Disorder | Rating
Paranoid : Moderate
Schizoid : Moderate
Schizotypal : High
Antisocial : Low
Borderline : Very High
Histrionic : Low
Narcissistic : Low
Avoidant : Very High
Dependent : High
Obsessive-Compulsive : High

Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.

Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

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Have You Ever:

1. Kissed Your Cousin: No Fucking Way.

2. Ran Away: Yes.

3. Pictured Your Crush Naked: A Few Times.

4. Broken Someone's Heart: Doubt It.

5. Been In Love: Nope.

6. Cried When Someone Died: Yes.

7. Wanted Someone: Yep.

8. Broken A Bone: Never Have.

9. Lied: I Wonder…

10. Cried In School: Yeah.

Which Is Better:

11. Coke Or Pepsi: Coke I Guess.

12. Sprite Or 7UP: I Don’t Drink Either Of Them.

13. Girls Or Guys: Girls All The Way.

14. Flowers Or Candy: Candy Flowers, HA!

15. Tall Or Short: Medium.

16. Pants Or Shorts: Pants.

With The Opposite Sex:

17: What Do You Notice First: Smile.

18. Last Person You Slow Danced With: Kelly, & Only Time I Ever Have.

19. Best Question To Ask: What’s You’re Name?

The Last Time:

20. Showered: Sunday.

21. Taken A Bath: Forever Ago.

What Is (Your Favorite):

22. Your Good Luck Charm: Don’t Have One.

23. Person You Hate Most: Not Sure.

24. Best Thing That Has Happened To You This Year: Friends.

25. Color: Blue.

26. Movie: Vanilla Sky.

27. Juice: Orange (With Lots Of Pulp).

28. Finger: Thumb.

29. Ice Cream: Vanilla.

30. Season: Spring.

31. Breakfast Food: Don’t Eat Breakfast.

Who:

32. Makes You Laugh The Most: Not Sure, A Few People.

34. Makes You Smile: Friends.

35. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: Friends.

36. Has A Crush On You: That Person Over There.

37. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Negative.

38. Has It Easier: Hamsters.

Best:

39. Cologne: None.

40. Perfume: Stuff That Smells Pretty.

41. Kiss: The Time I Kissed Tara In Kindergarten.

42. Romantic Memory: A Dream That I Had One Time.

Do You Ever:

43. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: Sure Do, I’m Stupid.

44. Save AOL Conversations: My Computer Does It For Me.

45. Save E-mails: Not Usually.

46. Wish You Were Someone Else: All The Time.

47. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: Nope.

Have You:

48. Fallen For Your Best Friend? Not Until I’m 40.

49. Made Out With JUST A friend? Not To My Recollection.

50. Been Rejected? Quite A Few Times.

51. Been In Lust? Sure.

52. Used Someone? Not Unless They Fucked Me Over First.

53. Cheated On Someone? Never.

54. Tried To Kill Yourself? A Few Times.

55. Been cheated On? Not To My Knowledge.

56. Been Kissed? Yes.

57. Done Something You Regret? Almost Everything.

Who Was The Last Person...

58. You Touched? Melanie.

59. You Talked To? My Dad.

60. You Hugged? Brittany.

61. You Instant Messaged? Jess.

62. You Kissed? A Girl.

63. You Had Sex With? My Right Hand.

64. You Yelled At? I Don’t Know, I Yell A Lot.

65. Who Broke Your Heart? Someone That Is Alive.

66. Who Told You They Loved You? Melanie.

Do You...

67. Color Your Hair? Never Have.

68. Have Tattoos? Not Yet.

69. Have Piercings Below The Waist? Oh God No!

70. Have A Boyfriend/Girlfriend? A BIG Negative.

71. Own Any Thongs? Perv.

72. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer? Not Really, I Don’t Have Much Of A Life At All.

73. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? Go Around.

74. Habla Espanol? Si, But That’s About It.

75. Quack? Boobs.

Have You/Do You/Are You...

76. Stolen Anything Over $50? Lots Of Things.

77. Got In A Fight? Yes.

78. Smoke? Yep.

79. Schizophrenic? Apparently So.

80. Obsessive? Very.

81. Compulsive? Very.

82. Panic? All The Time.

83. Anxiety? A Lot.

84. Depressed? Quite Often.

85. Suicidal? Most Times.

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Seeing as how the last entry wasn't really an entry I guess I need to do another update. Updates are hard to do when there is nothing to update about though, hence my lack of updates. All I have been doing is just hanging out with my friends, mostly Melanie and Trevor. Mitsy (my dog) had cancer on her leg and she had to have surgery to get it removed. She had a little blue cast on for about 2 weeks. She's all better now and they removed the entire tumor so she will live for a good while longer. I saw the notebook with Melanie and Kirsten. It was a girl movie for sure, but I still enjoyed it quite a bit. I was one of about 4 guys in the whole theater and towards the end when it got really quiet you could hear all of the girls crying and sniffling and when we were leaving they were all pulling out their tissues. I found it really funny that they were all crying and just started laughing. It’s just a movie, but then again, they're girls so you never know with them. The new Polyphonic Spree CD comes out tomorrow. I'm excited about that, it’s going to be really good. I can't think of anything else that I’ve done in the past few weeks, but if anything comes to mind, I will be sure to make another update.

