Sunday. 8.8.10 9:33 pm
I think I may have a mild form of depression.
In all honestly, I have a good life. My parents support me, I have a roof over my head and I am in a relatively good place. Yet there are times where a heavy feeling of loneliness fills my heart and I'm left pondering what it is that makes me feel so down.
Maybe it's because I don't have a job right now to fill in all the free time I currently have. Financially I'm ok thanks to my parents helping pay my college bills, but other than that maybe part of my sadness comes from being more financially dependent than I would like to be at this current point and time; Coming from working to help buy things for myself since I was 16 to having to rely on the goodwill of my parents is something of a shocker.
Another reason I feel that I'm a bit hard on myself in recent times is because of the lack of communication I've had with friends. I keep to myself fairly often, and it's a rare occasion that I go out and socialize. Those people I met in college have come and gone, and as I've said in a previous post, most are acquaintances rather than friends.
All in all I really cannot convey how I feel through words. It's probably more circumstantial than anything, so I just honestly have to keep my head up and press on.
Now I'm going to sing away some of this stress in the bathroom ^^
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Wednesday. 8.11.10 12:29 pm
and use it to your advantage. Allow yourself growth. Let the weakness leave your body. Only you can do it for yourself.
No one else.
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