crying to: Ayumi Hamasaki


My cousin Patrick came over today and I believe he's staying for the night. It's good to see him again.

Today was interesting...
@ Matt kept on staring at me in Bio...which is kind of stupid since he sits right next to me.
@ I tried to run and hide from Alan (hahaha) but my attempts failed, and he saw me. dammit.
@ Dance is getting a little better day by day, which is good too.
@ DIE MANUEL! DIEEEEE!!!!!!!
@ I spiked my hair today (hahaha again...) it was pretty cool. a lot of people gave me good comments. (hallelujah)...
@ I dont think i really give a crap about other people's thoughts now. The less I care, the more people seem to like me. so...i guess sometimes i can dress like i just woke up and everone just goes "holy crap she looks great."
@ The garage door-like soda and chip machines are pretty cool...i dont know why, they just are...
@ I still have elizabeth's shoes (they're quite spiffy) yet she still has mine. so..poo. =6 oh well...
@ Jordan...why are you grounded again...? =( i bet you it's because of me...im sorry baby!!! well...at least i get to talk to you tomorrow. i dont know when tho!!! >_< ;;; oh well...i'll figure it out. haha..
@ Life is alright. Im still pissed about not being able to see my best friend. but you know...wtf can i do about it? *sighs...

Steph, I think we have issues...




....heck yes.

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bustin' my eardrums to: Gravity Kills


Thanks babe for apologizing! i forgive you 100% =)

God, last night was so depressing...=( my boyfriend got mad at my mom i think...well he cussed a lot. and he signed off of MSN so i got sad and cried in my room for like...an hour. when he didnt call, i gave up, put the phone away, and did 53 push ups and 70 sit ups. Now my ass, legs, abs, and arms hurt like crazy...@_o haha. oh well. he apologized today, so it's all good =)

School was helluh boring today.
>>1st period: we had to say DAMN!! over and over again for no reason whatsoever. Alahnna, youre so crazy. we still love you though =D
>>2nd period: Alan, Caesar, Tyler, Darryl, and Danny, leave me the hell alone!!!! jesussssss...first off, Alan, quit asking me to draw you werewolfs, k? you have taken like...8 werewolf sketches in the past 3 days. EIGHT!!!! damn dude. Okay, now Danny, quit jacking my box thing. i know youre curious, but stay away. it has some fragile crap in there, so stop it. Darryl, Caesar, and Tyler...i am NOT God. I dont know all the answers to your damn japanese questions, so quit asking me like i know. okay??? ok.
>>Lunch: Told Steph and Ela about my candyman dream. haha, it was funny. donuts are evil. um..I ran into Matt which scared me because i hate seeing him.
what else...oh, im officially anorexic of this moment on for like...a week. dont ask why. and um...oh. mr. guy person! i dont know your name, but stop staring at me please?
>>3rd period: Geometry is a class that i think Satan made. I hate it to pieces. haha...umm..we had a test today, and i wasnt so sure about the answers....sooo...i hope i get it right. its also very very very boring. yes. Jomel wasnt here today, so Raimel was talking to me and steph the whole time instead. Cuz Jomel's in Florida and you know how that goes. haha, Juwanna man (juvanna...? i dont know, but i hate her.) she said she had her own muslim holiday on monday and tuesday. REALITY CHECK: JUMANJI OR WHATEVER, NO ONE GIVES A SHIT. okay...

um..i walked home and i was really tired. school = evil.

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Listenin' to: Orgy


I like those pop tarts commercials....the one with the guy and like the kangaroo and he says "craAazy" or something...i dont know, dont ask me...

Gravity Kills and Adema are pretty cool. I've never heard of them before Jordan told me about their music. THANKS! you can call me a nerd or whatever, but yeah, i havent heard of them...EVER! well, until now anyway...

11307 is my new lucky number. yep.

Ahryte. school has been confusing...
>>1st period: nothing really happened...Alahnna went crazy and Fritz was laughing his ass off. i really think she went nuts...
>>2nd period: yes, mrs. oskay is quite a character...she was trying to explain why Alan was like a penny. umm...Tyler never knows when to shut up, so im forever tortured about his plotless stories and whatnot. Jonathan = you suck.
>>3rd period: Geometry...ugh. Raimel and Jomel need to get a hold of their minds because they're obsessed with being filipino. d00d, no one gives a crap. and Jomel, quit singing "wind beneath my wings"...its getting old. oh, the guy with the really ugly haircut, you need to apologize AGAIN. quit running into me.
>>4th period: what is my 4th...oh, dance. yeah. my group sucks. we have to make a dance by ourselves, and we barely even started because we're still trying to pick the fricken song...jesus. I've stopped trying.
>>5th period: um...english. yeah, that. i hate this class. except for the fact elizabeth, michael, ray, nathaniel, and michelle are in the class. TYLER (the kid in my japanese class...) is in my class too, but im glad he sits far, far, FAR away.
>>6th period: BIO!! i love this class. um..yeahhh...Matt's in my bio class and he's gotten tired of "waiting" for me, so he just went ahead and got himself a girlfriend. ohh well. Alahnna and about 5 other people (cherie, sarah, veronica, brian, and some chick whos name starts with an A) got in trouble for passing a note to ME. haha, im scared to know what it said. Mrs. Burks read it and said it was really interesting. I want to sneak in during the night and jack that damn thing from her desk...

yep...well okay.

Manuel = you're dead to me...
Matt = youre really screwed up.
Alan = youre..GAY??
Jordan = I love you too!! <3 youre the best...

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We were watching these two guys smoking pot on our announcements today. I knew who they were...Westcott and Javier. They really suck at acting though. My throat still pains and burns like a thousand fires. I've also learned how to "mellow out" w/eTF that means.

Oh, i screwed up on naming the file "smilingme2" in my gallery. It's supposed to me called "solarized russian" but i guess its the same thing.

I can't WAIT to go clubbin' with Lem...this would be quite interesting. I forgot if it was The Cathedral or Club Xanth...cuz they had the same website thing. oh well. Melinda, i bet you 5 dollars some guy is going to hit on you. heh.

Damn, we look so different now...no one can call us twins anymore...which reminds me, twin day on tuesday is BULLSHIT cuz its nuthin' without my real twin.

K, im going to go die now, ttyl! <--look! it's josh!

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I can still see you...
I can still feel you writhing within me.
I can see your..soul.
Drifting around and killing no one.
--what has he done?
He's just sad and alone...
--why pester no one!
I'm in a dark corner humming an odd drone...
~~~dada da DA da...dadada daada...~~~
Icons of greed and selfishness
Fill your filthy minds
As i watch and laugh at your indolence
Watching the days go by...
Every minute without you
Is like a stab in the deepest part of my mind
realizing that only...
you can never be mine.
--and OHH...! you stare at me to see if i will fall.
You shouldn't have screwed me at all
--so..now...
~~~lala la LA la...lalala laala...~~~
I can still see you...
I can still...breathe you.

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i went to the movies with brittney yesterday and we watched "the forgotten". it wasnt scary, but it WAS cool...but the funny thing is, when something interesting happened brittney freaked out and screamed, embarrassing me X_x. haha, it was even funnier when the guy she thought was cute stared at her like something was wrong or she was retarded. haha, so that was cool...

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