i just wanted everybody to know that im back on this,
and ill be writing again.

i work @ tops in the deli
i'm 18 years old & love it
i live in elmira, wantin out
my dads doin good with his cancer..
my aunt on the other hand..complete opposite
even though she dont have cancer, she is doin really bad..
i had to drop out of school, but im goin back next year.

theres alot more,
but ima have to cut this off
cause im tryna take a nap b4 work.
ill be back to write tomorow.

byee

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Even though the time has come to an end,
the memories will remain forever.


Wednesday-i went out for the night.

Thursday-I hung out with Ash i think.

Friday-I found out my dad had Emphysema. Jen came over for the night, we went out @ like midnight with this boy.

Saturday-Jen went home, and i went out.

Sunday-easter so i spent the day with the fam, and then went to megans for the night

Monday-i was @ megans till 6ish, then jus bummed.

Tuesday-ME & jen went to the movies. We missed the last bus run to elmira. So we went to wal-mart, spent our las 2 dollars on a flashlight, n trooped home. 13 fuckin miles, 5 hrs, every hr after curfew. We got home @ 3am. Our legs were pretty sore. I snuck her in, cause she couldent go home. n she left round 10:30 when i snuck her out. haaahhhaaa

Wednesday-I took a nap, then went n hung out with Ash & KK and went job huntin. 5 min after i was with them, KK found out her aunt died. I jus wanted to cry, but i stayed strong for her.

Thursday-I spent the day with Kym. We went to vestal & shopped, then we rode bikes from 6-9. It was nice to hang out with her. The bike gave me 2 bruised butt bones and a bruised tail bone, but it was worth it. haha & i got a lil sunburn. Then i came home n celebrated 4/20 the way it should be celebrated.

Friday-I got woken up @ 9am from a phone call. So i was tired all day. But i hung out with Melissa n got applications from 2-3, then I cleaned some of my room n bummed around till 7ish. Then Melissa & Jess came & got me. We went to friendlys to eat, and just talked. I missed them soo much. Then i came home & bummed around.

Saturday-I fianlly slept in! i splept in till 1:00pm. I was soo excited! But then i got up, n jus relaxed. Then i switched my room around, it looks nice. Then @ 9:00 KK calls me n tells me im goin to Rock & bowl regardless. So i hurried n got ready & went. Then i came home, did dishes, and talked on here. Then I called Erica @ 12:30 n talked till 2:00. Then i went to bed.

Sunday-i woke up @ 9:30ish, like every other day of spring break. Got in the comp, talked to this boy. We made plans to go to the movies today, so i took a shower. I'm excited, hes a really nice boy. But yeah now im gon go work on my thesis thats due tomorrow.

Then back to school tomorrow.

this isent everything i did durin the 12 days, but i cant remember EVERYTHING

But i'm glad i didnt go to skaneateles for spring break. Cause i had a wicked fun time with my favorites, and i hung out with people i thought i would never hang out with again. So yeah, therefore, im very happy with my choice.

& another thing...

My dad has been really sick this week,
i think its his time to go soon,
and im not prepared for it.
It's all i can think about.
I'm gon be soo lost without him,
he's the only parent i have,
and the only fam member left,
that doesent hate me.

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welll...
its been okay i guess?

christmas was good,
minus the drama.
kinda depressing but ehh
whats new?

my christmas break?
boring kinda.
i talked on the phone the WHOLE break.
& hung out with megan,jen,dusty, & other kids.

Bowlin is almost done,
we have one more match, which is feb 7th
against horseheads. I'll be bowlin against the one person thats there for me no matter what. Allison Kendra Cole. woot woot.
Kinda bummed that its ending, now im gon be doin nothin everyday.
& it was fun, even with a shitty coach, ehhh.
AllyG,AmbirC,EspeR,& lindsayM--thanks for makin it all exciting, and worth it.
since we sucked horribly.
although, we beat southside las week.
it was the biggest match of the season,
yeah yeah. Throw it up ladies! haha
we were all excited, the coach was almost cryin.
because southside killleedd us when we played them earlier this season.

