SO i have a best friend that is a guy.
and well, ive liked him before but i forced myself not to like him... and now i dont know and im confused.
he has a gril friend and yet i talk to him on the phone almost every night until 1 the next morning,:

ive told him i loved him once [i love all my friends] he said it back
he really cares about me
i think about times when i feel like crap so much that if i died id just feel better in a way. and that scared him when i said that. he wrote me a text message that bsically said he would be so lost if i were gone and that im the closest one to his heart. and he question his reason or living.

today i found out that my other friend ,thats a guy, likes me. it sucks that i cant just be friends with a guy. just casue im your friend doesnt mean i want to hook up with you. anyway, sooo my best friend guy sad that i flirt when i talk to guys but i talk to everyone like that! if you're a teacher, friend , boy , girl. whatever! and now i just cant stop thinking baout my friend. im confused... really confussedd

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i cant tell if my best friend likes me or not, we talk on the phone all night and laugh and stuff, he thinks my japanese is cute, he could live in my hugs forever, the idea that i had to watch the cooking channel cause i dont know how to cook was cute, and how just things about me are now "cute"! ummm yeah? what.. im confused!

recently he has told me that he has these secert feelings towards me and he isnt ready to tell me yet.

me: do you hate me?
him: no it's far from that
me: did i do something wrong?
him: no, but if i tell you this it will change things between us
me: is it a bad thing?
him: it depends on how you take it
me: when will you just tell me?
him: not now because i dont feel the time is right
me: no just tell me [im persistant haha :) ]
him: i'll tell you in four months probably
me: what...??!?! well i guess it isnt important, just forget about telling me
*** silence***

him: grrrrrr!! [frustration], i want to tell you so bad! its just i dont have the courage to tell you
me: then just tell me im ready to know
him: if i tell you a big relief will be lifted off my chest
me: then tell me now, because other than that i guess i dont want to know, or even need to know beacuse you dont want to tell me

**blahh blahh blahh goes on**


then it comes to the part where we say goodbye, and forsome reason he gets really sad when i say bye to him that he doesnt like to say it back. and when he does he sounds so sad it makes me feel bad for him.

me: come on say goodbye to me!
him: no, i cant....
me: why not?
him: because, i cant say bye to you anymore its too hard for me to say it now

** hmmm im thinking why....??**


what can his secret feelings be?? my guess so far, he like me...

do YOU think so too?

p.s he has a girlfriend

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