Boys are soo confusing.
Chris got out of jail today.
the boy ive liked ALOT since march 1st.
he loves me, but he loves 3 other girls too.
He said i have a good chance to be with him though.
i dont know, hes confusin.
I'm tryin my best though.
we are goin to the erie bell dance together.
I'm goin with Melissa[my cousin] to get my dress saturday.
Ruth in a dress, heels, make-up,hair done & nails done.
OMFG..its a once in a life time thing. haha
im gon look hott for that boy.

Anything else?
my day was okay.
Woke up late, Purposely.
Got out of school early. round 1
School was okay, went by fast.
School pictures came in today.
All of mine were gone within 5 minutes.
Im ordering more cause i have like 5742 other people that want one.
They'll be waitin like 2 months. haha
but hey, its better than nothin right?

I hung out with melissa tonight.
We went to barnes & nobles to get her college books.
Then we went to rue 21//fashion bug to look @ dresses.
nothin good really. Well there was this cute dress,
but wrong colors. It was 2 dollars. haha
Then we went to mcdonalds n seen everybody n got some ice cream,
Shes awesome. My grandma was a bitch to her. I coulda smacked the hoe.


Tomorrow?
School then hanging out with a friend.
schould be fun!
haha

well thats all for now!!

Cant wait till friday ladies!!

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

okay heres a few majot points of my month of september.

*State fair//hilary duff concert with michelle grover. yess it was great. ill never forget itt!
*school atarted, its goin good. Made ALOT of new friends.
*work has been okay. Some immature people.
*Find out melissa N. from mcdonalds was my cousin..BY BLOOD..shes awesome.
*find out my dad has cancer. yaa & nobody seems to cause more stress, now that im weak.
*Ive been keepin minutes on my cell. 607-331-6921 hollaaa
*My good friend melissa started workin @ mcdonalds this week. woot.
*I met three of the best girls -- Dusty,Megan& Jen. yea they pretty much invite me to almost everything, and enjoy my company. Nomore boredom. wooo
*I babysat Mariah with kym. Yes, thats important to me.
*Erie bell date..possibly.
*My gramma=the biggest bitch ever.
*im halfway done with my junior thesis. mmmhmmm
*friends brother died. RIP Joe Brewer. Always in our hearts <3

thats all i know for now.

Now for my feelings:
*i jus wanna quit mcdonalds, but cant.
*im so stressed.
*i really feelin this boy.
*i pretty much lost a friend, over somethin stupid. we talk but its not like friend talk like before. kinda weird. but oh well, what can ya do.
*i cant wait to go to skaneateles.
*Next saturday shall be fun. haha right melissa!?

And thats all of that.

im gon go, im talkin to this hott boooyyy ;)

ill be back in a few days/weeks/months

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

i jus wrote a long ass fuckin entry n it someone gets erased.
jus my luck. oh well, i wont be writin in this fuckin thing for the next month.
sorry!

Comment! (2) | Recommend!

Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

soo idk what to do right now.

I have to make a descision in like the next week and i jus dont know.
im not registered for any other school, besides J-E & i deff cant go there now.

Yes, i have to chose SHS er EFA. im thinkin EFA, jus cause my friends there are the best and thats my school yano. I could use the 4 mile walk everyday[2 there, 2 back]
& also, my dad wants to move out, & we'll prolly go back over the bridge,if we move. I wanna move back in hoffman plaza, but then ill be like a logn ways walkin distance from kym. it took me half hr to walk to her old house. haha..it'll take like an hr 1/2 to walk to her new one. haha

but anways
enough bout that.

Las night i decided to go to melissa's & i jus stayed the night. i had to be home by 8 to babysit, but i was up by 6:30. i had 2 of her kittens on me, haha. it was cute. i played with her kittens most the night. I really want one, but we got this lazy dog. Melissa has me CRACKIN up all night. woo man she is soo funny. i love that girl. i hope me & her hang out alot more.

But today i came home round 7:00, & i go right up & fall right to sleep. I got woken up by poundin on the roof. Yes, the retarded land lord is here fixin the roof b4 the weather gets bad. argh. i was mad. im deff gettin a nap today when he leaves, if he ever does :x

but ya i guess im gon go.

if anyone wants to hang out...
heres my already made plans:
Today: plans with J[maybe]
Fri: nuthin, work[4-8] dads b-day party after :)
^haha those parties are always great. member the las one guys!:-P
Sat: work 3-9 then sleep.
Sun: work 8-4, nuthin [unless this boy wants to chill] :)

Comment! (4) | Recommend!

..i've been thinkin alot lately bout my life.
& ive noticed im slowly becomin a failure.

I failed 10 grade, cause i didnt try for shit.
i became a heavy smoker.
ive became an alcoholic.
ive pushed ppl away.
ive been bein lazy.
ive become a level away from bein a slut.
ive let myself go.
im jus careles..
i dont wanna name everything im doin wrong,
cause the list goes on forever.

So Schools almost starting and i've decided to change.
here are some changes/goals:
-I'm gon dress more girlish.
-get in shape/lose weight.
-try my hardest in school.
-be the friend everybody wants.
-stop smokin.
-stop drinkin
-go out more, have fun.
-wait for a good guy to come around, and be with him
-be loyal
-save money up for a car & my permit.
-save money so my fam & i, and a friend er 2 can go out of state, perhaps florida next summer.
-work for my money.
-spend more time with my friends.
-& jus start caring.

thats all i can think of for right now.
i know its alot but i can do it if i motivate myself.
Also, if people dont put me down as much.

As a result to my failure, i have became very ashamed oif myself & upset.
Therefore, i jus need to suceed in a few things & make myself proud & happy.

Well, im gon get goin.
ill update later.

Byyeee!!

Comment! (5) | Recommend!