Sometimes people think that what they tell you is going to scare you into doing the right thing. Scare tactic right? Sometimes my parents do that. Sometimes it doesn't HELP. Actually it just moves my focus off my goals.

My parents tell me how stupid I am because I don't think things through. That may be true, but at least I'm better off than most people. I am stupid. I have accepted that. But being stupid isn't what I am ALL about. Being stupid is just something I'm good at. There's more to me than being stupid.

I've made the same mistake three times. It's hard for me to learn from my own mistakes. I learn better when it happens to other people. So this is me, the third time, in the same position as I had been in the past 2 years. No growth, no intellect, no insight.


So something has to change this time and I think I should STOP being scared. I should focus more on what I need to do. Shut out the noise from my ears. Harden my outer shell. Freeze my heart. Tune my brain. I can't let these attempts to scare me into making smart decisions ruin my path to becoming a decent person.

It will never be tragedy all the time. It will never be happiness all the time. There's a quiet aftermath and this is it.

I chose to survive. Now it's time to make the best of what I have and what I know.

I know that things seem down and negative right now but when you lack something there is something that always makes up for it. For example, the blind person cannot see but has exceptional hearing. The deaf person can taste things in food that we, the hearing cannot.

If you are not smart academically you may be talented in the arts. (drawing, acting, singing etc) Or you maybe smart at dealing with people. There is also a thing called common sense. People who are book smart, dont have any common sense. They need to be told what to do all the time.

So, figure out what it is that you are "smart" in and then take it from there!
» KKama67 on 2007-11-28 07:12:07

Thank you for the encouragement. It really means a lot to me.
» xanaxforsleep on 2007-11-30 04:46:43

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