went to the game yesterday agenst OTAY! their school is SO FXCKING BEAUTIFUL! our school looks like SHXT! en THEIR school ACTUALLY gives me a FEELING OF BEING IN HIGHSCHOOL! MY school makes me FEEL LIKE IM IN MIDDLE SCHOOL! and there were so mine FIIIIINE GUYS! SHXT! THERE ARE NO CUTE GUYS AT MY SCHOOL! I WANNA MOVE TO OTAY RANCH! but i think my DAD LIKES SAN YSIDRO! he'z sucha a GAY GUY! I HATE HIM! he sez i have TOO MENI FILIPINO FRENZ or sumthin FXCK THAT LOOK AT HIM! SHXT! HE DUSNT FXCKING UNDERSTAND! SAYING IM "TOO YOUNG"! MAN FXCK THAT! GO TO HELL! HE DUSNT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ABOUT ME. HE DUSN'T KNO ME. HE'Z ALL "ITS A GOOD OPPORTUNITY TO LEARN SPANISH" AND SHXT MAAAN WHATEVER! SWEAR LIKE THEY'RE GONNA TALK TO ME IN SPANISH IF I DONT FXCKING UNDERSTAND AND SHXT! I HATE MY DAD! ERRRRR! HE PISSEZ ME THE FXCK OFF! HE RUINED MY NIGHT LASS NITE SO I WENT STRAIGHT TO SLEEP! SHXT I'D BE SOOOO FXCKING HAPPY IF I WENT TO OTAY INSTEAD OF SAN YSIDRO CUZ SAN YSIDRO IS GAY!!!!! I HATE MY DAD. I DONT THINK HE'D LEMME GO TO OTAY NEX YEAR IF I GOT ACCEPTED..HE PROLLY WOULDNT EVEN LEMME TRY EN GO THERE. MAN FXCK HIM. SHXT. WHY DUSN'T HE JES GO BAK TO THE BOAT WHERE HE FXCKING BELONGS! SHXT! THIS MORNING ((53 MINUTES AGO)) I WOKE UP EN WUZ LIKE "SHXT. GOTTA GO TO THAT SHXTTY SCHOOL AGEN. WISH I WUZ GOING TO OTAY" SERIOUSLY THATS WHA I THOT. ERRRRR IM SO PISSED. WHY'D WE HAFTA MOVE HERE?!!! SHXT. I'D BE BETTER OFF AT OTAY FORREALZ. I HATE THIS. I HATE EVERYTHING. MY LIFE IS A BIG PICE OF BULLSHIT! OTAY IS SO BEAUTIFUL! MAYBE THE PPL THERE DONT APPRECIATE THEIR SCHOOL AS MUCH..I DONT KNO...BUT IF THEY WENT TO OUR SCHOOL FIRST THEY'D KNO HOW NIIIIICE THEIR SCHOOL IS. SHXT OUR SCHOOL IS FXCKING UGLY AND GAY AND LOOKS LIKE A FXCKING MIDDLE SCHOOL. I HATE SAN YSIDRO. AND I WILL NEVER EVER LIKE IT! IM OUT I'LL WRITE HERE WEN I GET BAK HOME..

