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time flies, tml's National Day aldy. now tt i stepped into de workin society, public hols means a lot to me. treasure it ppl! =)

things hasnt been gg well for me at work. ppl thr pretty fucked up. i cant stand them anymore. dey r jus being unreasonable. today, Joanne told me tt sth in her tooth dropped out, some metal thingy..and instructions fr her dentist was tt, in de event it drops out, she has to visit de dentist immd. wad a timing, it dropped out today in de afternoon. she had no choice, but to ask for time off. officers werent happy of cuz, but everythg happen too abruptly.

cmon la, Joanne din do it on purpose anyway. so dumb if someone actually tks out sth fr their own mouth rite? crazy~ heard tt dey were pretty angry wif her, cos de office was quite short handed aldy. ha, in de first plc..even wif us ard, de office is aldy shorthanded lo. dey nv tk any actions, cant blame us, if we arent there leh.

den she told me, many ppl are unhappy wif us, tt we're leaving aldy. OMG! for goodness sake. kind of ridiculous leh. not tt we giv 24hr notice leh. we gave 1mth notice, accoring to de contract wad. isnt tt ample time for dem to find replacement? if dey cant find, its their own prob aldy rite? damn~ dey stil hav de cheek to sae dey're disappointed wif us, but hello, did dey tink of de reason behind our decision? are dey dumb or stupid?! crap! y r dey unhappy? more like bcos dey are angry dey cant tk advantage of us aldy hur? siao!

we're young, but not to de extent tt we'll let others bully us. u wan me to help out wif other work, can, im most willing to do so, but if u start takin advantage of wad im giving..and all these while, you're takin fr me, and not giving, den sorry! no such thing as free lunch in tis world ok! we're all her to learn new skills, gain exp and earn some $$. not for u to make use of us. *angry*

fr now, til my last day, definitely, life wun b tt smooth, quite sure bout it. plus June is leaving tis Wed. feelin kinda sad actually. i mite hav protray a strong image, but deep dwn, i feel kinda lost wif out her. feelin teary tt she's leaving. sigh~ she's always like a big sister to me. ignoring the age gap, she's one person hu constantly giv me gd advices, always askin me to stand up for myself, and not let others bully me. sometimes, i dun wan to b so calculative, cos im afraid ppl wil hate me for having such attitude. but ive learnt tt, if u dun help urself, no one wld help u. :/ isnt tt true? sigh, tts de reality i guess.

prolly, i shld get rid of negative toughts in my mind. i always care how ppl tink of me, how ppl wil tink if i do xxx thing. wad ppl wil sae, if i do xxx thing. so at de end of de dae, i wld end up not doing anythg, cos im scared of ppl's comments. sigh~ im so useless.

de mths in SCB, ive tried to b accomodating, always stayin bk wen dey asked me to etc. but i nv felt de appreciation. to dem, of cuz its a benefit. but now come to tink of it, i feel reali stupid, to b made use of. de number of hrs i cld hav claimed as overtime, i didn't. i wasnt aware of it. i wasnt even told tt i cld claim! cos dey sae contract staff dun hav. =(

July, i recorded de daes i stayed, and my officer has to doubt me. see, dey nv made me feel gd in tis company. i stayed bcos of dem, yet dey can doubt me. bloody hell~ dey are driving me crazy lo. im tryin to claim time off tis Friday as mummy is gg for a minor operation. i tout de best i cld do is to spend more time wif her, cos i dun hav many leave to tk also. =)

sad to sae, dey cant cfm de approval yet. tis is so infuriating. June told me, i dun hav to giv dem a reason, since dey're de ones hu owe me de time. i shld jolly well tel dem wen i wanna claim, and tts it. reasons for claiming wil b classfied as personal reasons. i tink its v true, cos i dun hav to report everythg to my officer rite? wad has my family issues gt to do wif him? he ask me so many questions, i feel as if im a prisoner! damn it.

i wanna learn to b firm n strong fr today onwards. not gonna let anyone bully me anymore. yes, dey are officers i noe, im suppose to show dem respect, but i seriously cant bring myself to respect dem wenever i tink of de things dey did to Joanne and i. dey giv me de feelin tt dey r using their position/authority to do such things, which i feel shouldnt b de case. arent we suppose to respect each other? even as 'small staffs', we've our own privacy too rite? i feel as if dey're intruding my life, questioning me my every actions! fuck~

im here to learn, why does SCB has such 'nice' ppl? its such a sad case, for a bank to hav such reputation. very very bad image aldy. pls frens, dun apply for any position thr k. dun wan ur to end up in de same state as me. reali, its tortourous.

i always depend on ppl. like now, i feel as if ive been depending on June to help me wif most of my prob at work. feelin v thankful to her. wifout her, i mite b crying every nite aldy. Thanks for coming into my life gal. if u ever see tis, im reali glad to hav u as my 'big sister'. ur life exp also impressed me! i'll miss those times we chat during QCD. time pass so fast wif u ard. de laughter... de funny jokes.. times wen we tel each other bout our life.. our r/s .. and not forgetting our lets-go-get-a-drink-togeda break, i'll really miss you. =) may u hav better job advancements in ya new workplc! *hugs*

ha, de tout of her leaving, made me tear a little. sigh~ thats life. ppl come and go. why cant de not nice ppl leave! sob! hope tml wil b a better dae! gg to Sentosa wif dearie! hee, kinda excited. will post pics up tml, if im nt tired. swt dreams ppl! *get rid of sour dreams*