yeno wha song i'm really feelin riggh now?...BREAKING THE HABIT by LINKIN PARK. it's awesome and i love it =) and if u disagree, i dont kare wha u think so get off my bak!

well lass night..er should i say early this morning at midnight..my dad was being an ass cuz he thinks i was doin my stupid lil storybook thing for ms love last minute. well psh. ok, i kinda was but i dint procrastinate thaat much. it's not my fault it's so complicating trynna put the stupid pages together correctly so wen i fold it, it's right. and u kno wha he sed..he sed that IF HE FINDS ME OR MY BROTHER DOING HW/project thingys LATE AGAIN THEN HE WON'T LET US FINISH and HE DOESN'T CARE IF WE DONT TURN IT IN or somethin like that. man BEEYATCH. shiit. he almost made me cry right b4 i slept. cuz i sucked it up when he was still there. but wen it was time to sleep i thot bowt ev'rythin that jes happened/jes sed and i felt like CRYING and i only shed a few tears and forced myself to stop so i dont get puffy eyes later in the morning. it worked.

i feel like i'm gettin more depressed. that one day I WONT BE ABLE TO TAKE IT NE MORE and i jes mite go thru DEPRESSION. so don't be surprised. cuz i'm like on the verge of it. and if u think this is jes another depressing entry and another depressing emo girl. then go ahead and leave. leave me all alone. I ALWAYS FELT ALONE ANYWAY. so it wouldnt make a difference.

but wen i'm at school i'm a different person on the most part. i dont think most ppl see the sadness that's really in me. speshully these past few days. cuz the moment has passed and i dont feel the same exact emotion i felt wen i was upset u kno? like if i cry one night..the nex day if i tell sum1 i'll jes feel angry or sad but i won't cry. and wen i'm at school i'm happier in general compared to how i really feel. IF YOU COULD READ MY MIND YOU'D THINK I WAS GOIN THRU DEPRESSION. and that's a fact. lass night wen i was driving and i was waitin in the car wen my dad went in his boat..and i was left alone on the driver's seat in a parked car at night in a quiet area....well that gave me a lot of time to think. and u wouldn't believe the things i thot or went on thru my head. i cant recall the exact words, but u jes hafta trust me.

school is still a biitch. so it dusnt make it ne better. well, i'm out. peace.

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yeno what else happened today. ((i'm waitin for my bro to finish cleanin my toothbrush. he's my slave. haha sike)). they started that "mr& mrs syhy" ((pronounced: sigh-high)). and the teachers played musical chairs and for the ladies ms love won...she grabbed the chair!! it was so funny. and for the guys...this i think pe teacher named mr. maxuel won. dude I DINT KNO HE EXISTED! shay was all sayin that he's fiiine/hottt. he's african america. i guess he is pretty cute for a teacher. it's kinda weird judgin teachers, but that's jes me.

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don't be sad girlie. Dads say lots of mean things, including mine. We're on bad terms rite now....but haha, nuff about me. So in a sense I can relate to the emotions you are/were/still/are going to go through. Hang in there, u'll be just fine.
» Minooka on 2004-09-08 05:32:19

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