i'm in class, and bored out of my mind.

this is what i have of my essay so far *opinions/corrections welcome!* :


Anna Shum
Ms. Jennifer Annick
English A: 6237
March 7, 2007
Put Your Title Here
When asked whether or not you would change your past if you could, what do you say? My answer has always been, “No.” I’ve never felt a want to change anything in my life, because everything that has happened shaped me into who I am today. Through out my years, many of those around me know me as a strong person, but have no idea where I got my strength from. Whenever they say that, I think of a triangle, the strongest geometric shape formed by 3 congruent sides and corners. I think of myself as a triangle, made up of 3 influences: my family, my academics and my hobbies. Because like a triangle, I did not appear out of thin air; I had to be built.
Like many others, family is my heaviest influence; everything I do always seems to be the result of what my family has shaped me into. I was born outside the US, and was raised by my mom, dad and nanny. When I neared 5 years old, they shipped me to America to live with my mom’s parents, my grandparents, to start my formal education. From first through 4th grade, I was taken care of and taught by my grandparents and my mom’s brother, Uncle Chris. They were very polite and moral, and always used reason to discipline me. When I was 7 years old, my dad left my mom. Two years later, my mom joined me in the US. This proved to be a happy, yet horrifying time for me. I was ecstatic that I could finally be with my mom again, but really happened compared to what I imagined, were polar opposites. I’ve never blamed myself for the divorce of my parents, and I still don’t, but I do blame the divorce of my parents for the anger that spilled from my mom. Having gotten used to being inured through logic and reasoning from my grandparents and uncle, my mom introduced to me a new disciplining technique: corporal punishment. It was a drastic change for me. I had to quickly adapt from one environment to another, and basically be taught again what I already knew, but in a different way. Although the ways of teaching between my grandparents and my mom were drastically different, they’ve always emphasized several points: that family and school will always be my top priorities until I start my career. Then it’s family and my career, which will be my top priorities. All of them always pointed out that our family will never turn its back on its own, no matter how grave a mistake one makes. Unfortunately for me, my mom always seemed to contradict herself, thus confusing my mind by saying that family will always be there for me for better or for worse, but if I get bad grades, she’ll kick me out.

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my boyfriend left me out to dry.

i asked him if he could to help me proof read my essay, and he said he would.

he even signed on to AIM cause i asked him to, that way i could send it to him.

we said about 4 sentences to each other in greeting, and i started sending out chunks of my essay for him to read.



...silence...



silence....




i thought maybe he was taking a while to read it all and to make corrections.





* 20minutes later *


...silence....

* ?????? has signed off *



ohhh kaaaayyy....


so i IM his brother.


"either he's dead, his friend is there, or he got a new game. which is it?"
"supreme commander isn't updating properly on his computer"



* ?????? signed on *



....silence....


silence.....


.....silence






i wouldn't be as annoyed if it was the first time.



last time, his friend came over with Guitar Hero, so he left to go play while i was still typing it out.



he never came back.




i even texted him telling him i finished the speech/essay, and had sent it to him for him to read.


he replied
"ok"



i thought he was going to be on the computer in 5minutes and start reading.


i knew it wouldn't take him very long to read it either, since he's a fast reader, and the speech/essay was only 1-2 minutes long.




* still in Away mode *


* ????? goes idle *



...silence...



* 40minutes pass *


...still idle....



...still silent....



i ended up sending it to a friend.


sad part is, that first time, he was the one that offered to read my speech/essay after i was done.



just peachy.

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currently i am at school.

in english.

waiting for my turn.

yup.

she's at the guy right next to me so i'm next.


yup.


i'm BORED.

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i dropped my Business 1B class today.
I'd rather spend another semester trying to obtain a better grade in it
than have a C and have it drop my GPA.

i'm quite disappointed with myself.

i just hope mom understands that i did it for the sake of my GPA, and my transfer later.

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