Wednesday. 9.22.04 6:45 pm
*smilez* i finally squeezed some time out to write my blog! haha, damn busy these daes. plus my laziness. grrr. wil b a long entry perhaps..dun slp! :P
Monday
he msg me at 5plus in de morn..n we continued msging each other til 9 plus.. haha, i din slp much tt dae. was kinda shock to c his msg tho. somemore, at such a timing. hmm we agreed to mit up tt dae, at nite, cos he said he wld most prolly have to ot.
wen to sch as usual in de noon for CM lecture..grr, boring my life.. most of de time, i wasnt listening at all. haha. but lucky time passed quite fast. heh. tutorial ended damn early. forever..tt teacher..either he nv explain much..or he assumes we understand it all. headed to de library to clear some proj stuff. i feel a load off my shoulder wen i print stuff, cos there's satisfaction. *grin* but whether its gd quality work, it is another thg la. did some of my FM too since there was stil a little time.. had planned to mit babe in town ard evening. hah, but she was late! as usual babe! u must feel honoured, cos im always waiting for u! bleah.
i walked rd taka myself..lookin at mooncakes..haha, was planning to buy one box for his family. but im not pro at mooncakes. i dun reali like traditional kinds..prefer de snow skin one. hee. wanted to get him de durian ones, but gotta put into de fridge within an hr, so a bit impossible la. anyway, i rem him tellin me tt his family prefer de traditional kind, so i got him tt lor, from raffles hotel. saw many pple buying, so shld b quite nice la. he called me, sayin tt he'll b a little late, can only mit at 9+..i was ok wif it :)
babe came n we had dinner at Mos Burger- again! lolz. chatted awhile bout guys as usual..haha, so typical of us. oh, babe gave me a pinkish-red tulip! hee, so nice of her. thanks babe, im tryin to feel better. dun worrie :) while eating, he called me again, n gosh, he said he cld leave his office le n is on de way to mit me. alamak. bo bian, i told him earliest can only mit at 830. din wan to jus pang seh babe. haha. whatsmore, im stil eating! hmm, im so sori babe! u noe my condition yea? zz... hope u n 'teddy' finds a solution! not gd to b a third party! :(
left towards city hall to mit him after tt. sat ard at raffles city BK since he was having his dinner there. i dunno how to explain how i felt wen i saw him. it was a mixed feeling i guess. elated + angry + disappointed + sad...
i gave him part of his prezzie..plus de card n mooncakes. talked a bit bout school n work. he seem to have lost weight, tho he claim tt he has put on. looks stress n tired too. must b de work. im hapi tt he has become a permanent employee there... got pay increment somemore. :) he read de card n i saw him cry.. tho he tried to hide. cld c his tears some how. sigh..
we den walked to de esplanade.. on de way, stopby n sat at some benches. saw his leg like not right, so i tout it wld b better to sit down. tink he injured his leg or sth. tok a bit..i tried to tok bout happie stuff..i reali tried to control my emotions. made myself smile n laugh..haha, i tink i laugh a lot tt nite. after tt, headed to Black Angus for a drink. nice ambience i must sae. n it was like only 2 of us, plus another couple! haha, so empty sia.
we ordered de ice-cream brownie cake thingy! similar to de haggen dazz one! so delicious! hee, plus beer n raspberry margarita..(is tt how u spell?) haha, treated him tis meal, which is so full! even wen we shared! cos both of us had dinner. hmm. tok quite a lot..until de place close..haha..told him some stuff tt happen to me. lolz. n he laugh. prolly he dun believe stil gt guys wan me! wahahah. he send me home after tt..
i dunno how i felt. i came home crying. haha, so dumb n silly rite? he wanted to kp in contact but hmm is it de right thg to do? after much tout, i msg " i tink its best we dun kp in contact. jus tk it tt u dunno me. i dun wan to be a bitch. now tt u hav a gd life, treat her well. de time spent wif me is nv better than de time u spent wif her.
im glad we met today. my purpose was jus to pass u ur prezzie. i tried controllin my emotions cos i wan u to rem me as a happie ger. tk care. " m i being too cruel? i hope not..its nt tt i dun wan to kp in touch, but i felt 'force' to msg him tt.
Tuesday
so lazy to get out of bed..im a pig...! de dae was long.. n draggy.. came home feelin so shitty cos of GM proj. tutor made it seem as if we're gonna fail our proj cos of 'slowness'. hai. if i fwd...i gonna rem him! my grp is stil stuck at de stupid entry mode.. we only allocate de work for de 4Ps today.. exactly 1 wk left 2 complete! argh!!
i laze ard at home.. n i fell asleep while watchin tv! shit! i set my alarm to wake up at 2am but things always dun go as plan! haha. i send 'J' a fwd msg, n we jus kept sms-ing each other! haha. its a bit mushy perhaps, so bear wif it. lolz.
after de fwd msg i sent..
J: haha, so funny of u! good nite too..
me: err, very funny meh? send u fwd msg also can b funny de ar? lolz..nite nite..
J: jus like u make me day, haha! jokin wif u lah..im now wif ur bf amir. he send his regards to u..
me: haha, i also noe u jokin. i whr gt so pro, can mek ur dae. err, he nt my bf lor.. dun anyhow sae. help me send my regards to him too! tel him i nv 4get him!
J: but he miss ur tweety bird voice..how?
me: wei....both of ur r so bad to me! forever sayin me..grrr..dun wan to entertain u liao.. :(
J: relac la, jus a remark lah..so wen wil i cu again? i miss u leh..
me: haha of cuz i relac la. im stil alive n kicking. lolz. ehhh tentaively next lesson is next fri la, if nth crops up. u sure u mis me? pls lor, no nid to sae i also noe u bluff me.
J: ok, so i shall c u again on fri, darlin! haha..
me: hah darlin? i pity ya gf man!
J: u my gf mah...haha!
me: eh i dun hav de honour lor. tink u hav a lot of unofficial gfs la..always got so many sentosa babe fond of u..!
J: den y dun u b a sun babe den? it wld b wonderful! i like sun babe, haha! ..sms u again, wanna makan now.
me: haha i dun hav de criteria to b a sun babe lor. eh last wk my dedication was read out. haha got dedicate to u lor. n de dj said ur name sounds like some hunk. lolz. kkk u go eat ba..
J: which stn? 933 or 987? dun amke me happy leh..
me: hmm 933..haha no joke la. tt dae on mc, den dedicate in de noon. hah i bluff u 4 wad. nite nite.
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lalala.. babe, mit u next wk, we go drink k!
he called me bout 1 plus.. n we talked til 3am.. so end up.. i din do much of my proj! grrr. *guilty* i dunno wad we tok until tok so long also.. but well, hai, suppose not to contact rite? zzz. tel me how, tel me how?!
Wednesday
everyone look so stress wif all de projects! tis yr reali kill us! a rare chance for me to get home ard 3+ today.. was suppose to discuss FM, but deicided to postpone cos everyone was busy settling their MC.. so..nvm, tml den..
gonna hav my dinner n gao tim all my projects liao! must do sth tonite to make up for last nite! sheesh.
tis is a real long entry! :P