so.... i get a fone call this mornin and it went somethin like this

me:hello?
him:sup man
me:just sleepin, whats up
him: i got back at that bitch eh
me: what?
him: i got back at that bitch
me: *pauses* (tryin to figure out what he just said...)
him: you sleepin man?
me: yea...
him: *strugglin to hang up*

what a great way to wake up with a wrong-number call.
after that i just booted up my comp to see whats up with giggles if she woke
up on time for the temple... she woke up late. so i just txt her. she calls back
to ask me what i ment bout the txt. calls me a liar, jokingly though.. or so i think
then i asked her where she at. said she goin to dim sum, then said "didnt you
read my away msg!?" and before i could say anythin, she goes "damn you're slow,
you're gettin slower and slower every day" and i was like.. what? so i read her
away msg and it said she's at home. ohhh k.... can you said moded!?!? so i tell her
that wow, she thinks im a liar and im stupid? then she said not to take
it to the heart. then blah blah, hung up. now im on here to vent out my thoughts
and feelings of the outcome of what just happened. well, i can plainly see what
she thinks of me and it hurts, it really does. she said not to take it to the heart
but to what she said, to a certain extent and a percentage, that view of me is
in her mind and thats how she perceive me. i really dont want that. im tryin to
be someone better then what she sees me as. no ones perfect ya know, i cant
be flawless but i can become someone better and im trying. you cant say you're
any better yourself. im sorry for lashin back rite about now... i aint the one
that WAS into drugS ya know. (dont take it the wrong way either) you cant say
that you werent slow at times before. i dont put you on blast for the dumb things
you do ya know. i respect your feelings and i care for you not to hurt you like that.
i know i was an ass in the past but im changin from the jerk that i was.
and with change i guess there comes pain in the things that you do because
some people fail to see beyond the past mold thats been implanted in their heads.

i appologize for being so emotional but thats what makes us human, emotions.
does it make me less of a "man" not the kind of man you want eh? what
is your definition of a man anyways. someone who's hallow and has no feelings?
someone who cant be a "boy" at heart, being playful. does he have to be
so dull and serious? and he has to be able to take care of himself rite? well if so,
every man needs a woman with somewhat same qualities, to aslo take care of
herself. can you say you're that woman a man is lookin for? in your own way, i
think you are and in some ways you're not but im not gonna hate you for that.
like i said, i aint perfect but my feelings holds true like the stars in the sky.
though you cant see them, they're there. and when the time is right, they will
be revealed but only if you take the time to see them, see how amayzing it
is and to know that they were there the whole time, waiting for you to notice.

3T-IneedYou

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hmMmM.... iono
not much has changed gonna be workin more
for that money. yeeahh! eRrRmm... my cars
Effed up. stupid radiator leak. dont know what
the cause is though. from what i read up bout
the probelem, i would have to replace the
radiator. which is gonna cost a grip.
other then that. everythin seems to be fine.
still savin up my wires and my sub stuff.
im goin vnam next month. yay... i think.
its gonna be super hot. ill be stayin there
for a month. but iono.... while im away
im just hopin stuff dont happen when im
gone. like i how i was gone away 2 years ago.
so ill be away from work, im able to come back
which is koo. then ill be goin to a homegirls
DeButt on the 26. before that im plannin somethin.
gotta keep it on the low though. hehe.
prolly wont go to plan but its the thought rite.... ill just post
up the plan after this and password protect it. then later
reveal it and see if it went well? iono. dispite the fact that
it wont go through.. it'll be the thought that counts rite?
things are so difficult and complexed. just gonna have to
deal with it cuz things arent gonna change just as my feelings.
anyways, todays boring, nothin to do till later, prolly goin fishin.
not sure bout the coffee shop though cuz the laker game will
be on at 730. i guess before that imma go cut my hair and do
laundry. fun time killer things to do..

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Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I’m all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back


And my mind’s gone half crazy cause I can’t leave you alone (oh can’t get you out of my system)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind’s gone half crazy cause I can’t leave you alone (can’t get you out of my system)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me holding on (yeah)


I’d hate to walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back


And my mind’s gone half crazy cause I can’t leave you alone (oh can’t get you out of my system)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind’s gone half crazy cause I can’t leave you alone (can’t get you out of my system)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me holding on


oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know (oh yeah yeah)
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together yeah


And my mind’s gone half crazy (oh) cause I can’t leave you alone (I’m going half crazy baby)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me (oh) holding on (over you)
Said my mind’s gone half crazy (yeah) cause I can’t leave you alone (and I just don’t know)
And I’m wondering if it’s worth me holding on (said I just don’t know what to do now)
we used to chill (yeah) we used to hang
we used to do we used to do some many things together (yeah)

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as a young man, and new to this, iono how to pick
out an engagement ring. i got bored and was lookin
at rings from Tiffany & Co. heard the ladies like stuff
from them, iono why but... here are some rings that
looked nice and was wonderin if they could be concidered
engagment rings or not... maybe as a gift to someone




then there are these...







how would girls feel with 3 thousand on their ears?!?! better be damn happy, shiet, hehe.

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A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been
drinking jack and coke all morning.
She can make u feel high, full a single greatest commodity known to man:
promise; promise of a better day, promise of a greater hope, promise of a new tomorrow.
This particular aura can be found in the gate of a beautiful girl:
in her smile, and in her soul, and the way she makes every
rotten little thing about life seem like it's gonna be ok.
-SomeMovie

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she
she's the one constantly on my mind
though she thinks differ, shes so damn fine
other then looks, shes loving, friendly, and kind
just like back then, back when she was mine
didnt last, held feelins back and it grew with time

just bottled it up
not givin a fuck
and livin it up
but aint givin up

so with these emotions
i put it in a potion
then threw it in the ocean
dont know where its goin
lost but only to be hopein
that her eyes open and start know
she's my heart's devotion

he
he's sits back and try's to relax
but he just cant help it, gonna regret it
if he loses this one, then there aint no one
nobody that comes close to who she is
its her he wants to be with

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