Have you ever wanted to fix someone up with a friend of a friend of yours because they like you and it was just inappropriate? I have and in fact I want to fix this particular small friend of mine, she's only 18 and just this side of jail bait and she's got a big annoying crush on me, which is kind of ruining my life. One of my assistants said that she has a friend that's about this person's age, or at least maturity level, who always, always finds herself with the wrong people. We began to speculate on whether we could actually get them to meet and get them to like each other. My assistant said, even if it doesn't work out maybe they'll learn something.

I wish we could really do that, but the distance thing would be too difficult for them. I really want my friend to find someone who is appropriate and in her age range, because I would be appropriate if I wasn't a decade older than she was.

Have you ever felt like this?

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I'm finally awake. I got a burst of energy when I found out my friend died. Ricki Landers was a fabulous fierce woman who I will always miss and I was just feeling happy that no one I knew had died in a few months. Now the adrenaline has worn off and I'm feeling sleepy again.

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Today sucked! Have you ever had one of those days were nothing seemed to go right at all. I woke up this morning to that. I found out that I was out of both of my blood thinners and one of my allergy medicines. Then I went to the mall and tried on every pair of shoe I found acceptable witch most of been 14 different pairs in 5 different stores. I fell in love with the first pair of shoes I tried on; but they cost $65. I was not trying to pay that, really I was not. So I decided to go to other places to try on shoes. Just my luck the first pair fit the best so I ended up forking over the money.

Just when I had gotten over my sticker shock I got a call from the Springfield police department looking for a friend of mine. They called me on my cell phone and really startled me. After talking to them I called my friend and inquired as to what she had done for the police to call me. Thankfully she called the police and the matter is straightened out now.

When I got home all I could do was chill with Celina in front of the TV. I couldn�t even bring myself to call Demi to return her money; which she lent me to buy shoes and a new chair (the one my PCA�s sit on when they type for me, and use the computer for their own purposes, broke).

When the happiest thing in your day is buying shoes and getting a chair; you know you're having a bad day.

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I haven't been here in awhile. It's true. So, just to catch you all up this is what's been going on. I went to the ER on Sunday again because my leg wouldn't straighten out and other people couldn't get it to straighten out either. Finally, the doctor had to give me a shot of like really hard core pain killer (even harder than the stuff I've been taking) to make it behave. Then, they increased my dosage of pain killer. Every four hours without fail except when I'm sleeping. That's five pills a day sometimes and always four. That's more narcotics than I've ever been on in my whole life. I can't wait to see the orthopedist next week. For the past two days, I've been up and around pretty well and getting work done.

I've decided to try to enter this poetry contest from Pavement Saw Press. Now, my only job is to figure out what I want to send them. It's due by August 15th. I have two months. I really need to get some publication credits in before I apply for the Amy Lowell Fellowship in 2012 which I really feel could make my literary career if I got it. I'm also going to submit to this new radical political poetry magazine I was made aware of. I signed up for another paid to write site, and I'll let you know how it goes. They have a $5.00 signing bonus. The payout is $20.00. I finally made $3.00 here and that's a good thing. Only took me since October, but I haven't really paid as much attention to here as I should have.

In other news, all plans for the extraction of my friend from his house in Tennessee are going well. I guess I'll spend the first week of July in various offices with him getting him services. That's what I was really born to do. I'm just not as good at it as other people. However, as he says he doesn't know the other people but he knows me. I wonder if my friends went through this when they had to do the same thing with me. I really must thank them again if it was this difficult.

Goodnight all. I'll try to check in tomorrow.

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My friend, who I'm helping escape from TN, has informed me that his step dad has told him that his mom is his guardian is him even though he can vote and he's 27. I hoping they are wrong, and just trying scare him into not leaving. If not, I'll get a lawyer to help him out. If need be, I'll marry him so that I can be his guardian. Of course, it will be a fake this (he got a gf; I want to get make with my ex). Both would understand. I hope!!

Well maybe, as I said, they are lying. We'll find out. I want to take him to the SSI office right when we gt here to deal issues right away. I need to be in charge of his money I can do that, too. Also we can call the Disability Law Center and Stavros.

All this worrying might be for not. I'm going to pray about it. If there truly is a God nothing will go wrong in the long run.

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This is yet another Andrew blog even though I said I wasn't going to write anymore. Now, he says he wants to come here in August and bring his folks with him which is okay by me as long as they don't get crazy. I told him he could have my assistant who's returning to school's old shifts when she gives them up to return to school in September. But then I was actually strict with him and told him that if he wants the job guarantee which I've given him he needs to be here by September whatever his folks say. I said, "I like you but not more than myself." I'm not going to endanger my health, well being or assistant services just to help somebody out. That's stupid. I think he may have grown up a little in this conversation. God knows he needs to.

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