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I'm sure you all hate these things too, but I was really bored.

~Basics And Special Things About You~

Name (Full Name): Steven Daniel Gilmore.
Nicknames: Steve, Steveo.
Age: 19.
Birthday: January 8th, 1985.
City you live in: The Woodlands.
School: I Don’t go to school.
Grade: I Guess I’m still a freshman in college.
Height: 6’2”.
What’s your phone #? 281-367-1239.
What are your grades? C’s & D’s usually.
Siblings and their ages: Ryan - 17, Joel - 35.
Parents: Joel & Elsie.
Are they divorced, if so whom do you live with? No.
Parents Jobs: Dad - doesn’t work anymore. Mom - Secretary.
One word to describe each of your parents: Dad - Slow. Mom - Worrisome.
Pets: Dog - Mitsy, Cat - Princess.
Best friends: Melanie, Brittany, Trevor, Jerm.

~Favorites~

Food: Grilled Cheese I guess, anything is good really.
Color: Blue.
Day: Any day that is a good day.
Car: 1969 Tor Red Hemi Cuda’. Just like this one, but a hardtop instead.
Restaurant: Pappasito's.
Cookie: Chocolate Chip.
Cereal: Frosted Flakes.
Holiday: Christmas.
Book: The Mothman Prophecies (One of the two books that I’ve read).
Movie: Vanilla Sky, Donnie Darko, Blow, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
Song: Incubus - Wish You Were Here, it makes me feel good about life.
Flower: The only flowers that I know of are Roses and Daises.
Sport: Being cool?
Actor: Don’t really have one.
Actress: Natalie Portman (I just think she’s pretty).
Card Game: Gin Rummy.
Board Game: Monopoly or Risk.
Candy: Snickers.
Ice Cream: Vanilla.
Milkshake: Vanilla.
TV Show: Seinfield, Family Guy, Futurama, and anything on the History Channel.
TV Channel: History Channel.
Magazine: Maximum Pc.
Animal: A puppy (who doesn’t love a puppy?).

~ Questions ~

If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be? Don’t know what of, but it would probably be either on my forearm or my side/back.
Have you ever been skinny-dipping? Nope.
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? My fingers tend to hover in the general area above the right keys.
People who know the most about you: Melanie and Trevor.
Do you have a crush? I have an orange one on my desk.
What's your religion (nothing against anyone), and what church do you
attend, if any? Christian, don’t attend church.
Have you ever broken or sprained anything or gotten stitches? Never.
Do you have any diseases? I have had medical problems but I don’t think that I have ever had a disease.
Have you had the chicken pox? Still haven’t had those, hopefully never will.
Do you read the newspaper or watch the news? I read the newspaper from time to time.
Do you collect anything? I guess I kind of collect CDs and posters.
Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrous? Right.
Play any instruments? Can’t play an instrument without talent.
Sleep with a stuffed animal? I did when I was a little kid so now I have to cuddle with something or I can’t fall asleep.
Is your room clean or a mess? I try to keep it as clean as possible, it almost always is.
What are your best and worst subjects? Best - I suck in everything. Worst - Probably math.
Have you ever been convicted of a crime? No.
Best feeling in the world: Happy.
Do you have motion sickness? Not usually.
Are you for world peace? I guess that’s better than twelve year olds running around with guns shooting people.
Has a big dog ever attacked you? No.
Do you eat chicken with fork or fingers? With my fingers.
Which do you prefer, mud wrestling or Jell-O wrestling? Jell-O, that way you can eat up your mess (and possibly off of each other *wink, wink*)
Would you rather give or receive? Give, but receive too.
How many homes have you lived in? Two.
One pillow or two: Two, one for my head and one for my legs.
Do you get along with your parents? For the most part.
One person you really can't stand: There’re a few.
Favorite place to chill: My room I guess, or wherever my friends are.
When's your bedtime? Usually no earlier than 5 or 6 A.M.
Thunderstorms-cool or scary: Rain is neat, but the storm part is scary.
Drinks, with or without ice cubes: Without.
What three people do you trust the most? Melanie, Trevor and Me.
Who has impacted you the most for better or worse? Probably my parents, that’s why I’m the dork that I am today, is that bad or good?
The nicest guy you've ever met: I really don’t know.
The nicest girl you've ever met: Heidi.
Have you ever thought about suicide? Yeah.
What is your worst fear? Spiders.
What is one thing that you don't like about the person who sent this to
you (you must list something)? No one sent it to me, I stole it!
Do you fall asleep easily? Not at all, and once I wake up I can almost never get back to bed.
What are you best talents? Don’t have any talent (some people really don’t have any). I’m pretty good at not having talent.
Do you think that it's the guy’s deal to make the first move or the girl’s? Whoever wants to go first.
Love the outdoors or hate it? Don’t love it, but it can be nice at times. Like when the sky looks really cool and stuff.
From school, who are you best friends? Trevor, I met him in school.
Do you consider yourself to be kind? I’m actually kind of mean.
What is you honest opinion of the person who sent this to you? If by sent you mean stole, then yeah, she’s pretty cool.
Do you like inside Jokes? They’re fun.

