus 24/7.

One week after the tiring orientation, I went roaming alone to the city, to get used to the new culture that I will live in for another 2 years before I headed home. Occasionally stop by to take pictures of the landscape and tall buildings were the things I enjoyed doing, besides sipping a cup of hot Mocha at the nearby caf�.

I walked along Vltava River at Prague enjoying the view of river; suddenly I sensed someone was following me. Well my dad always reminds me to be extra careful while I�m at foreign land. So I fasten my steps to the crowd, wish that I could lose him on the way, but the stalker also fasten his steps. When I reached the large crowd, I no longer sense him following me. Of course I was afraid, so I cancel my night trip and headed back to the campus.

As the bus stopped at the campus, I again sensed that someone is following me, as I hurry myself off the bus, I heard the same footsteps again, which this show that he been following me and now to my campus.

�OMG, I don�t want to die in the foreign land, there must have something I can do to protect myself.� As my mind struggle to think of a way to flee myself, I fasten my steps to the girls� hostel. I know I�ll be saved once I reach that area, because boys are forbidden in that area.

Suddenly, I heard him shouting at me. �NO, PLEASE WAIT, I�M NOT GONNA HARM YOU, SO PLEASE STOP�.

I stopped; I know this is the most stupid thing I ever done in my life, who knows what might happen to me, maybe in 2 seconds, I might become a corpse. This moment was the sweetest moment in my life, where I met him or the first time.

�Ah, you stop, Persephone.�

�How did you know my name?�

�This is because you dropped your student ID.�

�How? I mean where?�

�Well, I was in the same bus as you, when I saw your ID dropped on the bus, I wanted to give it back to you, but it seems that you are avoiding me.�

�Avoiding you? Oh, I�m so sorry, is kinda creepy to feels someone following me, you know I�m new here, safety always come to my mind than anything else.�

�Ha Ha Ha, you are sure one of a kind.�

�One of a kind????�

�Never Mind, I am Markey, a year 2 student studying business.�

�I�m Persephone, a noob studying business too. So you are my senior.�

�I�m not that old.�

I giggle over the joke he said, and he return a lovely smile to me. He returned my student ID and offer himself as a tour guide to show me around Prague, quickly I accepted his invitation because he don�t look like a real stalker.

As time passes by, with his continuous effort to win my heart, I finally gave in after the 6 months of hi trying, he did lots of silly things to make me laugh, and he always by my side whenever I feel homesick or lonely.

My tears start rolling over my cheek again, as the memories slowly come back to present, I�m glad that I didn�t whack him during our first met, if not I�ll be regretting now. I feels that the reason got us together must be my silliness.

Suddenly, the phone rang; I quickly grab the phone handle that less than 5 inch away from me.

�Hello Kitty, SURPRISE� oh Kitty, I Love you.

�Tiggyyyy�. I Love you too...�

�Are you crying? Remember what you had promised me before I headed to France?�

�I�m not crying, I just� Oh Tiggy, I miss you so so much...�

�Aww Kitty, I miss you too, but I have to go now, meeting in 5 minutes, just wanted to call and tell you I�m ok and misses you.�

�Aww Tiggy, you are so sweet, I love you.�

�I love you too.�

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It been continuous 2 days I cannot breath properly, mostly I been using my mouth for getting enough breath. I don�t know why either, I avoided coffee and Chinese tea yet it doesn�t help.

I do know I�m not allowed to take in any alcoholic drinks too because it makes the matter worse, but I didn�t drink any yet this keep occurring�. Or is it the preservative or the MSG I�m allergy to?

Sigh I should call and ask my uncle�..but the cons�. The whole family will know� sigh�. I can�t breathe without using my mouth :(

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After a 2 years break of not joining the fun of Bon Odori, this year i once again stepped my foots over the greenie grass of Esplanade together with sensei no musume tachi (teacher's daughters), since i do not wish to drive there, and since my teacher needed someone to accompany the daughters, so i tag along ~ win win situation :D.

We reached the destination around 530pm, and you bet, kondeimashita yo (was crowded), we walked around the field, and bought our RM20 coupons (dislike the system tho but i think was fair) and started wondering off the stalls, seems like a food fair than a Bon Odori for me, but since it had already combined the culture of Malaysian, so nothing more to expect right? Not much of edible foods, since it were too expensive, one small korokke charged RM5 @@'' TOTEMO TAKAI DESU! so i pass and bought myself a toriyaki (mada mada oishii) and mushroom and fish tempura.

We lurked around the area, wanted to try our luck at "Gold Fish Catching" but the crowd was horrible, so we passed, after our dinner, we went straight to the stage to enjoy the dance performances prepared by the organizer, dancers from Penang Japanese Foundation, from Japan and etc.

the 1st dance performance while i was there was Souran Bushi, Fisherman dance, i thought Hikawa Kiyoshi Souran Bushi will become the background song, but to my dissappointment it did not, seems like every years the songs never changed... YAWN.... after Souran Bushi was the dancers from Japan, and followed by the local Japanese :D yes the dances were nice, and the songs were okay, haha but it always have the Rasa Sayang song @@''.

Once the dances started to repeat, we headed to SGGS haunted house that gave me a good laugh. We were there queing and i found RM7 coupons, but later i found the owner so i gave it back, (am i stupid? nah!). The haunted house was not scary at all, and it smell so strange with all the sweat ! eww... When we walked into the haunted house, i saw students wearing all those clothes, and seriously is not scary! And there was this "Ghost" trying to block my way, i used my fan to move his katana aside and walked pass, and once im out from the haunted house , i cant stop laughing, so did my teacher's daugther. this gonna be the last time im going to the haunted house.

When the clock hit 10pm, the firework (hanabi) display for 5 minutes were shown, it were beautiful, but of course we can't compare it to the real Hanabi at Japan, but overall I'm happy. :D

The Jam was horrible tho..

The Food Stalls

The expensive foods

Fans RM5 each

Neko

Japanese Dolls

Paper Dolls


:D

Souran Bushi


Dancers from Japan

The Crowd


Dancers

Any significant?

Our Fans :P my was from Japan 2008



Hanabi

Kawaii ne?

Gold FIsh Stall and Souvenir Store~

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Now i have a new ritual on Sunday, where ill went straight to the cinema to watch a movie..... But today is not about the movie, but the advertisement that had caught my attention..... is such a beautiful ads by The Absolut Vodka (haha which happened to be my favourite alchoholic drink :P~ i still have some in my room @@'')

But to enjoy this video.... In An Absolut World, Currency will be replaced with acts of kindness :D...

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