watching: real world san degio
mood: ehh
listening to: baby bash

uhh i think i have a problem....neways i hope yall can help me cuz yeh....here goes: theres this guy right....and ive known him foreverrrrrrrr and hes really sweet and caring and i can tell him nething and i know he wont tell anybody. i can trust him more than ne other guy. and i think....im not sure..that i like him. and i reallyyy dont know what to do. i mean this has happened b4...with brian. but im wayyyyy over him. and brian was my bestestestestestest friend.....so i had to get over him. it took me awhile tho....but were tite now. neway back to this guy. i juss dont know what to do. i mean when he hugs me and talks to me n stuff i juss denno what to do nemore. i mean i try to act myself...but i think he knows....i denno...and theres this other guy....hes a sophmore. and he doesnt even know i even exsist....and ive liked him ever since like 7th grade. he is soooo hott. but he doesnt know me. and i really wanna get to know him cuz he sounds really nice an all. but i juss dont know how exactly. i mean i juss cant go up to him and say "hi im nettie and ive liked you since....FOREVER! id freak the guy out.....i denno. and this other guy who i dont really like much, likes me...hes like crazy over me. so he says. but ppl say hes juss playin and hes sucha playa. so i dont really have to worry about him......but i still dont know what to do.....i mean the first guy isnt that hot...but im like good friends with him to like not care about hes looks, and the second guy is like a TOTAL HUNK....hes like one of those GQ models...LoL...well almost...i denno.....

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wow...nutangs changed alot since ive been away...i kinda forgot about this...lol. hmm lets see whats happened since christmas... well during christmas break i gotta go to CALIFORNIA! it was soooo much fun. seeing all my friends and chillin around an azn community. it was great. new years was fun...gotta paRtY! fun fun stuff. first week of skool back in the new year was ok. it wasnt bad. the teacher treated us like we were new and stuff. so its s'all good. 2nd week was when things got all...erggg. lol. in chorus were learnin the lion king broadway. with some dance moves going along with that...gunna be cool. whoever goes to ffx high should come! the other classes were the same ol same ol. i found out this guy in my french class likes me....and i told like ngoc and rhea and ke and diane and its like 2 for 2. 2 of them said that he likes every gurl and hes juss tryin to get some and the other 2 was like cool and wow. and so i dont know if hes tellin the truth or not. n he said stuff like hes not a player and yea....im so confused. i still think this other guys hot but he doesnt even know i exsist...maybe i should juss give up on him...i mean if he doesnt know me now...he prolly never will. and i mean other guys will come! like that guy in french for instance. so yea thats about it this past...month. well write lateR *nettie*

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this might b the last time i write in here unless theres something i NEED to share but cant write in my xanga...so yeh....

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err i wish i was back in california....theres nothing here for me to do or see. everyone doesnt give that im back....cept for ke and diane. california was so funnnnnnn i wished it never ended!!!! my cousins are soooooooo cooll. hahaha yeh well if u need to know nething about my trip in california visit ma xanga site im out...pc

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yepp new layout i was gettin tired of the other one...this one looks better...well to update u on my not so wonderful life....i still dream of *him* but i denno what it all means -_- bleck. least i get to spend all of mondy with him...well not with with but in the same room..hehe erm we have a chorus concert wedensday!! whoop whoop....lol. only a week left till winter break!!! WHOOPIEEEEEEEE i really need a break ive had so much stress and lots of work i dont have time to rest and chill with my friends. and i get to go to CALI! to chill with my coolie cousins. lol. and my cousins are comming over on the 19th frm tX....

like good things theres always bad things....my aunt from my dad side is in like total depression and she tries to kill herself so my mom has to watch her kid so she wont kill him while shes in the isane asylum. and the kid is cute and all but instead of my mom watching him I have to watch him...i mean its fun and all but i have to do my hw and actually pass this year and ive got important things to do. erg i deno what to do! i mean i cant let her kill herself but theres nothing i can do to help her either. shes in complete depression. i mean she tried to kill herself lik 2 times. iuno every nowadays wants to kill their self and i cant stand by and watch them do that to themselves but on the other had anything i say doesnt affect their decision....ergggg i hate my life.

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ok i know this is weird cuz i never write that much in here nemore but this is the only place i can write things w.out ppl from ma skool knowing so much. and i cant write in xanga cuz toooo many ppl like read it so ill write in here. newayz....is it ok if u dream of a guy like 3 times in a row...the guy meanin ma crush..tha sophmore one. i mean on friday i was at like a partie or somthing and i kissed him, saturday i was like in this elective class and we were working on our assignment and i sat across from him and we were talking and stuff and sayin stuff like how much we have in common and he asked if i liked him and than i woke up, sunday hMM lets see...oh yeh i was at hes house or somthin cuz it wasnt my house and i dont think it was ne of ma friends and we were juss chillin watching movies n eatin n stuff juss me n him. this is weiRD cuz 1) he doesnt even know me and 2) i didnt know i liked him that much....i mean he BARELY knows me....he doesnt even know i exsist. *sigh* all i wanted was a guy for xmas...that and a cell phone. but i got the cell phone covered.....well i almost got the guys covered i mean joey allen wanted to ask me out and diane wants to fix me up with this guy from her church named JT...i havent seen him but he sounds hot? i denno......i denno if i wanna go out with joey i heard he likes me aLoT *sigh* i juss wanna date hiM!!! but i guess thats never gunna happen. cuz i mean in lyk 3 years hes gunna b going to college and theres like millions out there in the world. and what if i never ever see him again?! that sounds really depressing. i mean 3 years sounds a long time but in reality it all goes by really fast.....hmmm if i never see him again i guess its not fate? i denno ppl ask me like y i like him so much if he barely knows me and i dont know much about him...but i DO know hes soOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO friggin hot!!!! and that he DOES care about hes gradES unlike other JOCKS! LoL...and he tries to like...attend every sport that there is i mean theres football in fall (which hes VeRY veRy veRY good @!!) basketball in winter (iuno if hes good or not) and lacross in spring (hes ok at this...so ive heard) i mean im not in ne sports this year....i wouldve been in CheER! but they changed the tryouts to ma birfday so i didnt wanna go....and hes really nice to hes friends!! and hes all like...ghetto, pimp or w.ev the hell he is...LoL besides being a jock....iuno... i really dont...i need a break from reality...imma go buhbi

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