Love has the power to make you, sometimes simultaneously, the happiest and most miserable you've ever been.

Edit: I have expanded it to read:

Love has the power to make you, sometimes simultaneously, the happiest and most miserable you've ever been. Anyone who doubts this indisputable fact of life has obviously never been in love. Or, at least, has never had her heart broken.
Pining for lost love, or love not yet gained; wishing for someone, and not just anyone, to come and save you; loving and hating every moment of your existence; feeling your heart's attempts to escape its cage; and never knowing when you will shatter - this is the nature of love.
You cannot control love. Like a spoilt child, love will do as it wishes, and woe to anyone who gets in its way. Love will fight you, clawing and hacking its way to the surface, leaving you a bruised and bloodied, useless hunk of flesh, should you try to suppress it. This is the nature of love.
Laughing for no good reason; feeling whole and pure and safe; knowing you could survive anything; being perfectly understood; and perfectly understanding another - this is also the nature of love.
You cannot help but embrace love. Like a soft, cool breeze on a hot, summer's day, love moves through you, refreshing and revitalizing you. Love will fill you, nourishing and building upon your very best traits, if you let it. This is also the nature of love.
And, sometimes, you will feel both pleasure and pain, both joy and sorrow, both life and death, and you will be grateful for it. Indeed, you will long for it, yearning with your very soul for the misery it brings you. Love can make you despise and cherish everything around you. Of all the gifts and plagues bestowed upon man, love is both best and worse. And that is the true nature of love.

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So, I got Mumford and Sons' CD, Sigh No More, for my birthday, and it is, in my opinion, one of the best CDs ever. I never expected to like music in the folk genre, but they're really good. Their lyrics are possibly my favorite ever. I particularly love the first verse of "White Blank Page:"

"Can you lie next to her and give her your heart?
Your heart, as well as your body?
And can you lie next to her and confess your love?
Your love, as well as your folly?
And can you kneel before the king and say I'm clean?
I'm clean.

Tell me now where was my fault
in loving you with my whole heart."

Plus, their beats are really catchy, and Little Lion Man is potentially one of the best songs ever.

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The weather report says it's supposed to be partly sunny today. It's been raining since 8 last night, and the water on the roads is above my ankles. Exactly what part of that is sunny?

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Oh my god. I think I might cry.

I filled out all my Fafsa forms, and found out that I was eligible for a $4600 Pell Grant, 2/3 of which would cover all of my expenses for the entire year at Edison College. After submitting it to the school, there was a mistake filling out a worksheet that went with my fafsa. That one mistake took my Pell Grant COMPLETELY away, and now the school won't give it back to me. What the hell am I supposed to do? Seriously, I would love some advice.

I'm so freakin' stressed right now.

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My mother bought a new house, and I've spent the last couple of weeks painting and cleaning it, and basically getting it ready for the move, which is scheduled for Saturday.

My room is cream with a red accent wall. I love it. I love all the colours, in fact. Mostly because the only white room is the laundry room. I've never had a bedroom that wasn't white, apart from the year I spent living with Abbey. I'm so tired of white.

Christmas was fantastic. I got over $300 worth of clothes from my favourite store, Old Navy (well, technically, Pyramid Collection is my favourite, but Old Navy is the best I can actually afford), a new bike, a real freshwater pearl necklace and earrings, a new clock, the three-disc edition of Twilight, a digital photo album, and many other, super cool things.

Quick poll: Everyone who reads this must comment with their favourite Christmas gift this year.

I've been kind of sad lately. I think it's because I've been unable to talk to Will for more than about five minutes over the past couple of weeks. On the other hand, I've been happy because my mother and I have gotten a lot closer. Whitney's been down from Tally for a week, and it's been tons of fun. I missed her a lot.

School starts on the seventh, which is a bit stressful, because I haven't got my finaid squared away yet, so I don't have my books or anything. Plus, I'll be taking four online classes. Online classes are easier because you can do them whenever you want, but there's a lot more homework. Again, stressful. Also, I absolutely must find a job to help Mama with her mortgage. I mean, she'd be able to do it on her own, but she'd have absolutely no spending money or money to save in case of emergency, so that's also an issue.

However, because I'll be in school, I'll be able to get on health insurance, which is great, because I need my levothyroxine, and I think I need a wisdom tooth taken out. My bottom teeth are going a bit crooked, which really sucks because I always had perfectly straight teeth. :(
/vanity phase

I'm also considering a breast reduction. I probably won't do it, but I might. I mean... I got a new bra. Best fitting bra I've ever had. It's a DDD in US sizes, which is an F in UK sizes. I did not realise my boobs were *that* big, though it explains the back pain. Or maybe lap band surgery. I'd have to see if I qualify for it, medically. Anyone know the requirements? Like...how overweight you have to be? Meh, I'll research.

I'm done rambling.

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I won nano, doing a total of 50,019 words during the month of November, but my book isn't quite done. Still, pretty damned exciting.

Also, I'm officially a student, and my Pell Grant will cover my student expenses for the whole year. All good news.

Will's thinking of buying me a ticket to London for Easter, so I can go visit with him. That will be pretty exciting. (I'm seriously downplaying the excitement level)

That is all.

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