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jes came bak from practice..whoo my hands hurt like woah en my nails chipped so i hafta cut em...ne waise..learned the end of the warm up and learn a new thingy wit the flag..en its called...A TOSS...she ((the coach)) makes it looks so easy..hahah its kinda hard..i keep catching it at the rong side! oh well...i jes started..i ges im doin ok for a beginner rite?..i'll get better....ONCE I GET MY OWN FLAG! hah. practice flags in hopefully week after nex week!! oOh en guess what ALYSSA'S CAPTAIN! whoopee! no more of those other gurls that are sucky..hahah...en kendra has en attitude problem, no offense. well ne waise hMmm..my hand hurts..yeno ur left hand and ur index finger and like that one litel spot kinda by ur palms..where u would usually get blisterz...yup..thats where it hurts!....ne who..uhhhhh...deno what else tah say..OH YEAH..it'#### yepiz's birthday..so we gotta take away like 30 minutes and EAT CAKE!...and OH YEAH! ..maaannn...i left my bracelets at the football field!!...cuz i took it off cuz i wanted nothin on my arm wen i do the flags cuz i figured it would be better that way...en i realized i dint have it wen we were gonna leave..SO TYPICAL..to realize sumthin wen its alredi too late! maaan! and it wuz the cool blak en pink glow in the dark onez! AND my white one with stars! HOW CAN I FORGET?! maaan..oh well..i'll get new onez...SOON! cuz i feel SOOOO EMPTY without em!! en i think thats about it...I WANNA MOVE TO OTAY!!!!! SO MENI CUTE GUYS =)....OH! aaaannnd!..hahah yesterday, last nite at the game..saw so meni familiar facez!..did i say that alredi?...well yeahhhh...i THINK i saw ARMOND ((or however u spell his name))...iono if he remembers me tho!..hahah cuz in the beginning of 8th grade ((7th for him)) he used to call me ATEH! hahaha en like yeah i think i saw him! en mylene sed he wuz all looking at me cuz she sed that he prolly saw me pointing at their direction...but that wuz only becuz i knew who he wuz!..well at least i think it wuz him! hahah...and thennnnn...i saw PAUL EPPS! i think he saw me..i think he remembers me..not shure tho...aaand i saw CHERYL PARKS!..she'z a CHEERLEADER! hahah its kinda weird seein her as a cheerleader cuz im used to seein her as a sportyish type person. it wuz cool. i dont think she knows me tho. hahah but yeah! SO MUCH PPL!...welp thats bowt it guys..LATERZ!
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oh yeahhhh also BEFORE THE GAME we had a PEP RALLY assembly..hahah it wuz pretty kOo..way better than last year GO SOPHOMORES! hahaha but the freshmans were so frikken loud they won the cheering thing! no fair. oh well. we're still better!! hahaha..uhMm..en it wuz funny cuz we saw the prinicpal of otay cuz yeahh..him and mr. espinoza are good frenz...hahah...en it wuz funny cuz they started DISSIN EACH OTHER! cuz like they made a bet that whoever losez hasta SHAVE THEIR MUSTACHE OFF!...and so mr. espinoza wuz like "yeno why he dusn't wanna shave his mustache...cuz he has more hair there than on the top of his head!" oh man that wuz hilarious! and he wuz also like "and what's a mustang? isn't it a CAR!" oh maan that wuz funny too! hahah but then the principal of otay ((sorry i dont kno his name hahah))..wuz like "yeahh well we got the mustang and wha do u have? A LITTLE KITTY KAT!" oh maaan that wuz SO FREAKIN FUNNY! hahahah and oh yeahh the RESULTS OF THE GAME!...13-14 SAN YSIDRO! booyah! we won on the FIRST GAME at THEIR FIELD! mwahhaha >=) and that principal hasta SHAVE HIS MUSTACHE! and he's gonna do it in front of us..i 4got wen be he is! OH YES! hahaha but saLL gOod cuz OTAY IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I WANNA GO THERE! hahahah..plus cant forget bowt the guys ;-) hehehe kae this is all for now laterz

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OH YEAH! more on the thing at otay..hahahah they had FIREWORKS...they were SO PRETTTTY! i wuz like WOW! =)

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2dae wuz gay. uhmm...went to school did all that crap...stayed afterschool cuz i thot there wuz practice 2dae but..well there wuz its jes not a lot of ppl showed up cuz i ges they dint kno..so it ended up being cancelled..and also becuz the football players were usin the feel bad..prolly cuz they got their first game 2morrow..so that wuz gay..so mariel took me home...THANKS BUDDY! hahah she thot i lived in dolphin cove! luckily she asked first cuz that is so NOT where i live! ahhah. but yeah uhm. yeah im startin to slack off now..tsk tsk..thats so bad..but oh well i'll try en "work hard"er to 2morrow..hah..but ne waise..uhMm ateh nicola called en she helped me plan out my litel kick bak party thingy for my birthday...cuz i dont kno how tah do these things. but i doubt lotsa ppl would go ne waise cuz im jes a loser. hahah. oh well. so yay in a few weeks i'll be 15! and i can't wait for nex year wen i'll FINALLY be 16! oh yeah! hahah but i gotta think bowt now first where i'll be 15..whoopee =) hahaha

welp im bored. nothing tah do. i'll do all my work 2morrow. hopefully. its becuz i alwaise come home tired en worn up en sleepy. gosh. i hate school. I CANT WAIT TILL INTERSESSION! oh yes! that'll be the best! a BREAK! finally. but thats not until the 22nd. oh well. i still can't wait! yesssaaa 8) welp i'll go now..eat sum noodles. --man we have NO FOOD!..sucks =P ok LATERZ!

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2dae wuz a boring ass day. i felt kinda depressed in the beginning of the day..dint care wha ne body sed..but im jes not the type of person to stay depressed for a long consecutive period of time..cuz ppl around me are alwaise crackin jokes en stuff..but once agen it comes bak

but ne way..lets talk about YESTERDAY
..yesterday i went to mission wit ateh nicola..it wuz ok..last year wuz way better i can tell u that...we met mommy erin and papa john there..hah..they lefted us en went off on their own..oh yeah en ateh gi came wit us too. haha she took frikken forever! but ne way..so yeahhh it wuz me en ateh nicola..we were also wit eric..we went left to fashion hopin to find christine h. ..no luck..ate sum food then went bak to mission...we watched Uptown Girls..it wuz pretty kOo..i enjoyed it...there wuz this one quote at the end i really liked..i dont exactly remember it but it went sumthing like "..everything has an ending..but in life..the ending is a start of a new beginning"...sumthin like dat..i really liked it...hMm...then it wuz funny cuz we met other ppl..maria..lovely..reinier and aaron..there were all couples..ahhah i found dat funneh...but ne waise..it sucked cuz ate E wuzn't there! boOoooOo. she ruined it =( cuz she'z been out too much this past week! WITHOUT US! and she went SHOPPING! which we were sposed tah do YESTERDAY! gawdamn. but thats about it.