Gettin my permit soon i hope
if my grandma stops bein a bitch n takes me.
haha that will be never.

my 17th birthday is in 11 days! :D

my friend told me she had lung cancer las week,
im soo bummed. :/



Lets talk bout last night/today

Jen& i when to rock n bowl last night.
with a bunch of awesome people.
it was great. haha. u had to be there.

Then she stayed at my house,
cause my brother decided to get drunk.
so my friends bro jus took us back here.

then me&jen talked,
about ALOT of stuff.
we wont say what,
but we talked about alot.
haha. we were up till 7:30ish
then woke up at 8:30
cause my lovely cousin called.
we were on the phone with her from midnight-6:30am
my grandma bitches at us, fuck that bitch, we didnt keep her up,
cause my brother didnt even wake up, and we were in his room.
on this thing. ahhhhh. haha

today...
woke up, bummed till 10am,
got around.
got on here & chatted & checked myspace.
then me n my bro took her home @ 1:00
n me n him decided to go to mcdonalds.
see all of our people, and get some grub.
Then i came home n watched television.
& did some homework. haha

Then i went to go talk to one of my best friends,
like one that i could talk to bout anything,
& said that shed be there for me whenever i needed her,
she decided that she would rather not talk to me,
sooo, yeah. im sittin here needed her the most,
and she doesent even wanna talk.
nice best friend huh? ya i thought so too.
i think i wanna end out friendship, but then again i dont.
maybe me thinkin that is jus the hurt i have inside.
I tried to hint it to her in away messages, that i need her
& she didnt even care obviously. But what can yah do.
what comes around goes around.
im sick of doin everything, and gettin nothin but shit.

but anyways....

mcdonalds?
yeah, that place can burn in hell.
im deff lookin for a new job this week.
when i have break from testing.
this week is mid-terms. blah.
i dont even care. i jus wanna dieee.
I cant even concentrate in school.

But im gon go, shower
then go to bed.
since i have school tomorrow.
boooo.

ill try to keep updating,
doubt it though.

rip -- may angels lead you in.
BOB BROWN.
88-06

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Happy thanksgiving everybody!!
everybodys thankful for something.
& im thankful for 2...
1) my dad was around to spend the day with us
2) my friends who i love oh soo much

My day was okaayyy i guess.
I didnt eat alot.
Im kinda...dietting?
ive lost 26 lbs the past month & 1/2
& no im not goin anorexic.

-My dad almost had 2 go to the hospital,
but he didnt have to goo.

-My friends grandmother passed away today.

-Me & misty talked, and it felt good i guess.
we are gettin back to what we used to be,
yeah..trust levels may not be as high,
but hey wut can yah do?

-Me & stacey talked for a bit today,
i kinda miss that girl, alot.

-I'm thinkin bout puttin my 2 weeks in @ mcdonalds?
not sure yet. im dislikin that job, & i need a job closer.

-tomorrows black friday..my holiday, cause im black:)

-My aunt is out of the hospital. yaya

-Ashley is finally home, & we are hangin out tomorrow.

-Dusty is madd @ me. ahh well i guess. im done stressin over friends.

-I talked to my mother today. yaa shes a bitch. She made me cry.
All i wanted was 2 be close, and she avoids the whole convo.
& says she has to go hang out with her boyfriend.
whatever.

-Terrance called today, and i missed his call :(
& it was too late to call back. oh well. ill call him tomorrow

& i think thats about it.
haha

ill prolly update tomorrow er whatev.
Byee

you<3

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jus a quick update...

*Nov 30th..find out how long my dad has
*My grades in school are pretty shitty.
*Work is goin okay i guess?
*i made the bowling team..Varsity baby..
*My friends g-pa died, he was madd cool.
*My aunt is really sick in the hospital..in ICU
*My other aunt has a brain tumor
*My cousin jus had a baby
*Me & my grandma arent fightin alot
*i still have a dent from where Amanda threw a screw @ me.
*i'm not single..11.12 :)
*i have the bestest friends.
*Tomorrows thanksgivin, & im not lookin forward to it.
*i hung out with kym, for the 1st time in a while.
*Erie bell was great. yaya

& thats all i can think of.
sorry kidds.
ill try to keep an update.
byyee

you<3

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