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A quick thought
Saturday. 4.27.13 6:41 pm
I used to be blocked from websites that I wanted to visit as a child. This was while I was out at Boys Ranch in the days when I first started this little blog. Now I'm blocking myself from websites that, while I still want to visit them, are a waste of time. I could spend all day reading posts on Reddit, but I can't because I only allow myself 4 hours per day, spread evenly throughout the day. (30 minutes every 3 hours.) I do this now because if I

OH MY GOD MY BROTHERS A RETARD. Will you leave me alone for long enough to type some crap into this textbox?!
Sorry, I keep getting interrupted and losing my train of thought. He's filling out a job application, and asking what all needs to be capitalized, and how to spell words ("How do I spell months?" or "How many zeros for a thousand?")

I do this now because I have other things I want to do during the day, but I won't do them if I'm having fun browsing the internet. I just don't have the willpower. Now that I've browsed reddit for my alloted time, I can get to doing other stuff, like learning Japanese again, or studying programming.

Whelp, enough procrasturbating. Time to get to it.

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Today was better.
Saturday. 4.27.13 5:45 pm
So, I watched doctor who today. It was pretty nice. Journey to the Center of the Tardis. I liked it. It helped me lighten up a bit.

I got really worked up today, trying to get my younger twin brothers to clean house and look for jobs. I actually got them to fill out applications, and even got one to help me take out trash. If these two were actually 7 years old, that would be awesome. Since they happen to be 19, it's pretty sad that I should have to harp on them so much. I've wondered how we can get some kind of help for them, but they refuse to go to psychiatrists, refuse to believe that they need medication, and refuse to understand that they actually are having problems that they need help.

They're good kids. They just have problems. Sometimes I just lose my temper with them. If I were a psychiatrist or psychologist, or knew anything about psychology I wonder if maybe I could help them.

Sorry for the sour entries, I'll try and lighten these things up at some point.

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Back in the business
Friday. 4.26.13 1:18 pm
I have been offline for a long time. I really have. Who knew when I last updated about all the shenanigans that I'd get into? It's been almost 18 months since I was last here. Let's see what's happened during that time:
  • Still haven't learned Japanese
  • Stopped going to school
  • Lost or quit multiple jobs
  • Survived the end of the world on 12-21-12! (Yay, at least I've got that going for me.)
  • Moved across the country again


That last one was widely considered to be a bad move. I moved with my mother, younger sister, and older sister from West Virginia back to Texas. Shortly after, my older sister moved again to another state, so she's not here anymore. In her place, my two younger brothers (who are twins) have come into the equation. I get so mad at them pretty much all the time. They tear up everything they come into contact with, and are pretty much the age of a 7 year old mentally. (At least they act that way all the time.)

It's like they didn't learn the lessons that people learn as they grow up. They didn't learn how to clean up after themselves, or how money works, or the number of months in a year or anything like that. They may not actually be retarded, but there is definitely not much going on in their little noggins. I wish I could help them, but any time I try and get them to think about what they're doing, whether it be cleaning up after themselves or not spending every last bit of money we have on cigarettes or any other myriad of little obvious things, I automatically become the authority figure in their lives. They resent authority. They're always ranting about how "Obama's gonna take away our guns!" or "The government's gonna take over!" I get angry at that. I asked them to tell me what it means for the government to take over, and they couldn't tell me. They honestly have no clue. They just know it's bad.

I want to be able to help them, but I can't. They shut me out any time I suggest anything, and they refuse to do anything I ask them, unless I can make them think it's their idea. I've managed to do that once actually. They were eating too much food last week. Since we're really low on money, we don't have a bunch of food stockpiled. We have to eat very strict meals, 3 times per day. Like normal people. No grazing on chips or crap like that between meals. Only they didn't understand that. They think it's okay to eat whenever they want, whatever they want and just leave the extras laying around the house. I got fed up with this, after having to skip breakfast three days in a row because there wasn't anything to eat for breakfast. So I made sure that when I was preparing supper, I got the first serving. I made sure they saw how big it was, and I made sure I took my time eating it. I really enjoyed it, it was a nice meal. Anyways, they noticed how much I got, but how little they got and started griping about it. When I finished eating I said, "sorry none of us got much guys, we are starting to run out and have to eat less to make sure we've got food until next time we have money." Since then, they've only been eating twice per day, and we all get enough at each meal. I still wake up to an absolutely destroyed kitchen that I have to clean up each time, but it's better than an absolutely destroyed kitchen and no food.

