a lot of ppl have started this year with positive feelings& jes having preconceived notions that this year will be great.

i wish i could say the same. i've started this year on a bad foot and so i can't help but feel like this year is gonna be crap with what's intended to come up this year. like with college apps& stuff.

yeno like, where's the FUN?. i dont kno what it's like to have a blast anymore. and when my thots finally reach school i think oh great, more hell. i wish my school was a normal hs with more action it. my school is so boring and predictable.

sometimes i feel like i'm being fake to people. u kno, hiding the negative. but i can't help but see the positive side for other people. but when it comes to myself, that's a different story. sometimes i feel like no one listens to me. and that there IS NO ONE that will listen to me like i listen to them. i do my very best to be an active listener. but sometimes i feel like there's no one who will do the same. i mean, there ARE people who listen to me. thanks. but sometimes even my closest friends arent REALLY listening u kno? i jes wanna be understood. if i start talking &try tah tell u something and i can see that ur not listening, like for example you're busy doing something else and not responding to what i'm saying& just giving me a whatever attitude when whatever i'm sayin is more shocking than that, well then it really makes me feel bad. how would YOU feel if i did that to you? pretty dumb& crappy right?

i listen to ppl so much i dont think that ppl are truly listening to me. or maybe i FEEL like i listen to others well but maybe they dont feel like i do. i hope u do. becuz i really think i do. i dont know.

maybe it's this pms speaking.

school is starting soon. and bahh, i dont wanna go. school is total hell. not only the work, but the ppl, the environment. but luckily, i have my few closest frenz to save me. i dont kno how i get it thru it. without them, ideno. i'd suffer even more!

well, i'm starting a new bg for this thing, afterall, christmas IS kinda over. i have one right now but i feel that it's too "messy". like i need somethin simpler. uhkay bye.

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