Well it has been a while since I have posted on here. I was working all day everyday until the 29 of January. That is the day I officially lost my job. And as much as it sucks I am relieved that I don't work for that company anymore.

But that leave me with no job and wondering how the hell I am going to pay my bills! It is more frustrating than anything. I apply to countless jobs online and I never hear anything. NOTHING AT ALL! The last time I heard from someone was over a week ago. I feel useless doing this and I am bored out of my mind. I am also to the point where I am getting on the nerves of my loved ones. I am down, borderline depressed and becoming broke quickly.

Seriously I have no clue if I am sane anymore...I am soooo bored, I just want to work. Problem is that I am in such a specialized field (Interior Design) that it is making me struggle more. And I can't take less money than I was making cause I need that much to stay afloat.

I am at such a loss. I hate this point.

Other than looking for a job and being frustrated, I am actually doing quite alright. I am sleeping better than I ever have and I am actually a little relaxed which is very odd.

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Well here I am at eight weeks unemployed. I will hit that mark on this Wednesday (tomorrow)

In the previous post about my job situation I mentioned I was going insane....you have no idea. I am so far past that.

I don't have a boyfriend or a kid to distract me. I have all these walls of my apartment....and that is it. Oh and my kitties are here too.

I am about to lose my apartment. I am actually surprised I have kept it this long. I have had the money to pay the rent the past two months....this coming month, I am going to have to start borrowing from the parents. I filed for unemployment 6 weeks ago and as of Monday, March 24th they had not made a decision. Said it should be by the end of the week. I am lucky though, if I get it I can stay in my apartment. If not, then I have to hit up my aunt for the money to get out of my lease (about $1500) plus my rent for April. Then to make matter worse I have to move back in with my Grandma who is also housing my aunt and soon will be housing my uncle. It is a 3 bedroom house that is about 1100 sq feet. 4 people living there is going to be insane. I am again going to be confined to a room. But at least I will have a place to go.

So does anyone know how to get employers attention???? I have found that most places will not accept you going to their office in person and handing them your resume and application. It is all done online. Which throughly pisses me off. I have been on monster, careerbuilder, hotjobs and many others. I have heard NOTHING! I even have a recruiting company that is supposed to be helping me out. I haven't heard from them since I signed up with them. no jobs leads at all through them. What sucks about that is....On monster most of the jobs in my field go through this recruiting company. You can only talk to your assigned agent and no one else. What if your agent isn't doing their job?? In this case I can't so anything. Also I have applied outside my field. Like to customer service jobs. I was actually told by two companies that they wouldn't hire me because I was over qualified! I was like WTF??? if I applied for the job obviously I don't think it is beneath me to do it.

I re-did my resumes after consulting a professional as well as I redid my cover letters. So far nothing. I actually got more of a response from my other resumes. So much for the professionals.

Well if I find out that I don't get unemployment, I am going to go work at Circle K at night. Don't really have a choice in the matter. I need money. Also, my best friends company is hiring.

I am soooo bored out of my mind! SO I want to apologize lazypuppy! You have put up with me, especially this past month, and me thinking that you didn't care. I was so wrong! Thanks for just letting me vent and for the fact that even when you are exhausted you go out with me (like Monday...I know you would have rather slept and relaxed at home)

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Well I finally got a job offer, after more than 7 months being unemployed. It is a job where I design Fire Sprinkler Systems in Commercial spaces all in 3D.

While it is great that I got this job offer, I am really not happy about it. I have accepted it because I need a job. I start on Monday, August 4th. This job is taking me further away from what I really want to do. I want to design spaces, including furniture. This is no where near that. I have to learn a new program that is specifically geared towards fire sprinkler systems. That shouldn't be hard at all.

But, I also have to drive about 70 miles to work each day. I HATE commuting. It takes so much out of me. I will have to drive from the far north side of the Denver metro area to the far south side...taking only I-25. The other option would be a toll road...but that is around $17/day and not a realistic option at all. Who could afford that on top of these outlandish gas prices?? Plus it adds 3 hours or more on to my day at work.

Everyone keeps saying a job is a job, but I have done crap that I haven't wanted to do for so long, that it is really hard for me to accept the fact that I am doing it again. When will I ever get that chance to do what I love? I had it at one point, and nothing has ever compared to that...or even came close. That job I didn't care how long the commute was or how hard or long I worked on a job...I just did it. It never felt like work. So it is hard to start something knowing it isn't what I want to do. But I am going to try and be positive.

A plus is that it is just me and the owner of the company. So basically I will have a lot of responsibility (and leeway) , especially if he is out of town. I also get to go out of town every once in a while. I get a two week training course out of town too, which should be fun!

On the day I got this previous job offer, I had an incredible interview. It was for a position where I would be designing custom cabinetry for high-end residential spaces as well as commercial spaces, such as libraries and medical offices. Plus this place is not even 5 mins. from my house. Awesome commute! This position is more down the alley of what I want to be doing and I would be really stoked to do it. I don't have to learn a new program, but I do have to learn some new conversion software since the cabinetry is made on site. Not hard at all! They are making a decision later this week about the position and hopefully I get it...if I do, then I have to let the fire sprinkler position go. BUT in all reality, with my luck, I am not expecting to get something I like to do. So I am not keeping my hopes up for it at this moment.

I just know that since I want the second position that it will not be an option. I got turned down a ton of time while I was unemployed and I was shocked to get the first job offer...so I believe that I will never get an offer from the second position.

So I am preparing for next Monday morning and working a full day. It will be exhausting, since I don't sleep at night very well, but I will adjust. Hopefully I will get along with my new boss very well and things will go smoothly.

mood: confused
watching: news
listening to: 80's music

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