~ What sports do you like/play? ~

Soccer: Running.
Baseball: Running.
Basketball: Running.
Hockey: The fighting part.
Volleyball: Pretty boring.
Track: Lots of Running.
Football: Running.
Snow boarding: Never Tried.
Gymnastics: Almost as boring as volleyball.
Skiing: I think I would enjoy it.
Skateboarding: I have the worst balance out of anyone, ever.
Swimming: Yeah, except for the whole not liking water part.
Cheerleading: The most boring of them all.
*Running = Hard and not fun.*

~Yes or No, One or The Other~

Biking: Yeah.
Blading, Skating, or neither? No balance, so no.
Contacts, glasses, or perfect vision? Glasses (I look smart).
Driving: I’d rather someone else drive.
- Can You? Yes.
Camping: Fun with friends.
Beach or Pool? Beaches can be really beautiful.
Roller Coasters: WAY too scary.
Like where you live: I like where I live, but not a lot of the people that live here.
Bowling: Yes.
Miniature Golf: Sometimes.
Do you have-
~ICQ: No.
~MSN: No.
~AOL: Yes.

~If You Could, Would You~

Move, if so where? Yes, Somewhere in the middle of nowhere. That way I wouldn’t have to talk to people and no one would bug me.
Swim with Sharks? I have before.
Go bungee jumping? Never.
Go skydiving? Way too afraid of heights.
Go white water rafting? Don’t like water.
Date a famous person, if so who? Natalie Portman, but only if she was cool and the stupid press didn’t bug us all the time.
Go on a TV show, if so which one? Not unless I got a lot of money.
Sing on Real TV? Never would I even sing, that would hurt people’s ears.
Go to college now? No.
Walk face first down a two hundred foot building (on a bungee cord)? No, Afraid of heights.

~The Future~

Do you plan on dropping out of high school? Can’t, I already graduated.
Go to college (Yes, no and where)? Go to a trade school, Full Sail.
Your Future Job (as of right now): Not sure.
Do you plan on marring? Not really.
What age do you want to get married? Kind of never.
Do you want whom your marrying to take your last name or will you take their
last name? I’m going to keep my last name, they can keep theirs if they want or take mine.
How many kids? Not many, possibly none, Kids are fragile. They scare me, they are too easy to hurt.
Names of Girls: Something pretty.
- Boys: Something cool.
Pets (in the future): A dog maybe, and some horses would be cool too.
Where do you want to live? Somewhere by myself.

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Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead.
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always.
(Still the dead one lay moaning).
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

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This weekend was awesome. I went camping with Britt, Melanie, Lloyd, Alana and Nikki. We left on Friday morning after spending
the night at Alana's house. We had some trouble on the toll way and got separated from the other car that we were following but
finally caught up with them. Then when we got there we stayed at this place called Andy's just outside of Garner state park. We
stayed in a small "cabin" with a few beds and a couch in it. They were such a piece of junk, but it was better than staying in a
tent because we didn’t have to bother with putting it up and we also had a/c which was a huge help. The showers and bathrooms
were in a separate building from the cabins and were just about as nice as the cabins.

After unloading all of our stuff we went tubing on the Frio. The first day that we were there we did the three-hour tubing. That
was so much fun but learning how to navigate the rapids without getting the shit beat out of you was a bit tricky. I had a few
rocks go up my ass and Lloyd got racked on a tree for about ten minutes. After we went tubing Alana's parents brought us some
firewood from her grandmothers house and we found a scorpion in it. I have never seen a scorpion outside of a pet shop before,
so that was pretty neat, but scary too.

The next day we woke up pretty early and decided to go tubing again, except this time we went tubing for six hours. By this time
I had learned how to get through the rapids better. About 30 minutes from being done, we realized that we had lost the sets of
keys to both of our cars so we had to look for them. After a few minutes I found Melanie's keys but Lloyds and I could never find
Alana's keys, we looked for about an hour. Luckily Alana's parents were at her grandparent's house not too far away so they were
able to bring us an extra set of keys. We all got sun burnt pretty bad on the second day. We all started walking around like old
people and moving around really slowly. We all went and took a nap because we were all exhausted from the days activities and
apparently when I wake up, I am a very loud person, as I woke up Brittany and Melanie every time that I got up for something.

By Sunday we were all ready to be home, we woke up and packed up all of our stuff and left for home. Lloyd had bought some
walkie-talkies and we talked to each other from our cars using our codenames that we came up with the night before. We played
games over walkie-talkies like battle of the sexes and twenty questions, which turned out to be quite "special". I am pretty sun
burnt and I will actually be tan here in a day or two, crazy I know, but true. I was so glad to finally be home though, camping was
a load of fun, but it’s always nice to get home. The road trip was such a blast too. This past few days were the best time I have
ever had in my life.



...Watermelon is good too...

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