I've pretty much fucked up my life from the plan I laid down back in July of 2007. I wish I had been able to stick to the plan, but I couldn't. I guess it's normal though, who plans their life at age 18 and expects it to actually work out that way? I'm working on getting over it, but it's hard sometimes. Especially when I think about how I could be living my dream right now, working in Japan and teaching English. Now I'm living in a trailer house teaching my two retarded brothers to clean up after themselves.

I know this entry was kind of sad, and I'm not like this all the time. I just had to get this crap off of my chest. I'll be back to normal ol' cheerful me sometime soon. Well, enough procrastinating, I've got a paper to write.

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Another long time no see...Again...
Thursday. 12.22.11 10:24 pm
Wow! Long time no see Nutang! It's been a long time since I've logged in here. I've been pretty busy since I was last here. I moved around the country a few times, started studying Japanese much more effectively than I used to, and am going to a university for computer programming. All in all, I've been incredibly busy. Definitely happy that it's winter break though, it's going to be a while before I get a nice long break like this. I'm still slaving away full time, but right now I'm slaving away working in the back office of AT&T. It's pretty stressful at times, but mostly because of the constant interruptions from my co-workers/boss, what I'm actually doing is really easy.

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I did it again...
Tuesday. 5.26.09 6:00 pm
Once again I would like to appologize to the populace of NuTang, I keep saying I'll be on to write, and I decide not to, or get caught up in other things and just forget. So here is my semi annual status report ^^;

The biggest thing since my last entry is that I've moved. Twice. First I moved from Amarillo, Texas to Tyler, Texas. After staying there for a few months and not being able to start my computer career up like I would've liked to, I moved out to Twentynine Palms, California. Why so far? My sister and her husband live out here, and they said they'd help me get up on my feet while I job search and house hunt. Well, that went along okay until Jessica caught Jeremy cheating, then we got kicked out of the house by Jeremy for about a week. We had to go stay in a homeless shelter, run by a crazy lady, but that entry is for another day, it'll be too long to go along with this entry.

Other news of potential importance, is that I got a job as well. Twice. In Tyler, I worked at a Subway, and had a really good boss, now in 29P, I have a job on the marines base as a cook at the local Churches restaurant. I'm not very fond of it, but It'll give me money for a house, new car and capital for the computer business I hope to start here.

Why do I need to buy a car you ask? When I lived in Amarillo, I bought a car from an in town auto dealer. When I asked him if it would be able to make it to Tyler from Amarillo, he told me yes, it had a brand new engine just put into it. He neglected to inform me that the head gaskets were broken. This problem didn't really manifest itself till about the time I got to New Mexico, which was too far to turn back, so I took a greyhound to Twentynine Palms. Crapiest ride of my life, but that is another entry as well ^^;

Other than that everything is going pretty well, my sister is letting me live in her house again, and I'm slowly but surely saving up money to allow me to get a house, then a car. There happens to be a community college out here that I'm going to apply to and start working on my education again.

Well, that entry took up my time on the local library computer, I'm going to go ahead and wrap it up ^-^



Axl

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unproductive day...
Sunday. 11.23.08 7:08 pm
Well today was meant to be a pretty productive day where I would spend the entire day programming and listening to my Pandora.com radio station. Needless to say that is not what happened. My anti-virus software found a virus, so I spent quite a while looking for fixes. I found none, so I'm using a temporary fix of signing into a different account that is still functional... Its the JS: Agent-AV trojan apparently, and I've had it since at least the 14th of november since that's when it started showing up in my anti virus logs. It's broken my antivirus program so that when the virus is detected it immediately crashes. I usually run my scans while I'm asleep, then have my computer shut off after the scan, so my antivirus quit, and the computer shut off, I took it as no problems detected... Guess not. Well, I'm off for the night now, about to eat supper, I'm having burritos :D See everyone tomorrow ^^



Axl

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Hi Nutang :D
Saturday. 11.22.08 9:30 pm
Hey I haven't been on here in a while, but I decided I'd say hi to everyone and come back on :P It's been quite a while since I've been here... Life is going in a completely different direction than what I intended it to be when I was planning things out. I have yet to go to college, but things are really looking up for me being able to afford it within the year. I've also started planning out a little home based computer repair business right now, but I've got some training to do with removing viruses and things like that. Well, I'm going to get back to work, I started out my time on the computer today wanting to begin learning C++ and I need to get to it or I won't do anything :P Hopefully I'll write something in here again soon :)

Update:

Decided to go with python instead of c++ as I know absolutely nothing about programming right now, and python was recommended as a good starter language to get the basics of programming down in :P

I'd just say I'm indecisive...



Axl

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Baby Sister Pic XD
Thursday. 8.9.07 9:08 pm


This is a pic of my sister Willow. Shes the best XD

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