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Happy news not so happy
Wednesday. 8.31.16 9:45 am
You see when you have happy news, you would just like to share with all selected friends right?

So do I. You just want to share that fucking happy news because you just wanna share your smile with those chosen ones regardless of the benefits.

So I did. And the response was upsetting. I was simply hurt because I just simply wanna share something happy.

Well, I got another sponsored trip to Japan again last week (I came back already) to chaperone a kid to attend an event in Hiroshima. I said yes to the opportunity for a working holiday again.

And I shared this news with my close confidante. I initially did not want because I know this person did not even go on holiday for a long time because he 'cannot' afford even though he is very rich. If I were to tell him this news, I know he will flip. And yes he did.

The first thing that came out in the chat was along the line "You don't seem to care about your future. I thought you wanted to save? So it is not your plan any more?" That hurts, my friend. Actually these were the words said.

I care about my future but I also care about my health. My stress level was so high that all I wanted was a breather. Am I not allowed to have one? You are fucking lucky to have a breather when you work freelance and you have all the necessary things ever ready for you daily and you don't even need to work for them - hard compare to other people your age. You got two maids to help you out and god knows who paid their salary and you got inheritance indirectly. You got the time in the world indirectly. And whenever I have the time, I am just damn fucking tired and all I want is to breathe normally. So do you even understand my situation?

No you don't. Don't even try. Because if you have tried, you would know the pain. I bet many people like you will just shrug and say 'luckily is not me'. That is why I said your cats are doing better than me.

The hurt is raw on my wounds. I kept reflecting. If I want to bring in God to the context, I would say God takes good care of me by giving me monetary in kinds. This is in turn translates into experience. I know this friend of mine resisted all temptations to go on holiday despite having the money to do so. I think that is why he finds it amusing that someone so much poorer than him is globetrotting at the expense of the future.

Well, it is clearly an opportunity cost for me. But I have also calculated the financial risk before going. And it is free, why not go?

Whatever it is, I realise we all have the freedom of choice to choose. It really depends on what we want in life. I chose experience over building wealth. Do I regret of this decision? I used to, a lot. I used to feel guilty after spending something on myself and then I will just beat up myself. Then I will start to compare myself with others like him and then demotivate myself. But this time I did not because such opportunity only comes once. Free stuff does not always come to me either. I got to hunt for them because things just do not fall from the sky. By the way, when I get something for free it is also a gesture of appreciation from the person who gives. You buy your friend a lunch because you want to because you appreciate her fucking existence.

My knowledge may not be on par as you but I am proud of my own experience. I have been to many countries. I have a lot of international friends. I have met an asian royal heir. I have done many things. So did you. You have also a lot of different experience than me too. So why the discrimination?

Yes I agree that it is weird for me to chaperone instead of the guardian. It is risky and dangerous. I seriously never thought of that. I only thought what a privilege job to bear the safety of the kid. All I saw was the positive side of the trip. Nothing more than that. To me it was common to hear participants get escorted to places which I had experienced before.

Anyways, again, my complaint here is it fun to instil fear until paralyses someone to move forward? I am trying my best to save for the future. Why not instead encourage me to save??

A friend of mine commented that he could have said it out of concern. I agree but I have also said that tone would not work instead it can drive depression people to increase their emotional instability. That is because his words from years ago could have driven me to suicide. And I have told him that already!

Anyways, cutting it short, just be happy for others. Sometimes don't discount on the opportunities that come our way.
1 Comments.


I know exactly what you mean!
I hate when people aren't supportive, especially when growth comes from the choices we make.

I have recently had people rudely tell me to get off my medically-supervised diet. I know they think their comments come from a place of caring, but sometimes...they are just being haters. One person straight up shook his head at me and said "That protein shake you're drinking is so unhealthy". >.> He has no idea I have done all my research on the program and nutritional values before I started doing it.

Anyways, I am sure you will have an amazing time in Japan. I know you'll embrace the experience! Hell, it is free! I would take it. It sounds like your friend is just upset that he doesn't have the opportunity himself :P.
» dannixfresh on 2016-09-04 07:54:26

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