mood: sick and being negative

Note to self: I shouldn't spend my weekends at home, because it's not healthy for me at the moment, considering the amount of time during the week that I spend at home, (Haven't got much of a choice either with a limit amount of money - perhaps learn to be more constructive with my time, e.g. take up a new hobby or get more into photography.)
I seem to lash out at myself, these days and no body else's fault. I shouldn't be putting myself down or being so hard on myself. Maybe, I should learn to careless about the small things and deal with the cards that I am giving - that's what I planned to do when I moved here. But, this whole 'finding another job' issue is fucking me up inside. It's made me depressed when I first moved here, then I got used to it, now I hate it and I am growing tired of it. I feel like there are no answering for me. I feel like such a downer to myself and to Dan for what I've got. It's better than no job. A lot better feeling when I can say that I have A job.

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