I managed to escape first block physics with a few happy birthdays from my table and a few classmates surrounding our table in the corner, and in english, i got away with only one person saying happy birthday.
but in french. i had ppl sing to me. i think ppl saying it and like texting or msning is okay, but no songs! like i have no idea what to do when you're singing you know?

and this is a really messy blog post but whatever,
i need to spam it all out.
i really want a hug from one of my friends tim.
cuz he would give me one of those nice hugs. ones where you can hug back.
what would you call it. a bear hug? those are nice. if you don't get crushed. : )

every other one of my friends are too timid to hug. or don't like hugs. or it'll be awkward cuz they have a girlfriend/boyfriend blahblahblah.

idk

well. i conclude with the fact that my birthday isn't really being all that fun,
and i have tutor after school til 6:30 and i don't get picked up until 7 . . .
so yeah. that should be fun. (i really should stop using sarcasm online cuz you have to point it out each time.)

oh damn. i feel like crying again. just a little bit.
i'm depressing myself. how do i make myself stop?!

sometimes. i wish i was a guy.
no not body wise. although being stronger would be kinda nice.
and no i wouldn't want a gender change or whatever
but the way they can keep their feelings inside?
keep them so deep that no one can tell?
i wish i could do that.

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it's almost my birthday.
i wish it wasn't.
it's not happy at all.

a stupid brother who decides to bitch at me after coming home.
friends not caring because they have boyfriends.
nothing to do because i told them i decided not to hang out.
and i have a full day of school tomorrow and tutor right afterwards for two hours.

i was happy before - i learnt that a friend would be coming to hang out,
but since that's now just a possibility and i have no set plans...

i feel like crying because of my brother and rereading the unhappy post before this one.

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Being with your friends is just.
Fun.

I rather be with my friends than be on the computer. okay well it does depend on the time and the mood and which friend and how many friends, but yeah~

well. on friday i decided to go out to eat and then there was a huge little pissy lady (present) blowing up and wanting to go home but thankfully, they are the type of friends who stop me. : )

so in the end. no room at that jap guu'd restaurant. (its awesome) so we went to the downstairs one - malaysian and thai cuisine. yumyumyum.

satay sticks are super good. 4 beef and 4 lamb - one each = 2 for everyone~
: ) im glad i ordered those. since i ate them before. 8D

and ken and nancy got cake. i was pretty surprised. no wonder they didn't want me to go with them to nancy's house to put down their stuff. and no wonder they were taking so long. i took a photo. but it's on my cell. and i'm just so lazy. it's such a hassle to put photos on the computer and then photobucket and then in the blogs. i'll see how it goes tho.

been so busy too. chem project is due tomolo for many fellow students but me and my partner got an extension - not that much longer- it's due next week. ohhhh my lord. i'm feeling very stressed about it. at least we got some work done. sigh.

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happy birthday tim - - -

sorry i forgot : P


^______^; it just slipped my mind even though i was texting you hehe





happy birthday my white brother from another mother (XD)
who can speak mandarin so much better than me -
those girls talking about you in the elevator could stand no chance!

XD

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