watching: last night i saw the notebook it was realy good it reminded me of me an tim
listening to: taking back sunday
mood: unsure
the greatest high is the one u get from life. today i woke up and this pain tuging at my heart. thinking of tim. dreaming of tim. wondering does he think of me as much as i think of him.does he realy love me.these quitions that i have no answers to, because i havent talked to him in like 3 weeks and that hurts.last night my cousin said i need to think about the posabilty that he has another girl friend. but i dont know.that is the one thing that keeps me from being high on life is not knowing.i dont care if he does well yeah i do but i just would like if he would tell me insted of me haveing to wonder.i hope that he is being as faithful to me as i am to him. i love him so much but if i am not the one he wonts to be with than so be it .i just wont him to tell me if thats true or not. then on the other hand he could be still grounded or at his dads.but if i look past it im finly content with the past i regret. iv fact all my demens and now its time to move on but ill never forget the ones who make me smile.i will never forget tim because hes my frist love and first loves never leave u. ur always going to love them and dream about them. and i will never forget charlotte she has touched my soul in so many ways i cant even begin to count.well im just waiting to be able to call tim and him answer.and waiting for charlotte to get that plan ticket to come and see me.yeah i miss them so much it hurts. but i guess im going to start living my life like this saying i heard the othere day. (dont cry because its over. smily because it happend.)well iv been clean for like 2 monts now and thoughs who know me know that is realy good for me the longest iv ever been clean was like 3weeks and then i gave in. but not this time i think if i wont to get high ill just get high on life.well peace out home sqates,hehehe~ASHLI~
i no how u feel
ive lived here my whole life but i feel in love but we never went out n i went out wit dis othr gy cuz i wasnt gonna wait but he feel in love wit sum else.. yea i still dream of him n everything. if he says he loves u den i wouldnt worry bout him bein unfaithful 2 u
» sexybebe72914 on 2004-06-30 08:54:35
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