I hope we dont die tomorrow that would ruin the whole jesus thing...oh well

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Rachel and i are fasting for a week it will be a misleading adventure already things like spaghetti and milky ways have shoved toward our future.
In these little odd hopes its a way to get closer to jesus.
Ive never had Jesus in my life before last year, and my feelings have operated completly differently, im still as secret as ever but not in the sense that it would be concidered a barrier.
I have had problems before, a lot of my memory is gone but i still am trying to look forward.
Its really hard sometimes honestly,
There is no more slitting wrists and its really taking a tole on my life.
Belief in something and then doing it are different things,
my body is yearning but my heart says for it to stop.
We shake and shrivel on endless terms.
I know we all can feel the train coming but some of us see the light and its too late, there's no turning back.
Unless your that lucky one, whom someone saw the train coming before you and stepped in, and you didn't realize who had actually saved you from you.
Bluntly as stated, we all live in this life to get away from it,
what else is there but faith?

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