my boyfriend left me out to dry.

i asked him if he could to help me proof read my essay, and he said he would.

he even signed on to AIM cause i asked him to, that way i could send it to him.

we said about 4 sentences to each other in greeting, and i started sending out chunks of my essay for him to read.



...silence...



silence....




i thought maybe he was taking a while to read it all and to make corrections.





* 20minutes later *


...silence....

* ?????? has signed off *



ohhh kaaaayyy....


so i IM his brother.


"either he's dead, his friend is there, or he got a new game. which is it?"
"supreme commander isn't updating properly on his computer"



* ?????? signed on *



....silence....


silence.....


.....silence






i wouldn't be as annoyed if it was the first time.



last time, his friend came over with Guitar Hero, so he left to go play while i was still typing it out.



he never came back.




i even texted him telling him i finished the speech/essay, and had sent it to him for him to read.


he replied
"ok"



i thought he was going to be on the computer in 5minutes and start reading.


i knew it wouldn't take him very long to read it either, since he's a fast reader, and the speech/essay was only 1-2 minutes long.




* still in Away mode *


* ????? goes idle *



...silence...



* 40minutes pass *


...still idle....



...still silent....



i ended up sending it to a friend.


sad part is, that first time, he was the one that offered to read my speech/essay after i was done.



just peachy.

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my boyfriend is a gamer. i don't mind people that game, but my god...

it's gotten to the point where it's interfering with his school work.

talk to him about it, and he basically ignores me.

ugh.


how do you get through to a gamer?!

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i don't know why, but today was a great day :)
maybe cause i got to spend all day w/ Jas, or maybe cause Jas let me dye his hair brown. lol
it's not super obvious that we dyed it, but at certain lights and/or angles, you can definitely tell it's brown ^^ then i took the left over dye to touch up the bangs and some layers on my own hair. it was fun :3
we watched some Arrested Developement and laughed our asses off ^_^ Arested Developement is a wonderous show. we <3 it mucho :)

thisconcludes yet another blog brought to you by Anna's DS. thank you.

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i dropped my Business 1B class today.
I'd rather spend another semester trying to obtain a better grade in it
than have a C and have it drop my GPA.

i'm quite disappointed with myself.

i just hope mom understands that i did it for the sake of my GPA, and my transfer later.

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first reaction
This is called "FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ". You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 50 words. You can't think and go back and change your answers. Here we go:

1. BEER?
gross

2. Anorexic:
gross

3. RELATIONSHIPS?
heart

4. Weather:
clouds

5. Power Rangers:
YESSSS

6. Steroids:
pills

7. Cartoons:
bobby's world

8. The President:
monkey

9. Tupperware:
don't get mad, get glad!

10. Florida:
amusement parks and oranges

11. Santa Clause:
coca cola

12. Halloween:
pumpkin

13. Bon Jovi:
it's my life

14. Grammar:
abc

15. Myspace:
blue

16. Worst fear:
black, dark

17. Marriage:
white

18. Paris Hilton:
she doesn't deserve her fame

19. Brunettes:
red

20. Redheads:
red

21. Blonde:
uhm. girls?

22. Pastimes:
clock

23. bad question:
black quesiton mark

24. Donald Trump:
trump towers

25. Neverland:
island

26. Pixie Stix:
sugar

27. Vanilla Ice cream :
white

28. Port-a-Potties:
smelly

29. High school:
THS

30. Pajamas:
pjs

31. Woody:
the woodpecker

32. Wet Sock:
wet sock

33. Alcohol:
gross

34. Love:
jason

35. My best friend:
jason nat jon jordan elise

36. The Bible:
storytime

37. Heartache:
owie

39. Time:
clock

40. Whiskey:
whisker

41. Money:
yumm

42. Spanish:
hats

43. Summer:
hot.

44. Winter:
snow

45. Sports:

tennis

46. Vegetarians:
green

47. Wal-Mart:
blue green orange

48. Opposite sex:
the male sign

49. Iraq:
desert

50. Kids:
colors

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It has been a while since i have posted a blog... hmm... what to write about.

Well, as some people may know, I was working at Knott's this summer (2008), and I was pretty much always busy. As time went by at the amusement park, I began to realize that maybe my mom was right about having to find a better job. Not so much a "real" job as she puts it, but just something that's more fit to what i want to later be in life.

Don't get me wrong, working at Knott's was truly a great experience. I met some great people, and had a lot of fun times. But my point of working there (beside the money) was to gain a new experience... I am a fan of amusement parks, and now I know what it feels like to work at one. Stressing, but fun. I achieved what I wanted to achieve, which was for the experience. Unfortunately, I was half expecting myself to work through Haunt, but I don't think I will be able to.

