Today has been a really terrible one... I started off waking up to the sound of my grandmother sobbing loudly. Apparently Megan's grandmother died... I'm pretty sad for her, since I've already lost my fair share of relatives, but I didn't really know her grandmother that well. None of this will make sense until I say my grandmother got me invited to attend the funeral... I don't know what's wrong with her... I've never been able to act sad when someone I didn't even know that well dies. What am I going to say to Megan when we get to chatting? I hope she'll understand...

Moving off of the more dreary things, I had track today. It was terrible again. All we did was warm up, do our excels, drills, and run a bit. It took two hours and I wasn't very pleased about having to go to BHS to do it. That's all I have to say about that.

I screwed up my final EP presentation... Looks like I'm not going to get an award unless it's for "Best Effort After Realizing He Lost" or something...

Back to the lamentable, I'm really confused about this whole... crush thing. If you saw the quiz results on my Xanga, you know a bit of the problem. At least I know why Lauren talks about being "conficated"... I feel like a helpless mess. She doesn't like me, I like her, I know I annoy her more than she'd admit, now I'm writing sappy love poems and she's been pretty negative about it. Sometimes I'd just like to die... I don't want to try so hard it makes it hard for her to breathe... _{Poetry time}

Later, DS
~ If I could see your eyes when the world was new and beautiful...

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