sigh. i feel so emotional right now.
my company is organising a company trip overseas to Australia.
sdyney i guess. everybody seems excited.
but not me. everybody is so earnestly involved in conversations.
discussing places to visit. but not me.

why is it that i feel so out of place?
why is it that i feel so unwanted?
why is it that i feel so unimportant?

nobody cares a pieces of shit about my opinion.
nobody even asked about what i think.
PS: leave out Jai.

sad. broken. unwanted. left out. loser. melancholy.

dislike my bosses who treat me this way.
no way can i find any attachment for this company.
and why am i staying put?

killing time? flexibility? to be a junior all my life?
to let them look down on me? to be trampled on?
to be an unpolished gem? to be ostracise?

anyone out there to really listen to me.. to listen from your heart?
i cant wait to relieve myself from discrimination.. >

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Sigh. Just when I was about to blog finish on this post..
My com crash. Everything was gone. And I had typed so so much.

So yesterday was Valentine's Day.
Plenty of couples on the streets..
hands holding hands...
or carrying presents.. or carrying flowers..
You see lovey dovey couples almost everywhere.

The 1st surprise was to dine at Modesto !
Alfresco place.. Cool!
Cosy and relaxing ambience and
they serve satisfactory Italian food!
Love the Pizza Proschetto Cruco E Rucola
*basically rocket salad with parma ham*
The bitter salad and the salty ham compliments the favours so well.
YUMMY!

So I was commenting on how I wished
I could receive flowers from my boyfriends 3 years ago..
and how I find it being impractical, costly and inconvenient now..

Then I received my FIRST BOUQUET OF ROSES from MY BOYFRIEND!
Feeling so elated!!
Love it.. heee..

I so love surprises!
Good and plesant surprises!
everything is a surprise!

I hope everyone out there enjoy their Valentine's Day!!




Just for me...

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Finally, I managed to get the images done for CNY!
Thou I din really edit them,
but spend a lot of time selecting and collating them okay!

Oh well, had a generally bad day today..
because its the 1st day of every month..
sucky feeling..
feeling soooo grumpy..

Hopefully by updating my blog..
I might feel a lil better..
Plus I was rushing something just now..
so emotionally I felt worst..

Sigh.

So soon CNY ended..
Went to quite a copuple of relatives' palces..
and true enough.. all my younger cousins are growing up!
How fast time flies!
Guess its my turn to age.. haha!
And almost all them are catching up on my height..!
*eeks*

Some new topic of the year..
Relatives talking about how terrible my complexion is..
That's very heartbreaking you know!
As if i wan to be in this state too..
Trust me I am going to spend a bomb on my face to get it treated.
So far $125 .. lets see how much the whole bill totals up to...

CNY day 2 went fortune telling.. and met brother in evening.
Jacky flew us areoplane. AS USUAL. sigh.
Fireworks at esplanade! Very thunderous indeed!
10 mins of splendid fireworks display.
For those who pay tax, YOU MUST SEE!
Because you paid for it too! haha!

Met up with honey bunny for like 10 mins..
and we parted to go home..
home sweet home..

PICTURES TIME!!!

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What a hectic Chinese New Year this year!
Been busy since the start of the CNY already..
But my long holiday is going to end soon..

So dreading monday to come..
sobs sobs..

Had a great day today!
seems like I haven seen honey bunny in ages..
whahaha!
Went his place to visit his parents for CNY..
peaceful family.. haha!
Seriously I need more time to adjust to that..
haha!

Simple day but I love it!
feels sooo great.. haha...
and Kung Fu Dunk is SUPERBY NICE!
Good comedy, yet comes with a touching storyline..
:> *yawns* time for me to sleep already..
its getting late .... -.-

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Waking up to a brand new day, I dragged my lazybones out of bed today.
8.30am, read my alarm clock just adjacent to my bed.
" I'm early today!" I thought.

Days like this hardly happens, as you all know by now that I am the late Queen.
haha~! True enough, today is that miraculous day. Technically speaking I should be happy today. To top it off, boss even complimented me for being early!

But on top of all these joyful facts, I am experiencing an extreme explicit pain in my jaw. Remember how I actually dislocate my jaw bones previously? Ya. That's right. Reason being laughing too hard. I know that's hard to believe, but trust me that was how the story went.

And so the pain came back again. This time it is twice as painful as the first. Feeling so sore.. :< I cannot talk properly. I cannot smile widely. I cannot even eat or yawn at ease. Sigh. My right cheek is swollen. :<

It's about time to go for my meeting. Two words to describe how I am feeling right now. Grumpy. Irritated.

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To the people who truely cared about my well being..
I truly thank god that I have you all who stood by me all this while..
So thankful for all the great things that has happened to me so far..

Eg: my girlfriends. my brother. my buddy. my caring caroline-sister-alike.
bumping into Lishan and Sam. Having my honey bunny ard me.

Wanna say a big thanks to my honey bunny.
you are the greatest for trusting me.
for loving me.
for caring for me.
for pampering me.
for staying by me.
for tolerating me.
for understanding me.
for fighting for me.
for not giving me up easily.
for working towards our dreams together.

I love you. so much.

Girls. Friendships are not easy to build up. Jus like relationship.
We have all been through so much together. I love you all too.
Dun let us fall apart ok.
I hope this misunderstanding can be cleared soon.
Whatever is the case, you all still have me..
Rem what we used to say...
Table for 4 to table for 8 to our table of 16?
Cool down.. and have a good thought
of what all of us had been through together..

and my lishan! i m so glad i'll be meeting her
up on 25th JAN next coming Fri !!
miss crapping with you and how i used to complain to you
*u use to grumble like hell to me*
haha! how we share cheesecake
and skip class.. hahaha and be big shots
when we are damn late.
haha! miss u too girl. wanna see u soon again!
Dat day is not enough. haha.

Dats all for now.. going to brush my teeth
and heading off for my slumber...
hehe~ Project to rush again.. :<
miss my bed and softies..
*mummy's coming hehe*

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