How time flies. It's already 2008, and I still feel like I'm in limbo. I know that time and whatever is a construct for the most part, but regardless, come two months and tick another line to my age, say goodbye to my 'military dependent' status and say hello to the big world.
Materially, I did not ask for anything this Christmas, sans GNC Gift Cards and the like. All I really wanted was to pass my Japanese class, and barely passed it I did, with a C-. But hey, a C- is passing, so boo-ya-ka-lama-lama I'm good. There were so many things weighing on whether or not I passed this particular class: my job as a student worker for the county would be forfeit if I didn't fulfill requirements of passing a full (12) unit load, my overall GPA would sink (obviously) and I just wouldn't start the new year with a bang. But fortunately I did pass, so no more sweatin' bullets over old news.

I'm still debating whether or not I should pursue Japanese at UCSD, because as I see it, 11 weeks just isn't enough time for me to absorb an entirely new language and be comfortable enough with it to take on a final head on at the end of those 11 weeks. We'll see what happens when I go resume my studies next week, but until then, I'm catching up on my Zzz's because I know I won't be getting much as soon as the quarter starts again.

I spent Christmas and New Year's with family which is fine by me. I guess I'm failing to realize that others don't spend the holidays with their families as much as they used to when we were younger; I guess it wasn't much of an option before, but now that I'm getting older it is.

I really did not make any New Year's resolution, but one thing I do plan to keep on doing is to maintain my mental and physical wellness by going to the gym religiously and never giving up. It's the least I can do for myself because I know I can always do better. It's just a matter of wanting to do so.

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I'm applying to study abroad in Japan for the Fall, yet I'm not even sure if I can. It's quite a painful reality actually. Not all is lost, but it just seems like I've always been a step behind in the things I do in life.

I'm remaining optimistic, however. If there is a will, there is most definitely a way.

It's not that I can't apply, because that I can do. The problem then lies in the actual process and financing my trip, which comes out to something like $15,000 for about a semester or so at Meiji Gakuin University in Tokyo (or actually Yokohama).

The deadline is fast approaching for the application, which is this Friday, but not only am I underwhelmed by my financial situation, but also because I feel as if I am not prepared. Always, always I seem to be a step behind. Maybe it's from being in a military family, always having to move every other odd year to a new place and starting all over again. Whatever it is, I always feel like I need to play catchup to get ahead in life.

Boo.

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