First an update on my ebay situation...I sent the guy a message explaining what happened, all very diplomaticaly I must add, and I get a snide reply message stating "as far as we're concerned, we sent the items to your confirmed address and have no more say in the matter." I immediately went to PayPal to open a case against him, restating everything I'd already said. Now, their resolution center serves as an official mediator so two parties can work things out on t heir own. The parties have 20 days to either resolve the situation or escalate the case to a "claim" which means PayPal decides the outcome. The seller pretty much reiterated his "confirmed address" bullshit and escalated it to a claim himself. Asshole. So now I'm waiting for PayPal's decision. Then I go to ebay. He's definitely getting some extremely negative feedback from me.

In other news, I bid on and won a dress for Tara's wedding today. Hopefully it fits...according to the measurements it should.

Somehow tonight my blood sugar is 500, and I don't like that. I can't call out tomorrow, and I'm going to be exhausted. Hopefully at least the number goes down overnight.

I finally got an endocronology appointment..for December because the new woman I'm trying to get an appointment with is on maternity leave. But at least I finally have a date!

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In addition to all this, my depression cycle is back, and this time taking a huge toll in addition to my other stresses, first and foremost being money. I seriously considered giving up my photography today. It costs me a lot of money, and I don't see affording a new camera being in my near future at all, especially since it's going to cost us a lot of money for a new car, and this one's coming up for inspection in a few months, which doesn't give us much time to make a decision. I'm trying so hard to keep afloat, I DONT know how we're covering bills AND rent (which is due in a week), and I'm tired of falling further and further. I've always had fairly good credit, and now it's all falling apart because we CANT save and we're NOT getting by every month. The guy interested in me singing for his band gave me a demo, and as much as I TRY to learn t hese songs I can't. I don't like them. I don't like the style, I don't like the words...I just don't feel it. Do I want to sing? More than anything, that's why I'm trying to be satisfied here. I wanted to play with Chris more than anything, but they decided I'm not right for them. I was disappointed with my audition for them, but they assured me it was great, so I had some hope...all I want is one chance. One night behind a mic. I miss it. I miss the life that fills me on a stage. I just don't know how to get there again. That's why I'm trying so hard to dig what Mike's doing...it's just not me... so what do i do? I feel like giving up everything that makes me happy or passionate...i feel like id almost be better if i were a drone content to work all the time so we could get a car...ive been crying all day for no good goddamned reason, and im really tired of it...no wonder my blood sugars so high...i just cant do this anymore tonight...*sigh* i cant concentrate anymore...im goin to bed...

Categories: sick [t], ebay [t], life [t], dress [t]

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Jenn...that really sucks! I do not think you should give up photography at all! I would be incredibly sad if you gave up something that seems like your dream.

Things will all work out eventually. I used to have excellent credit too (back in the day), but I can relate to being in the credit crap hole. You need credit to get anywhere...and you can't get any credit without credit...and when it's bad, it just gets worse.

I hope you feel better and just don't let life get you down.
» lazypuppy on 2006-09-27 10:24:04

Forget about 'em!
*makes a ridiculous face--dumbo ears, huge tongue, crosseyed, the works* Laugh! Right now! Hehe, haha! Ooh, lookit me, I'm a flyin' monkey! With that ebay guy in my mouth. And now gnawing on him. Oops, his head fell off! Oh, well, save it for later. Heehee, yummy...*digs in to the rest*
» Silver-dot- on 2006-09-27 10:36:09

Hope ya feel better. :/

That ebay guy SUCKS.
» randomjunk on 2006-09-27 10:55:24

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