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Books I have completed reading since January 2021:

1. The Enchanted - Rene Denfield
Monday. 1.18.16 7:32 am
Cough sucks. I am not able to eat anything cold.

It's been a long time I had a cold. This is all because I didn't manage to keep myself hydrated last weekend. I should have just ordered lots of mineral water to quench myself but I was afraid of finding toilet.


Dilemma = making myself sick.


I went to see 3 doctors earlier and my condition was not even improved. And then I visited my usual doctor and my cough had lessen so much with just one dose! I could further heal not until I accidentally drank chicken broth. Ahhh.. there goes my medicine!

And now luckily mum has the medicine I need to strengthen my lungs. I better recover soon because Chinese New Year is just around the corner!

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It's a sad movie
Monday. 1.4.16 7:12 pm
It's a sad movie. The Werewolf Boy, a Korean movie. Simple romance plot with believable acting and right shooting angles. Because of that I find it one of the best movies I have ever seen. Spoilers ahead.

It's about a boy mutated into a werewolf due to some crazy scientist's dream. When the scientist died, his house was rented out to a single-parent family who found the boy.They took care of him and the eldest daughter trained him like a dog due to his display characteristic of a dog. Later, she taught him writing and others.

Other viewers said it's a romance movie. Could be. Looking from other perspectives, it could also be friendship. The eldest daughter doesn't have any friends because she is home-schooled and also she is bored. So when she sees the boy who is of her age, she could be wanting a friend in him, hence the teaching and playing moments together.

She knew he could morph and that is why she kept saying 'Wait' to him at the ending. I can't imagine the alternative ending if he had just waited and not act on instinct.

The crying of both was so heart-wrenching that made me and other views cried. Seriously. I used my sleeve to wipe the tears.

The ending is also heart-wrenching. I was so hoping there could be more scene on them both. Damn, the director leaves that to our imagination. But if we wanna play in our mind, I believe the girl would visit him again or may not.

Damn, replaying the whole movie makes me cry again.


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Saturday. 1.2.16 1:25 am
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2015 ending?
Thursday. 12.31.15 9:51 am
I was kinda down and feeling a little lost these few days. And I made an appointment with a shaman to explore my feelings.

As we were chatting, she was conveying the message that I am not lost. I know what I want to do but I somehow got distracted by other voices. That's why I was down. I suddenly consider the things I wanna do for next year. I suddenly compare my achievements with others and suddenly feel my achievements were not as great as them. As I am typing this, my head is summarising it as 'taking others' beliefs as mine.' I could not agree more. Whenever we try to compare ourselves to others, we are shedding ourselves - we become less of ourselves. If it's positive values, then it's a good thing. But if it's about comparing what I did and what you did and what I did is better than yours, then don't absorb that. That's belittling yourself. Especially if you have been trying to get things done bit by bit.

For a start, acknowledge all the things you have done for the year or in your whole life. And then come up with a plan of what you want to do for the next year. As I mentioned previously in my post, try working backwards. Come up with a plan of activities that you need to do in order to achieve the bigger plan. This is more practical.

I am actually kinda shock when she said 'I can see so much clarity when I am talking to you, you are not lost.' I was expecting she is gonna say I am some kind of lost soul and I was hoping she would just whip me into some meditation to find back my path, after all our session is called Explore Your Path.

And she kept saying 'Be patient'. She added that each individual has different pace of doing things let alone achieving things. Just so I don't be distracted by others.

I have strong guides that are guiding me. It reminds me on articles that sometimes when our heart gives us ideas or simply a thought... they come from our guides. Don't heed them but you are free to decline the ideas. They are gifts not burden.

My friend's words "you can do wonders in a year". I compared mine to hers and I feel threatened. I lied if I said I didn't. It's true in a way I was not threaten when she said of the millions and the assets she had. But I compared myself with her and that's a dishonor to myself. I didn't sit and watch FB all day, although I did on some days, and didn't do anything to improve my life. I am trying to do it everyday. I tried my best in 2015.

2016 is coming in a few more minutes.

I shall just be myself. I shall just continue doing my things. What I am gonna do differently is to observe other's good habit and incorporate to mine. The world is huge. There's a lot of things out there for us to grab. It's enough for all of us, just not our greed.

