Sunday. 4.18.04 11:13 am me and Mike are fighting. and though im very ticked off right now i find it rather funni. he still won't tell me y hes mad but oh well. if he wants to act like an 8 year old bitch thats fine with me. Anywaz.......... im jus bored right now, as usual. i've basiclly lost my voice bcuz i waz singing to the radio all day yezterday. My Grandma came over again and is staying a few days.
today i might go to the mall and jus walk around and shop. i might jus go by myself. i feel like being alone today, like friday. well theres stuff to do and i gtg. bu byez
*~Bryi*~ Comment! (0) | Recommend! Friday. 4.16.04 8:11 pm Another day.... Still Alive........ Wednesday. 4.14.04 4:02 pm Friday. 4.9.04 3:39 pm he came online today. He acted normal like nothing was wrong. but i finally sai, lori told me how you really feel, im gonna let you go, theres betters gurls u out there. he got a lil ticked when i made that last comment. we went through alot of reasoning. finally he told me he would tell me the answer at 2:00 . i told him i wazn't perfect and signed off before he could make a comment. I got back on a few minutes later and monkey waz on. i talk to her bout it for a long time. he came back on at about 1:30 i said hi after a while but he just told me not yet. he waz talkng to monkey about it. finally i just told him im letting him go. i couldn't take the pain anymore. it felt like some one stabed me in the heart and it waz slowly sinking further, almost peircing my back. we reasoned a lil more. we broke up. i've been single for about 10 minutes. i feel weird... happy, sad, and free at the same time. he still wanted to be good friendz. and that i waz hoping he still wanted to be. well in the end i cryed and i only did something stupid once. i heard the phone ring and i knew it waz mike. i stopped then. Theres a thing a church going on in about 2 hours, so im gonna go there to hang with friendz and worship. its a mystery night so no one knows what were doing. all i kno is were going to eat and there separating the guyz and gurlz. so it soundz like its gonna be fun! ~> Thank you Monkey for convincing not to do something REALLY stupid. LYLAS!! <~ and also, thank you Dan, you helped me realize alot. God Bless
TTYL diz is ya gurl *~ Midnight ~* PEACE Comment! (0) | Recommend! Thursday. 4.8.04 3:58 pm Wednesday. 4.7.04 3:46 pm mood: Happy & Hyper! 
listening to: The voices in my head (as usual)
watching: Me type an entry
Today waz actually a fun day! In 5th block we have pen pals now from Japan! Which is kool bcuz im trying to learn how to write in Japanese. Anywaz... we spent the intire class period writing back and talking and we missed a reading test! ~** YAY **~ Plus tomorrow were singing at a lil assebly thing at skool and were singing 2 songs that we've only practiced 3 times.lol And I have found my tru happiness! I've been lookin deep down inside and it waz right there all along.  But right now my happiness is sick  But hes getting better.
In other newz. I went to the orthidontist today and they said i might have to get surgery. yay! doesn't that sound like fun!  .... yea right. Well im very  right now and i gonna go  so thiz iz ya gurl Midnight Peace  p.s. I Love Mike Comment! (0) | Recommend! Monday. 4.5.04 5:51 pm Hey, Midnight here. Today waz an ok day. the usual skool day, boring classes, talking with friendz. After skool i snuck out again and ran under the bridge to relax and think things over. but i wazn't very comfortable under there alone. so i jus ran back out into my back yard again. lol, there waz no point to doing that. also, 3 thingz have really been getting to me, the poem, Tyler, and... something else. The dream that i mentioned a while back doesn't bug me anymore. I also just ate a cheesecake blizzard from dairy queen and i feel very hyper!! but not happy...  Ah! no!! i don't like this video! beyonce, naughty. the song is ok but i don't like the video very much. Anywaz, this week is looking the same as last week, depressing... but im going to try to talk to mike about "it" thiz time Seriously!!! I'm trying to avoid it everytime i see him. I've broken a promise 3 times now... and i don't want it to get any worse... this iz Midnight, Im out. Comment! (1) | Recommend! Sunday. 4.4.04 6:11 pm mood: Happy! sad...
listening to: Tha cars drive by
watching: Life pass me by
Today is 04/04/04 ! lol for the first time nothing went wrong YAY! ~~~Yezturday was so much fun!!! Monkey came over to my house yezturday and we were surgar high.  we walked around in my backyard most of the time and down by the creek. we almost had a mud war and that waz funni. We also found a lil path way under the bridge and so we stayed under there and were jus being stupid. my mom made us come inside after a while *:( * and so we talked on the phone for a while
I called a friend and we talked for a while while monkey waz adding to her webpage. I learned that my friend waz the same way as I am now. that was kinda a shock to me since when i see him he seems like a very funni and happy person. we talked bout "issues" and how to avoid them. but the lil voices in my head won't shut up. They keep on reminding me of thingz that I've done bad. I makes me want to do it some more. but i've broken the promise already and i can't make it worse. I'm going to try to talk to mike bout it but im afraid of what he'll say. When talkin to my friend on the phone, he told me i should talk to mike, but if i can't then him or Monkey. i jus dunno. i might go with Monkeys advice and show him the poem ~>  Mokney! <~ Thiz is Midnight signing off. Comment! (0) | Recommend! | 
