This is a service announcement, I repeat this is a service announcement...

Great job fuckers, because of you Earth is fucking dieing.
I'm far from innocent, but the earth is now breaking down because of us.

As you read this we are millimeterly inching our way to death. You're using electricity, which is made by the burning of coal. As you burn coal that burning process creates "greenhouse emissions" of several gases that eat away at the live giving ozone layers, and trap heat so we bake. Keep on reading for a even well done human species. Yeah the earth is dieing. The beautiful crystal clear ocean shores of the Caribbean, and Australia and as you stare off into the sea as far as the eye can see isn't gonna be there to look as and able to think "How magnificently beautiful, and breathless this view is." Hurry go look cuz it aint gonna last. The rising ocean because of melting glaciers because of increased heat because your burning of coal for you're need of energy. See how this comes back to you. Well when these sites was submerged fly over them in a plane look down at the lighter waters of past islands and pure coral reefs you'll be thinking a far different eerie thought. "We've done this...were too late."

Go green.

Global warming is fucking real, it's no theory, deny the fact of it deny your own fate. It'll come bite you in the ass later. Well Bush shoulda signed that treaty think so?

I'm seemingly becoming less and less materialistic, hmm, money is losing its value as it becomes more scarce to my mother. Him, this thinking is making me think I don't need food. But I do. I don't know what's up anymore in my head.

Lies. I do.

Her. She is. I find myself writing but thinking of her. I'm writing little poems I refuse to share. I've ruined us and taking it hard.

I've been crying a lot in these past nights. I know what I've done is a horrible act. But then for some unknown reason reading someone saying, and confirming something I already know can cripple a man. Odd. Scary. Bizarre.

Emotionally unstable I've been told. I can't argue. Tis true. I've thought of killing myself last night. Just a brief coming and going thought, but I felt oh so serious about it. The thought passed. I was terrified. I dont mean to upset or hurt anyone about saying this, nor for attention. It's in my head. I'm opening my head and flipping out over the table.

Showers piss me of because there's no computer in there, to record my thoughts as I think of everything I can. The drops pelt the body, yet I feel nothing. Is he dead? Or just numb? The power of the mind has taking over temporarily . Reciting miscellaneous lyrics of bands.

Most people have no important role in life. The optimists tell the pessimists that they're wrong. Maybe the optimist are wrong. the chance of you becoming a politician and having suck a role. And making a drastic difference, shocking but no one thinks at 11 I want to be a Democrat and fix America. (If I'm wrong with that last statement, I wouldn't know. And now I don't care to much. Bite me or sue me. Choose one.)

You wanted to be a rockstar, or a fire fighter. Or a armymen.

As the years pass you loss those interests. And as "fate" would have it you're a nothing, drugfucked, another mold made person, or a standing above the rest leader.

We all want to be that last one. So I want to be a someone, who can hopefully safe the earth. Superman? No. A priss thinking I can save everyone from there own doing. No. At most a visionary. At the very least, thinking out side the box trying to safe my little patch of existence to pass on through the generations.

I just want there to be a steady future, not to be an old great grand-father living at the outskirts of Siberia tanning because of global warming making that the new south beach. If fate be it. I'll be dead.

Thinking of her making me more and more deeply sadden. I love her. I honestly do, I hope she knows this. When deep down stuck in the pit of gloom. Those few words from her mouth, I love you, can pick me up so fast it gives my emotions whiplash. I love you Jes.

Watching Planet Earth right now. Seeing baby ducks dive out of the nest into a pile of cushioning leaves is oh so beautiful.

Any other thoughts have fled in my desperate attempts to catch and write them all down. Good night.

It's just the god of my mind.
Never gonna die.
Happy Earth Day Earth, sorry about the whole global warming thing.

Jes if you read all this. Once again...I love you. <333

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Long time no update.
Me and Jes broke up, I cheated on her.
Drama at school, no surprise.
Me and Jes made up. I asked her back out. She said yes. <333

Today school was nice.
Science I had a sub.
Lunch was lunch.
Math I slept.

Got home and I slept.
Nothing big.

But my sister laid on my house key asked her to move so I can get it. I moved her, gently. She's on her period, and starts slamming doors. Which gets to my mom, which comes to me. I take the garbage out and forget to lock the door. There's some more yelling. I usually would lash out at Jes but I've stopped doing that. I close the closet too hard I'm "slamming doors" more yelling. I also found out that my mom almost lost her job, she decided to rub that in my face, and threaten to make me move back with my dad. As if that wasn't bad enough at that. I started thinking how badly I have hurt Jes, and who I bad I've felt. I started hyperventilating.

I was really scared.
I'm better now I guess.

Life can really suck at times.

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