Now that school is starting, I think I may need to get a more "serious" job. I took my job at Knott's seriously, but thinking back, there was one thing that always bothered me when I was working there: my age. I couldn't help but notice that I was one of the older ones in the area... then again where I worked, it was a fairly small group of people... but it still bugged me. I am about to turn 20, and I'm working on a roller coaster, getting absolutely no respect from idiot parents that can't even pull off a simple task of reading the height requirement sign? It's probably just me, but I find that a little demeaning.

I mean, no offense to those that ARE older than me (if not the same age), but I guess I'm looking for something more. But to be completely honest, if I were working at Disneyland instead of Knott's, I probably wouldn't be posting this entry. I've always had a thing since I started obsessing about going to Disneyland at least once a year, that I one day will work for Disney. Some find it a little creepy that pretty much everything I do, is related to getting myself a spot within the Disney Corp. I guess you can say that I am highly attracted to power. And what greater joy would it be for me than to work with one of the most powerful companies in the known universe? Can anyone honestly tell me what greater country would not recognize the three circles that make up Mickey's head?

To be specific, I am in no way interested in the retail of Disney merchandise. Where I am aiming would actually be in the travel/hospitality area. If I could, I would LOVE to work on a Disney cruise line (actually, I looked up a little more information on jobs aboard the cruise line, and you must be 21 and older). Either on a cruise ship, in the hotels, or even better, in the amusement parks.

Because I want to work with Disney so badly, that's actually why I started with Knott's in the first place. I wanted to use my experience with Knott's as a stepping stone towards working in Disneyland. I feel bad for using Knott's like that, but I'm pretty sure that I'm not the first. Also, now that I'm looking into a more �serious� job, I was thinking of going into travel agencies. Probably find a few in the area, and ask them what credentials I need to get a job at a travel agency, and work as a kind of ... �apprentice� travel agent. I'm not too sure of how it goes.

At first I wanted to become a wedding planner, but that goal was shot down when my aunt reminded me that there is a LOT more pressure in becoming a wedding planner over a travel agent, because weddings a (usually) a once-in-a-lifetime event, and it has to be perfect for the couple. I gave it some thought, and she's right... if something goes wrong in a wedding, it's going to be on me, and I don't think I'd be able to handle that kind of guilt, knowing that I ruined a couple's first moments together as a married couple.

Going back to the travel agency thing, if anyone has any information what-so-ever about credentials to be hired into a travel agency, please let me know. Anything would be great. Oh, and anyone with connections with anyone else working within the Disney Corp, hook me up <3.
In roughly one month, I'm going to be turning 20. This upcoming moment is beginning to scare the crap out of me. I'm not going to be a �teen� anymore. Technically I'll be in the �tween� category, but who the hell are we kidding? There is no �tween� category... it's just a kind-of excuse for people to still act younger than they are. Relive their high school/college years, etc etc.

I guess the fact that I'm turning 20 in a month is upsetting because since I was about 7 years old, I always had a plan for myself... do great in school and get into a 4-year college right out of high school (which I blew already), and by age 20 I'd be on my way to moving out of the house, and going out on my own. Love life wise, I predicted that by 20 I was suppose to have found the love of my life, the one that I'd spend the rest of my life with. But of course, all those predictions were made before I realized just how much crap life really throws at you. Thinking back on my predictions and expectations I had for myself, I know now that it was silly of me to have expected so much, and it makes me feel a little better... just a little.

I should feel a lot better, but I don't. I mean, I kept thinking myself to be steady and on my way to moving out by the age of 20 ever since I was little. Having such an expectation for so much of my life would tend to weigh down fairly hard when I don't achieve that expectation. I went all my life going, �Out by 20!� and now that I'm a month away from being 20, I'm saying to myself, �Oh crap I'm behind... where did all the time I thought I still had left go?� Then there's the fear that maybe I'm going to be left behind by the world I grew up with.

I know that I can actually move out if I took a break from school and worked full-time... too bad that means I'd have to extend the time it takes to get my BA degree. Though to be honest, I wouldn't mind. If working full-time and studying part-time would allow me to move out and get me out there on my own, I'd go for it. But unfortunately in the world of today, without a BA you'd be lucky to find a decent job at all. The whole taxes, home-owning, retirement thing... requires a salary, which I [believe] is hard to get without that piece of paper telling your employer that you're not some uneducated person. Any suggestions?

Plus my family would probably disown me if I didn't get my BA >_>

Like any other person out there, I want the ends of my life to be simple, easy, well off. I want to have a nice life, with nice things. But ... the road there is rough, and counting school into the equation... it makes me want to cry :(



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^ Just something I wanted to write down, but it is just for me to know. When I reread this tomorrow I'm not going to remember what it says, I can see it already.


Thanks to those that took the time to read it, and for anyone that may have any information on travel agents and their credentials, feel free to fill me in. And just as important, any hook ups with the Disney Corp would be greatly appreciated. :)

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