Been awhile since Ive written in this puppy huh? Well well well! Whats going on in your world? Mine, is the still complicated mess that I put myself in that was going on like last week? Yes...we are talking about my relationship with Skylar. Well, I might say I think we are having problems, or atleast I still am...and he thinks everything is fine. I dunno, I guess I just....I dunno! *sighs* Its like the whole world is asking me to give, and I dont want too, and its saying do it, so I say FINE, and stomp my fight, and pout..and go on with everyday of my life being the same confusion, the same ole shit, but just a different day. Im getting really tired, and Im not feeling to great. Every muscle in my body is going friggin crazy and Im just like, I cant stop, I have to keep going. We lost to Wylausing tonight. Im not going to say we did great because personally, I played like shit. I dunno, I guess I was just thinking too much. I do better when I dont think at all I guess. I dunno, maybe Im just really tired, and Im making up excuses. Anyways, we have practice tomorrow at 10, which sucks, because I was really hoping that maybe she would give us it off and I could actually sleep in...ohhh probably not. I hate itttttt! Seriously, we need to do more living hitting instead of pitching of the pitching machine. Im getting nothing from it but seeing the same ole pitch every friggin time. Many people have said lets do some live pitching, but nooooo it never happens. Poor Sarah...I feel bad because I think her arm is going to fall off from pitching so much, and I guess I try to hard in the batters box to hit and go good, we atleast have a base runner so it wont be so hard on her. She is my idol...I swear, I love her to pieces, and she is hurting, Im sure, and I just want to give her a big hug. She probably doesnt want anyone to know about it and feel sorry for her, I wouldnt want that on myself, but people need to know that she is awesome for pitching and going through it all...I dunno what Im saying so Im going to stop now. Just know, Sarah is awesome! hehe... Anyways... I hurt my ankle tonight during warm ups..then I was running down the line and it like cracked and gave out on me and I fell...weird I know..but it happened. My ass hurts because the field was hard. Anyways, they are NTL champs..which they deserve it. I mean, people say they are bitches, but I mean, we could have been the same way. Right? People can call me a bitch, I dont care, I just.. I dunno, I think its hard to say that a team doesnt deserve it, well they did if they defeated everyone. Im not saying we couldnt have beat them, because we can, and we could have. But out bats SUCK ASS! Im going back to my original stance, and Im not doing what they tell me too, because obiviously, it is getting me friggin no where. I swear to God, Im getting so pissed off, and its doing me friggin nothing..GAH! I hate it... Anyways, enough complaining I guess...I have enough to think about. Right now, Im going to think about going to be and hopefully, try to goodnights sleep. I might take some Nyquil or something to calm me down...might work right? Right...peace






listening to: The Killers: Mr. Brightside
mood: Tired

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