So I found out at church last night that Sydney is going to be having two surgerys, one this month and another next month. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE when people I know and love are in hospitals..mostly because I can't stand hospitals. I guess that fear comes from the fact that the first person I ever visited in the hospital, my grandma, passed away that same night. Okay, well now I'm scared..and her first surgery isn't until Apr 17th. But that's not really that far from now.. I won't say what the surgeries are because I don't really know, just that it's something to do with her heart like missing a valve or something, and her ribcage needing to be pushed down or whatever. You add that on top of my other worries, the ones about whether or not Ed will have to stay an extra four to five months in Iraq, and I'm bound to be hysterical. I had to leave and go to the restroom after everybody prayed for Sydney just so I could be alone and cry. I was already on the verge of tears before I found out about the surgeries 'cause I keep thinking about something that Ed said while he was here on R&R. Something he considered doing but didn't..I won't expand on that, but I can't stop wondering how different everything would've been had he done it. God, I don't know. I need someone to talk to right now; I want to talk to Ed, I hope he gets online tonight so I can talk to him. I miss him so much right now. Pray for them, okay? And that I'll get some sort of peace in the very near future and learn how to deal with all of it.

Categories: Edward [t], Life In General [t], Prayer Requests [t]

just pray for the best.
don't always think the worst when i comes to hospitals.
most of the time it is the best thing to do.
i am sure sydney will be fine.
:)
» helloiloveyou on 2007-04-02 02:37:29

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