My avatar*s now a poorly drawn duck by Morpheus I remember my old avatar was an animated gif of the falling code from the matrix. The mid 2000s were wild 😂 (also yes, I drew this myself)
C is for cookie by thaitanic That’s good enough for me
by AmbyrJayde I like to show up every once in a while to see what everyone is up to
Great to see that! my browser by CPKviperpheonix treats every blog including my own like it*s a unsafe page so finding it hard to explore around currently tho
by randomjunk Hi CPK! Not a lot of people still here, but I still hang around haha.
Well, hello everyone! by CPKviperpheonix Hope everyone is doing good, nice to see familiar faces still hanging around
i cant tell if my best friend likes me or not, we talk on the phone all night and laugh and stuff, he thinks my japanese is cute, he could live in my hugs forever, the idea that i had to watch the cooking channel cause i dont know how to cook was cute, and how just things about me are now "cute"! ummm yeah? what.. im confused!
recently he has told me that he has these secert feelings towards me and he isnt ready to tell me yet.
me: do you hate me?
him: no it's far from that
me: did i do something wrong?
him: no, but if i tell you this it will change things between us
me: is it a bad thing?
him: it depends on how you take it
me: when will you just tell me?
him: not now because i dont feel the time is right
me: no just tell me [im persistant haha :) ]
him: i'll tell you in four months probably
me: what...??!?! well i guess it isnt important, just forget about telling me
*** silence***
him: grrrrrr!! [frustration], i want to tell you so bad! its just i dont have the courage to tell you
me: then just tell me im ready to know
him: if i tell you a big relief will be lifted off my chest
me: then tell me now, because other than that i guess i dont want to know, or even need to know beacuse you dont want to tell me
**blahh blahh blahh goes on**
then it comes to the part where we say goodbye, and forsome reason he gets really sad when i say bye to him that he doesnt like to say it back. and when he does he sounds so sad it makes me feel bad for him.
me: come on say goodbye to me!
him: no, i cant....
me: why not?
him: because, i cant say bye to you anymore its too hard for me to say it now
** hmmm im thinking why....??**
what can his secret feelings be?? my guess so far, he like me...
i know some of you thought the last post i had was my birthday, but noope. It's today, and today i turn 17. O_O i don't want to be 17. I'm not really sure why, i think i just don' t want to grow older? i don't really want to be on my own yet. Well i kind of do because then it would just be make taking care of myself. But what if i don't make it? What if i fail to get into college or i'm not sucessful. =/ so many queestions, i do it all the time hahaha
ok i'm waiting for james franco to pop out anytime now. :D
today:
#1 a guy said i act like a boy. story: i was playing with my pants because they have buttons that close them instead of a zipper and so i was sticking my finger in there and laughing. and he saw me and was like what the heck so i was smiling and shoing him how i can stick my fingers through the crotch of my pants.
#2 sad the whole day; went to sleep mad. woke up crying. over a boy
#3 BALLLOOONNNSSSSSS: hahaha it was someones birthday todaty and when people have balloons i like to wack them and i was laughing and was thinking wow... that is a big balloonn. ohh boyyy! so i hit it really hard and it hit a boy on his head. the guy was all fazed hahaha
#4 not all guys are assholes. theres a lot of sweet ones.
#5 current favorite song : thrice- red sky.. listen to it!!! its awesome
last night: went to battle of the bannndddss!! woo!
check them out on myspace the gunda boys - ska, sorta like sumblime&pepper funerals forsaken - for now intrumental - metal, pretty heavy shit when u see them live the untold story - metal.. not as heavy as funerals forsaken happenstance- pop punk
