im feelin so weak now. restless. today is like one of de worst dae tt happen to me. yest in de office, i was sneezing real bad. it affected my work concentration but i tried to do de best i can. for fear of dem saying i slackin or wad..after work, met dearie n gab for dinner @ Bugis V8. i couldnt eat anythg fried, so had pasta. felt reali unwell n dizzy, so headed home. these few daes ive been slpin early..like ard 10.. gd ger huh? lol..

today..i woke up feelin as if im dead. i couldnt wake up in actual fact. dad told me to c a doc, cos i was sneezing like 10 times in a row. ha..but stubborn me refuse to. i wen to work instead. i noe im sick, but it wasnt to de extent tt i couldnt do a single work. wen to work..sian..but stil smiled to pple. work was de same la. i was stil sneezing.. wifout knowing, i finished using 2 packets! was struggling cos my nose jus kp running..

to make matters worse, we had a meeting today n i was indirectly kena shoot. =( after tokin de major issues, my supervisor (who's leaving soon) said: "and also, if de posting are too much to b done, pls do cor for help. no one can b a hero at it". she din mention my name, but hello she was lookin at me, n de fact is im de only one doin posting lo?! tho pissed, i act as if nth happen, jus nod my head all de wae. of cuz i was so pissed off. u tink i wan to b hero? pls lor..crazy! nt tt i dun wan to ask for help.. once in awhile, my supervisor do come ard to check de work load. den she always claim i can finish all, even wen i told her its a bit too much, n we wil nt b able to finish by de cut off time.

wad can i stil do man? hav to obey her orders wad. i cant vent my anger in de office. i wanted to complain yet i noe it wil make things wrse for me. everyone wil hate me. posting today was hell. (actually everyday is) i was so angry so i insisted on doin slowly.. see if dey wil ask anyone to help a not.. ha..im so wrong man! sigh~ if nt for de contract.. i wun stay anymore. hai~ while workin, i was holding one piece of tissue on my left hand n de other typin. one of de supervisor even tout i was fakin to b sick! to hell! argh..

met dearie at Bugis after he met his fren. i dunno y but everythg got even worse. he claims tt i wasnt tokin to him in a nice tone. i felt so down, cos im already soo sick, yet he doesnt even show a bit of concern. plus de stress fr work, i couldnt tk it n jus cried at de food court. i felt reali shit cos all i wanted was for him to display a bit of care. after his dinner, we wen straight to de doctor. dizziness is so irritating. coudlnt walk properly. cab was so hard to find so we took a bus instead.

dearie came wif me to de clinic. after de doc measured my temperature.. he showed de thermometer to dearie, which i saw 36 degree. tinkin, i tout heng ah.. mayb only flu, nt too bad. nv did i noe..i saw wrongly! it was de opp side ma.. so it was actually 39 deg. y de doc showed dearie first? hmm. he said my giddiness was due to my fever too. n de runny nose + cough jus came all at once. makin me feel so lethargic.

he gave me 2 daes MC. i finally can rest. de work is reali a torture. how can dey make us work until lidat? sigh.. prolly im jus so incompetent. shouldnt b complaining so much. thr r ppl much worse off, having 40 deg etc. *frown*

on a happier side.. last wkend was spent fruitfully. gee. dearie picked me up fr work.. at nite, we had dinner at Si Chuan Dou Hua n so sway.. my shoe broke. sigh. one of my fav shoe wor. gt hm to tk another pair den headed to West Coast to mit dearie's frens. chan's poly frens came along too. =) b4 tt, dearie let me drove his car. n i jus scared de hell outta him. guess he wun allow me to drive anymore. *sulks*

we played Mafia at Mac again. lol. it was some sort a gathering for de guys since dey wld b away for NS soon. afterwhich headed to Marina to play pool. left ard 4. was kinda tired liao. spend de nite wif dearie, den gt home ard 12noon, after breakfast cum lunch. lol.

feelin as if im emitting heat rite nw. it totally sucks. i cant tok well. i cant breathe well. damn it. nt in a v gd mood nw either. sigh. bad things r always happening. *double sigh*

~wish u were by my side~
Love,
Sick Jac

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