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I want to scream. I'm having major cramps, I miss my fiance terribly, and I'm having the most difficult time getting my assignments done for class. I just don't want to do them. (It's really only one half-finished assignment and discussion postings...and the postings are what I'm really trying to avoid for as long as possible.) The time monitor/plan? Forget the plan--I was too inconsistent with whatever I was doing once Ed left. Though I would like to see if I could actually follow a schedule, even for a day. I don't know if I should turn the assignment in for partial credit or try and email my professor and explain the situation or what. Aye. At least I have a little over twelve hours to decide still. Though she'll probably mention it in the mandatory chat tonight..

Jay wanted to see my left hand at church yesterday..to find out if I was lying about being engaged? I dunno, but my ring is not actually an engagement ring...even though I AM engaged. The ring I'm wearing right now is a promise ring Ed gave me when he first left for bootcamp. I'm not sure how badly I really want or need an engagement ring. Doesn't a wedding band mean something more? I'd rather a wedding band than an engagement ring to only be worn for a few months..

During service, Pastor Karl mention the Army and the war in Iraq. Nothing specifically about it, but about the training the Army provides you before sending you off to war. I just got a day off from my incessant worrying, and he brought it back. Thanx, Karl. Anyway, something he said got me to thinking. About a really big decision I've been struggling with for years..I want to talk to Ed about it when he comes back though before I say what it is. I've been able to push the issue under the surface for quite awhile, but Karl said something (don't remember exactly what) that brought it right back to surface. I was so happy just avoiding it! Wow. Karl brought up two issues for me. Thanx again, Karl..grr.

Emily has decided to have me come over to her house every Thursday. (I agreed, so I can't really complain, but she's not my favorite person in the world.) I'm hoping it gets us a better relationship before I marry Ed. (For those that don't know, Emily is Ed's mom. I'm not comfortable calling her my mom though. Even if she is going to be my mother in law..) I love his sister's though; Elisa is soo cute! And Erica's cool. I dunno about Elexis though, she's kinda quiet really. At least, it seems that way around me. I don't really know Eric and Xiomara though, and they don't live here (at least, I don't think they do) so I can't say anything about them. I met them only twice before...

Everyone, please keep praying for Ed and everyone else in his unit that's over in Kuwait right now. Please. I need him to come home; I don't know if I could handle him not coming home and I really don't want to find out for sure. Just pray for him, ok? That's all I want from you guys right now. Just to pray for him and all of the soldiers fighting for our freedom overseas.

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