2dae wuz same o. went to school. blah blah blah. i jes got sum old letters my aunt sent to me that i sent to her wen i wuz litel. it wuz pretty funny..i dont remember writing ANY of em! hahaha..my ideas were scattered everywhere..lotsa "i love you"z and "i miss you"z...its all so cute wen ur a litel kid.

well nothin exciting has really happened. so thats all.

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soo i woke up real early like 6:30 to go orange picking..well actually we left at 7:30...hahah..well i hadta take a shower en stuff yeno! it wuz COOL! en they were real gOod!..the grapefruit tOo!..they were so JUICY! it wuz gooood! en there wuz this litel gurl there too..maybe like 2-3 yrs. old...she wuz so kyewt! and i love her hair cuz it looked like she used a curling iron! i wuz like awww i wish my hair wuz like that!..hahah well yeah im too layzee to write rite now so i'll write later!

pee ess: STARBUCKS ROOT BEER IS THE BEST! better than a&w! oh yes!

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i feel shaky now. im so sorry. but its sumthing i hadta do. the feelings just weren't there ne more. i never wanted this to happen. but it did. i still love you but not in that way. i still care about you. i alwaise will. im still here for you. i still want us to be frenz. hopefully best friends. im really sorry.
__living the single life yet once agen. =|

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this is so LAME! 2dae's sucha boring fxcking day. dayem dint even take a shower yet..ahhah tOo layzee. uhMm...i watched A WALK TO REMEMBER..it still touches me like i've watched it the first time! i LOVE that movie! it's like my all time favorite! still the best. en shane west looks hott mwahha. hMm..maan i still have lotsa hw tah do but its saturday..i'll take my online quiz 2morrow. man im sucha procrastinator. i plan to places with ateh nicola en ateh elizabeth this monday for LABOR DAY jes like last year!...but i still havent asked yet becuz i dont kno wen'z the "right time"...im scared to ask my parents for stuff to go places. hMm..this is a waste of my time. and no1 actually reads this stuff ne waise..welp i'll go find sumthing to do..which i kno i wont find. i'll jes lie down and be bored. GBYE!

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welp i jes finished taking a shower. how funny..i ended jes in time cuz that stupid sing "right thurr" came on wen i stopped..((i listen to the radio while taking a shower on the weekends =) its fun)) en funny thing wuz wen i went in my room to change..i turned on the radio en i changed it to 93.3 cuz it wuz on 90.3 rite..en i wuz like wtf?! is there sumthin rong wit dis?! cuz they were playin the SAME SONG! hahah. iono i jes thot the wuz funny..in a weird kind of way. ne waise..later on we're gonna go to church at 5..then go to tita enday's house cuz its her mom's birthday..well i think its her mom..heh..blah..2morrow i hafta decide on whether tah wake up hella early en go orange picking at el cajon or sumthin or jes wake up late en stay home..i'll think about it..life is a bxtch. so boring. blah blah blah. still. sOo hMmMm..i ges thats all for now..gbye!.agen.

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jes came bak from tita enday's house. tons of fun. hahah sike. it wuz boring. but it wuz kinda ok here en there..ahhahah..not much to talk about. the gramma is 75 yrs old! wowzers =) uhMm nothin really exciting..went swinging on their made home swing..so very cool..and then went on the astrojump..bunches of fun! yEeuHh..then my bak started hurting. dont kno why =| so i jes stopped en jes chilled in the astrojump running from corner to corner cuz tha litel kiddies were ruff housing. krayzee kids. en they were doing this weird thing..like wen sum1 farted they go "cherry bomb!" en then put their finger er hand on their head..WeEeirDd! homie its all bowt the COOTIES! hell yeah! hMm what else..uhMm then at the end grown ups did a litel kareoke. en i stayed in there being bored as heck cuz i had nothin else tah do..oh well..hahah..en it is SO COOL wen grown ups praise me on how much TALLER im getting..cuz im bowsta be TALLER than my MOM! whoOpeEe! =) jes like a centimeter or inch! heEecCk yeah! welp that wuz my journey at auntie's house...oh en b4 that we went to church at st. rita's. jes in case u were wondering. dint think so but it wuz nice tah kno rite? rite! ok later!

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