I shall make my mark in this world too. In my own way. At my own pace. No one can take away the things I want to do. Only my mind can distract.

The shaman continued to say 'life is a journey.' Things happened for a reason. Keep doing the things I want to do and I will be at my destination.

Go on, renaye. Fear is just an illusion. Fear cannot control me if I don't allow it.

God bless us all the while.

Happy New Year, peeps.

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Yamapi again
Monday. 12.28.15 12:40 am
Well I finished watching one of Yamapi's series titled From 5 to 9. Yes, I am gonna talk about it again..

Yamapi is so handsome in the series... please look at me... bwahha.. What I am attracted the most is his hair as a monk. Very nice and stylish. If only my hair can stay nicely like that too.

The hairstyle in this scene is not great. Makes it kinda flat. I was expecting the hairstyle to be the same as the monk-style. Damn... It's not bringing out the handsomeness in him. It just makes him look like a kid!

Anyways... he is so handsome.... ahh...

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Saturday. 12.26.15 7:25 pm
Yup. Hangry is the word. I am mostly angry but since I am writing this in the morning, I am kinda hungry too.

I have been angry since last night. Not because I don't have xmas present which I actually have one. It was a cat toy. It's so cute.

Anyways, the reason to my anger is one of my girlfriends decided mostly not to continue her alternative treatment medicine, which was referred by me. Her reason is the medicine is too expensive. I become angry when I heard this.

Apparently, many of my rich friends stopped eating the medicine purely because it's expensive. I mean rich as in has lots of cash, drive branded cars and have super nice house. Rich as in they don't have to worry much about spending every dime. While my family struggling with finances continue eating those alternative treatment medicine. Our medical bill is so high and yet we continue eating. Whatever we earn goes straight to those alternative treatment medicine.

And my girlfriend who can afford because she earns way higher than me decided to stop because it's expensive. Her family is so rich by just getting money from the downline from MLM and they too say the medicine is expensive. Here is a family who can afford to drink coffee at a cafe daily commenting the herbal medicine are expensive. And she is only eating like after 2 months? I have been eating for years.

Mum questioned herself the same thing. Those rich people are saying the medicine are expensive. This statement makes us feel stupid for continuing the herbal treatment. Are we stupid for taking care of our health?

Mum said one of the doctors like to say this "penny wise pound foolish." Thinking so much of saving the penny, sometime later they will have to spend more later.

I kept asking myself why I am so angry. I can't even sleep well last night. It's just I am simply angry:

1) how can people not taking care of their health especially when they can afford. If I have the same purchasing power as them, imagine the amount of things I could buy to make myself healthier and... more beautiful. When the organs receive the right nutrients the organs work better.. and then... what do you think will happen next?

2) things are getting more expensive. It's simple calculation. And if you want a great quality, you just have to pay for it. There is no such thing as good quality = cheap. Simple analogy: different car brands have different price tag. We all know what the price tag is on those branded cars. People here love to buy those branded cars. Why? a) Status b) Better quality. Exactly. Better quality. Everything has a price tag. Just different digits. The Chinese proverb says the quality matches the price we pay.

I am now operating very much on that Chinese proverb. I can try getting the best quotation but then somehow I always have to find another because I don't like work quality that is given to me. So lesson learnt. Get the best one with the budget I can afford. If not, why would these professionals call themselves 'the best'?

Oh well, I have done my part in helping my friends in attending to their health. They have to do their part. They can try saving money on health... but the saying is money is useless when they are not healthy. Sometimes... when you have the money for health... it's sometimes too late to be healthy again. You know the car engine is going to break down soon and yet you didn't take action hoping it can go on for another day. When it finally dies, you have to spend a fortune to revive it. The bill is much higher when the mechanic has already advised to check-in the car earlier. And people will also say why check-in so late, why not earlier? Isn't it dangerous to have the car stop right in the middle of the road? Alone and cold on the road. Yea... do you want to drop dead in the middle of whatever you are doing? Alone and cold wherever you are? I am mean? Yea. I heard that was what happened to a colleague's brother. Out of the blue.

Alright. Wish them luck.

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