Thursday. 5.31.07 9:10 am
mood: sad to the point where I wish I don't know how to spell L.O.V.E!
These few days, I have been feeling quite moody myself. A lot of times I found myself feeling upset about something that
Baby had said, why he used such words or why he didn't do this or why he didn't do that.
I know it's really stupid to be upset about such minor stuff. The only thing that puts my moodiness to an end is keep telling myself "Hey, girl! He's not even your official boyfriend! Get a life!"
It's true, he's not even my boyfriend but I keep on finding myself getting involved with his personal life. It's not that I don't want us to be together but the future with him is so uncertain.
We are both in our early twenties and the word ‘future’ is such a HUGE word. Who knows what will happen in future right? I don’t want to visualize any expectation about the future just like I did in my previous relationship.
The only way I keep myself from getting hurt
again is treating this whole relationship with him as a fling. So here I am declaring this is a no-string attached relationship and the problem is can I really do it? Can I be entirely doing it with absolutely no feeling involved?
It is something to be pondered over about and I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight :(
Love really sucks!
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Get Your OwnCategories: love [t], sucks [t]
*hugs* will you be talking to him about it? I don't really know how you feel because I've never been in a relationship before.. Though if I were to ask you to just have fun and let life push you the way it wants would cause a some major problems later right?
» Nuttz on 2007-05-31 11:45:32
To Nuttz: Thanks for the hugs, hon. I don't think I'll talk to him about that. Just don't want to make this a big deal as we are not exactly dating exclusively anyway. I think I'll just go with the flow and see what comes up next.
» deecy on 2007-05-31 01:11:57
sometimes it's harder to not be his official girlfriend. That kind of limbo-area really sucks. :(
» Zanzibar on 2007-06-07 08:57:08
To Zanzibar You are so right in it. Sometimes, I feel that way too :(
» deecy on 2007-06-21 11:03:20
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