watching: brothers grim
mood: tired

What I really would like to do with this blog is try 'take a step back' in my past from the present. Later to catch up with the present.
Although, I may just jump around the place from time to time.
I need a place to self reflect of who I used to be, to who I am now.
Basically, this blog is a 'side project' blog for me now and I am no longer using my old one. I am not going to delete it either.

My 'side project' blog started in Jan, 2007, I started writing on Blogspot. I started writing a lot there then slowly died off it within a few passing months. By the end of May, 2007, I had stopped writing there. But, why did I begin a 'side project' blog? -Because, a friend or who I thought was a friend off of Livejournal had quit. He had made a private blog at blogspot, I decided to make one so I could follow his blog and keep in contact. Let's just call him, B. It was a strange relationship. I only ever knew of B online and that was as far as it was ever going to go.

By May, 2007, he had rejoined Livejournal and had added me as a friend again...but we weren't to stay friends, for some reason later down the track he deleted me as a friend and I am not sure. It didn't really bother me either. I go over it after trying to 'help' him in some way by commenting and following his posts in his blogs.

There was another reason, I needed a place to write out my thoughts about a relationship I was having at the time. It started in Feb, 2006 and had ended by April, 2007. Shortly lived, but very intense it was. It ended quickly, because my boyfriend at the time had decided to move back to the state where his son was living to be with him. Maybe, someday I will understand that. It was complicated. I still wonder to this day how that ex-boyfriend is. Not that I will ever try and to find him nor will he. I don't really need too. I just wanted to know if he ever did find true happiness with his decision that he had made.
I hope so for his sake.

It seems the questions are always endless and never replying.

Categories: blogging [t], reflections of yesterday [t], ex-boyfriends [t]

We have a guy here that at least one person calls 'B'. Most people call him Muffy though, since he likes the nickname.

Online relationships are in some entirely different realm from so called "real life" relationships, it hardly seems right to compare them at times.
» randomjunk on 2008-07-26 09:08:09

Lol, Muffy is a funny nickname. :D
Online are totally different, because you are taking out the physical aspect.
» umbreons-shadow on 2008-07-26 07:06:33

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