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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | like scrambled eggs Sunday. 3.25.07 8:07 pm SO I havent done shit all weekend... I havent worked out since Wednesday and even then I only did step class I didnt even do my regular workout too... I just slept, ate, slept, ate, layed around all freaking week and it's starting to et to me but I also have no motivation right now to get to the gym or go for the night run that the girls left on. I was going to go but then plans got messed up and here I am, it's so dark outside i don't want to go anymore. I also didn't even get any school work done. I figured out some grad school stuff at least it terms of which programs I like but that's it. What I did get out of this weekend however was some quality time with Keith... which all in all makes it harder to think about this summer and next year. We went out for breakfast Saturday morning which was really nice. I could get used to that.
Life seems to always be about waiting, yet i know that while we;re waiting other things happen and we miss those glorious opportunities. But I just would like to be able to stop waiting so I can finally enjoy the moment and not want time to go faster as to cut down on the waiting, and be afraid of losing time. However, there's this summer and Spain to get through, next year with me at school and Keith finding a job somewhere to get through, then me settling on grad school and Keith's job, and then two to 5 years of grad school somewhere... I mean seriously, 6 more years before I can start my life the way I want it? Sounds ridiculous right? Sounds intolerable... but I guess that's the way things are, and all we can do is just wait and see how it all pans out. See what is meant to be. I just hate waiting. So the whole non exercise funk hasn't hit me until right now... now I feel it and I don't even know what to do about it. I should go to the gym by myself but I don't feel like it, but I should. Shit. Then my 21st birthday is coming up and I don't even want to go out or anything.. Tom is coming in from Penn state which is awesome but I;m starting to think that it'll just be like a small thing now instead of this huge extravaganza cuz everyone will be out of town, so it'll be a small thing, just a few of us, at a bar... which i guess could be nice too. yea. it could be nice. Tomorrow will be a fresh start. I'll be healthy and I can have a great week! Campaigning, getting people to vote, finding out the results of the election... maybe going to the brewery for dinner on wednesday. Yes, tomorrow will be better. Recommended by 1 Member 5 Comments. HI! Your title seriously made me crave eggs. lol. » MsFit on 2007-03-25 08:38:01 I haven't really exercised in about two weeks. :/ I'm going to tonight, especially after that sammich. :( » ikimashokie on 2007-03-25 08:45:44 Ok, now I really have to get myself a sandwitch » juliocstryfe1 on 2007-03-25 10:52:18 well whatever it is you do.... it better be righteous...OR ELSE!!! » Rip-Tide-Prophecy on 2007-03-25 11:38:51 Leave me alone! I have thought and have removed the idea cheap paxil It is very valuable answer xanax prescription In my opinion, you are not right. xanax mail I think, that you commit an error. buy phentermine This business of your hands! buy adipex c3e419 » Lyndon (61.244.235.34) on 2010-09-04 07:49:52
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