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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.
What you need to know
Name: Meggyo
Status: in a relationship
Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity
Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit
Location: Hershey PA for now
Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life
Where I wish I was: in his arms
Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be?
Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley
The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation,
the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living.
Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!”
Just stand up quietly and dance with me.

Show me how you follow your deepest desires,
spiraling down into the ache within the ache,
and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward
to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day.

Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart.
Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.

Tell me a story of who you are,
and see who I am in the stories I live.
And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.

Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day.
Show me you can risk being completely at peace,
truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment,
and again in the next and the next and the next. . .

I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring.
Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall,
the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will.
What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?

And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving
those we once loved out loud.

Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance,
the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart.
And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.

Show me how you take care of business
without letting business determine who you are.
When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price,
let us remind each other that it is never about the money.

Show me how you offer to your people and the world
the stories and the songs
you want our children’s children to remember.
And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world,
but to love it.

Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude,
knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging.
Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words,
holding neither against me at the end of the day.

And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest
intentions has died away on the wind,
dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale
of the breath that is breathing us all into being,
not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.

Don’t say, “Yes!”
Just take my hand and dance with me.
they say
Tuesday. 10.24.06 10:27 am
They say that injured patients have the risk of getting depression. One of my recently thought up theories is that the cause of this is the fact that they cannot do what they normally do, so their body gets thrown all out of whack and their chemical balances are no longer in homeostasis. Hence... the depression.

Ever since I injured my foot and have not been able to walk much let alone run, jump, workout it has surely changed my mood and not in a good way. I am frusterated, angry, agitated, sad, aggressive, and irritable... just because I can't do what I want to do and even if I didn't do, at least I would've been able to. When I feel crappy about myself it then in turn reflects how I feel about everything else... my grades, my work, my relationships with people, my own image, my abilities. Most of the time I just want to sleep, not even because I am tired but because there is nothing else i feel like doing even when so much could be done. I have no motivation to do work, and my need to be around people just increases greatly because lonliness is even worse when you can't stand being with yourself.

I think out of all mental illnesses I could ever fall into depression is the most likely. Now we can get into the whole theory about why that is the case... has it been learned because so many family members around me have escaped their troubles that way too, or is it genetic and that without enough physical activity since I had it so much when I was little, my body goes out of whack and becomes imbalanced? It's hard... you know you feel better when you exercise but when you don't feel like doing anything you dont want to exercise... however the difference here is that normally I find someone else who makes me go exercise, because I can, but with this recent foot problem I cant even cure myself because there is no way how. I think that, right there, is why injured patients can get depressed. All of us have some ways of self regulating ourselves, our moods, our weight, what have you. However when we are sick or bed ridden or injured we are limited as to what we can do to self regulate ourselves again.

Shivering as I am, I guess I should go find a better sweatshirt to wear out in the wintery cold to get to my next class.
3 Comments.


you sound depressed
You should find activities that won't require much physical activity.. maybe TV, movies, parties.
» dave on 2006-10-24 01:17:06

Oh, and I forgot.. studying, too. =D
» dave on 2006-10-24 01:17:30

points about your that i love: You are honest, you always look beautiful, you make me feel less alone when i freak out about balancing stuff, you could be the nicest person i know, i love you lots and am always here for you.
» GooseGirl on 2006-10-28 11:25:30

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