i have been in the hospital whole day with her. she's ok today. except a few tummy aches now and then but no more super frequent toilet visits. haha.

i spent the whole day with her but half the time she is sleeping and i was all by myself playing computer and watching tv. let's hope she will be total ok by tomorrow. she missed her exams today though. shall hope everything will be super ok and as she wish tomorrow. :D

i need to start studying for my next paper already. sigh. last and the hardest paper. i can't afford to fail anymore. really really can't afford to fail anymore. and before my first paper, i am foolish enough to tell myself i don't want to stay alive anymore if i fail any of the papers again. life's such a struggle. but she gave me a reason to want to continue struggling. i am getting happier and happier each day and now, i shall tell myself that i can pass if i try hard enough. and i am trying right? so it's so much better than to just think about suicide.

:D

let tomorrow be a better day, then today. everyday. :D

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muahahaha... i still got one last paper to go and i am already thinking of things to do after exams. i am so so so excited about finishing the exams, although i am so not looking forward to getting the results. sigh.

i want to:
start playing fb again
do a 5000 jigsaw
watch the plants grow
create a guppy farm
get a camera and start playing with photography
go see a doctor
go traveling with Aud
read all the books she has
clear the room and prepare to move out
start deciding who take what
:D

actually, i just want my life back after exams.
i miss playing with my dear all day and night,
chatting and talking and disturbing each other
and have fun until the day ends and go to sleep together
i like that. i miss that.
btw, i am in a relationship with my roomie.
how cool is that?
just when everyone else yearn to stay together with the person they like
i am already doing that.
right from the start.
:D

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yeah....!!!! i m back.... after having holiday for so long, i am glad to be back. but i am not glad to be back to school though. school makes me emo and suicidal. but i am glad i am back. no internet. so can't update much. :D but i am happy. i think...

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i wonder what would happen if i turn this to my pets blog?
i have 6 fishes, an aloe vera type plant ( i think) and a vase of money plant as pets.
i shall put all the pictures of my pets here
but i need to learn how to upload photos here first
and i shall update and talk about my pets
and start making them cuter than how they already are
ok. maybe not the plants. but the fishes.
i always call them fishies. it sounds nicer
i shall try to make it an interesting site
rather than these boring stuff that i have
ok. now, for starters:
my six fishies are called fatty, smaller fatty, spikey, (cacat spikey died), no dots, two dots and bitch.

i think you will know why they are called like that once you see their pictures. ( but i still need to learn how to upload pictures first)

the plants has no names but i still love them as much. ok. i shall try making my site a better place starting tomorrow. i hope.

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